Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
14,770 Days Alive
2,208 Days Straight on Duolingo
3 Tires Pumped Full of Air
2 Slices of Supreme Deep Dish Pizza Eaten
Tonight is the final full moon of 2025. I have maybe three set goals for next year. It’s very hard for me to think forward what all I want to do is have everything stop.
Continue reading “Of Endings and Everything Else”
14,765 Days Alive
33 Years Since I Hugged Fievel Mouskewitz
10+ Inches of Snow Fell in the Past 24 Hours
3+ Happy Crying Jags Today
1/2 Serving of Baked Beef and Bean Nachos
Trigger warning past this initial paragraph: physical child abuse. This first part is happy, I swear.
Well. Today’s the day! He arrived! I am so freaking gleeful. Mr Fievel Mousekewitz is in my arms as I type this. As above, I have broken down crying, hugging said 39 year-old stuffed animal, at least three times so far today. A dear friend, named here as Lois, gifted him to me. He is 22 inches tall, still has his hat, shirt, trousers, and tail! He’s new to me, but used to belong to someone named Corey. Thank you so, so, so much for taking good care of Fievel for me to enjoy now.
Continue reading “Of Memories and Mouskewitz”
14,761 Days Alive
239 Days Until My 15th Millenary Anniversary
5 +/- Types of Flowers I Want to Make into an Art Piece
Did you know that I can’t have any of my top three favorite flowers due to their potential toxicity to cats? Yup. Buttercups, specifically ranunculus like delphinium, foxglove, and tiger lilies are my hands-down favorite flowers.
Continue reading “Of Reality and Ranunculaceous”
14,760 Days Alive
It’s ten days till 4th of December. Between the death-anniversary, money stress, a uterus in literal bloody rebellion, and a three day and counting tension headache, I just want it to stop being so hard to be alive.
Take your meds, folks.
14,758 Days Alive
6 Cookies Given to L to Enjoy
1 Massive Tub of Popcorn
I cried. In a mostly-good way, but yeah, that movie was a fist to the emotional solar plexus.
Continue reading “Of Onions and Overnight”
14,757 Days Alive
36 Peanut Butter Chocolate Chip Cookies Made
18 Ounces of Peanut Butter
1 Cookie Eaten
Son of a bitch. Guess who forgot to hit post again?
I have a social event tomorrow morning in the form of meeting up with L at the local AMC Theater to go see a matinee showing of Brendan Fraser’s new film, Rental Family. I am super excited about it!
Continue reading “Of Recipes and Rest”
14,754 Days Alive
6-ish Hours Until I Need To Drop Llama Off At the Airport
1 Goal List To Be Made Tomorrow
Still tired, in pain; but far less than yesterday and Sunday evening.
We have to be up and out the door by 0530 tomorrow. Ugh. I will be sad to see Llama go, but I hope she had fun this trip.
Take your meds, folks.
14,753 Days Alive
1,600 Milligrams of Ibuprofen Taken in the Last Twenty-Four Hours
45 Days and Counting Until 2026
2 Legs Elevated to Help with Pain and Slight Swelling
I way, way, way overdid it this weekend. I regret none of my choices, just the consequences and inconvenience of being in a lot more pain than usual.
Continue reading “Of Recovery and Realizations”
14,750 Days Alive
2,088 Days Streak on Duolingo
Well, posts AGAIN work a lot better if one remembers to actually POST them. Ugh
In my defense, I was absolutely exhausted. Poor Lucian woke up with a migraine, which was miserable, so Llama and I hit up the local botanical garden instead, just the two of us.
Continue reading “Of Gladness and Gardens”
14,745 Days Alive
65 Hours, Give Or Take, Until Llama Arrives
4th Week of Diagnostic Coding for Medical Billing Starting Tomorrow
3 Chicken Teriyaki Foil Packets
Okay, this time I didn’t fall asleep without posting. I did however get completely sidetracked trying to put my room back together. Brian built the new desk I got off Amazon for me today. You know, the one I’ve been meaning to build for like three weeks now? That one.
Continue reading “Of Foil and Furniture”
14,744 Days Alive
89 Hours, 5 Minutes Until Llama Arrives!
53 Days Until the Gregorian New Year
2 33 1/3 (LP) Records Listened to Today
1 Pan of Challah Bread Pudding Made
I knocked it out of the park today! Baking, at least. Desk still is not built, but Brian said he would help me oh tomorrow with it.
Continue reading “Of Snickerdoodle Frosties and Snowfall”
14,743 Days Alive
5 Days and Counting Until Llama Comes to Visit
1 Desk STILL Not Put Together
For some reason I cannot fathom, I am having the hardest damn time getting to building my new desk. I need someone to sit with me. My brain just needs someone to parallel and yammer at. I am not good with silence right now.
Continue reading “Of Expenses and Experiences”
14,742 Days Alive
2,606 Days Straight on Postmark Wonderland
2,182 Days in a Row on Duolingo (Esperanto and Spanish)
1 Amazing New Friend Met
This blog of mine went live in the immediate wake of my diagnosis as bipolar back in autumn of 2018. It is an online haven of my struggles, successes, trials, adventures, mishaps, and medical/therapudic experiences. It’s not for everyone, and that’s okay.
Continue reading “Of Root Beer and a Radio Show”
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