Of Travel and Tuna Breath

September 7, 2026 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

15,046 Days Alive

47 Minutes Spent Cleaning Up My Room with Owl as my Body Double

22 Days to Finish the Surprise Daisy Cardigan for Grandma Gator

22 Days Until My Commencement Trip

11/38 Daisy Motifs Made

2 Packets of Garlic and Herb Tuna Eaten for Dinner that Benny the Cat Tried to Help Me Eat

Drove the 144 miles from Owl’s place in Illinois back to Madison today. Only a few more weeks and I’ll be living there full time. The same amount of time until my commencement trip.

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Of Beloved and Bawling

September 1, 2026 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

15,040 Days Alive

94 Days till Hanukkah

77 Days Since Spock Passed Away

65 Days Since I Turned 41

0 Days Since I’ve Broken Down Crying

I miss him so fucking much. It’s not fair, it’s not fair, it’s not fucking fair. I got sixteen years with my beloved Spockeroni, but my love for him is now grief, as grief is love with nowhere to go.

I’m going to bed. Happy start of the -ber months, y’all.

Take your meds, folks.

Of Untimely Demises and Unbearable Weight

August 26, 2026August 27, 2026 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

15,034 Days Alive

138 Miles to Drive from Work to the Parliament of Chaos

9 Tim Burton Comfort Films Watched in the Last Month

4 Specific Movies to Watch Planned (9 to 5, Clue, Steel Magnolias, and Muppet Treasure Island)

2 Days Until I Travel to the Parliament of Chaos Again

1 Crying Fit at 5am…Again

Life sure is life-ing again. It’s been a month since my last entry. I was trying to get back into the daily habit of blogging but seem to have, at least temporarily, failed.

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Of Caterwauling and Cuddles

July 26, 2026 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

15,003 Days Alive

144+ Miles Driven Today

2 Hours of Country for Car Karaoke Sung Along To

Owl and I fell asleep cuddling and watching an early collection of The Great British Baking Show. As such, I left almost an hour later than I usually do to go back to Madison. I am… toast after this weekend.

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Of Passing and Packing

July 25, 2026 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

15,002 Days Alive

313 Miles Travelled Today

2 Chicago-Style Hot Dogs Eaten

Trigger warnings: loss of pet, grief, depression

I miss my Spock. He passed away, in my arms, on the 16th of June. Five weeks and I am still devastated. He was 16 and will be greatly, greatly missed.

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Of Brute Strength and Blessings

June 13, 2026 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,960 Days Alive

1,085 Days Since My Mother’s Death

I am down in Illinois visiting my girlfriend Owl and I realized that I genuinely feel like she is a supportive partner, not a child masquerading as an adult. It’s a rather glorious realization.

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Of Demolition and Determination

June 12, 2026 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,959 Days Alive

144 Miles to Drive Tomorrow Morning

13 Homework Assignments Done Tonight

3 Mild Italian Sausage Meatballs Eaten with Dinner

Tomorrow morning at bright o’clock, which here translates to approximately eight a.m., I will be trundling down the road for two plus hours to go see Owl and her parliament of chaos.

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Of Procrastination and Perfect Times

June 11, 2026 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,958 Days Alive

66 Days Since My Last Post

4 Migraines in That Time Period

1 New Romantic Partner

I had stepped away from Postmark Wonderland, intending to take a day or two break from posting. That was two months ago.

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Of Excitement and Extraordinary Ordinary Days

April 5, 2026 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,892 Days Alive

6 Eggs Scrambled for Dinner

3 Mini Waffles Eaten

1 Doctor Appointment Tomorrow

I am out of energy today. Happy Easter to those who celebrate it. Happy Sunday to those that don’t. And happy birthday to my SIL, Bubbles.

Of Audiobooks and Anxiety

April 4, 2026 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,891 Days Alive

152 Miles Driven Today to Meet Up With Uncle Comic

49 Words Per Minute Typed Going Moderately Slow

12.5 Hours Till the 221B Weekly Write In!

1 Accidental Nap

My jaw is doing the thing where it keeps randomly clenching bilaterally. I assume it’s because of anxiety, because solo trips, more than about 45 minutes have a tendency to make me anxious.

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Of Changed Plans and Challenges

April 3, 2026April 4, 2026 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,890 Days Alive

11 Hours Til I Meet Up With Uncle Comic

We got out of work early today since it is Good Friday. I haven’t ever really been in a family that religiously observed Easter, so I’m not quite sure what I should expect when I am traveling tomorrow morning.

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Of Tea Spills and Torrential Downpours

April 2, 2026 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,889 Days Alive

4 Layers of Clothing Soaked Through Getting from My Vehicle to the Front Door

1 Spilled Cup of Slightly Splenda-Sweetened Sweet Tea

Physics defeated me this evening by reminding me that an object in motion will stay in motion unless acted upon otherwise. What does that mean? My hand, and a good square foot of my bedroom carpet, got covered in diabetic-friendly sweet tea.

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Of Depression and Delinquency

March 31, 2026 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,887 Days Alive

It’s been a while.

I’m not sorry I’ve been done for a bit, but I do apologize if I worried anyone with my sudden absence. I was fried. Still am, still struggling. Doing the best I can.

Take your meds, folks.