Of Emotions and Electronics
13,834 Days Alive
1,677 Words Written Today
1,333 Days Straight on Duolingo
1 Accidental Nap
I was not as productive as I wanted to be today. Just… emotionally overwhelmed. I hate this particular holiday. Mother’s Day is not a happy day for me.
Continue reading “Of Emotions and Electronics”Of Mozzarella Sticks and Marksmanship
13,833 Days Alive
1,332 Days Straight on Duolingo
1 Cyclops NOT Killed in Our Weekly Pathfinder Game
Ooo, am I am squeaking in at the last minute here, so I’ll type fast.
Continue reading “Of Mozzarella Sticks and Marksmanship”Prompt Answer: Career Path
What is your career plan?
It’s less a path, more a seldom-navigated deer track in the woods. I have a day job that I might turn into a career.
But in my heart of hearts, I want to be a published author. I want to sell my stories and be able to support myself.
Writing is my love.
Of Typewriters and Talking
13,831 Days Alive
2 Slices of Pizza Eaten
I talked J into buying an old typewriter today! Mellon and I are also talking about going to see them and Charles for the weekend before my birthday in late June.
Continue reading “Of Typewriters and Talking”Of Sour Stomach and Stress
13,830 Days Alive
1 Ongoing Sour Stomach
I’m still feeling wretched. Physically, emotionally. But at least I still love my job and have a great support system.
Continue reading “Of Sour Stomach and Stress”Prompt Answer: Just One Day
What’s a job you would like to do for just one day?
A job I’d like to do for just one day, just to fulfill my childhood dream, is be a bartender at a tiny, hole in the wall, nowheresville bar. Just once.
I wanted so badly to be a great server and bartender when I was growing up. My mom worked at TGIFriday’s when I was a kid and somewhere in the world is a picture of little six or seven year old me wearing her uniform shirt like a dress.
Of Misery and Muttering
13,828 Days Alive
1 Migraine
I called out of work today due to migraine. My head is still killing me but the halo is gone.
I’m going to bed.
Take your meds, folks.
Of Tiles and Travel
13,827 Days Alive
121 Miles Driven in the Dark, Rainy Night
5 Games of Mahjong Played
2 Games of Mahjong Won!
1 Plate of Nachos Eaten
I had nachos for dinner at a Denny’s with Mellon outside of Michigan City, Indiana at half past midnight this morning.
Continue reading “Of Tiles and Travel”Last Night’s Bonfire for the Full Moon
Work Selfie!
Prompt Answer: Quote to Live By
Do you have a quote you live your life by or think of often?
In times of strife or stubble, much like I am going through right now, I bring to mind Max Ehrmann’s poem Desiderata. It is a few years shy of a century old poem, but resonates so strongly with me in so many ways.
One line in particular strikes a chord with me to the point of wanting to get it tattooed onto me:
Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here.
Max Ehrmann, 1927
source: https://www.desiderata.com/desiderata.html
That last line in particular helps me. “You have a right to be here.” I don’t always feel that I do. I don’t often feel like I wish to be here. It’s a daily battle I wage against my own brain gremlins.
I hate that I’m suicidal. It makes me feel like I’m weak or something.
All I can do is keep going.
Of Hurting and Hunger
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