Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
14,552 Days Alive
Spock turns fifteen tomorrow. He has a special can of wet food for his birthday dinner.
Did homework. Ate dinner. Now I’m going to read more of Gone Girl even though I’m not enjoying it thus far to see if I can get into it.
Take your meds, folks.
14,551 Days Alive
2,008 Days Straight on Duolingo
10 Chicken Nuggets Eaten for Dinner
8 New Plates/Bowls/Cup Bought From WalMart
2 Sinks Cleaned Out and Sanitized
Ooof. I am so fucking tired of this headache. C’mon Friday! Get here fast! I need iron!
Continue reading “Of Doing Dishes and Depression”
14,550 Days Alive
2,007 Days Straight on Duolingo
24th Day of My Headache
3 Days Till Spock’s 15th Birthday/Beltane
2 New Classes Started
1 Episode of Ghost Hunters Watched with Mac
Well. I tried to go to the ER after work. Four hours in, I left without ever even being triaged. I’m going to try a different ER tomorrow, if I still have this damn headache. I didn’t even check out AMA, because they never even checked me out. Ugh. Goddamnit.
Continue reading “Of Ghost Hunters and Goddammit”
14,549 Days Alive
$36.85 Spent on Med Refills Today
23rd Day of This Stupid Headache
5 Days Until My Iron Infusion Appointment
2 Dishes of Ice Cream Bought at Dari Fair
1 Call for Local Friends on the Local Subreddit Posted Today
Well. I managed to finish my first class today. Submitted all my assignments, assessments, and listened to all the lectures. I should get a solid “A” in this first class. I had a 102% at the start of the week and did pretty well on the testing parts. So I should be fine.
Continue reading “Of Trepidation and Tiredness”
14,548 Days Alive
22nd Day of This Stupid Freaking Headache
5 Weeks Done of Introduction to Healthcare Communication
6 White Chocolate Macadamia Nut Cookies Received from Doordash
1 Nat 20 Rolled on a Check During Pathfinder
Today is my fifth and final week of my first college class. I have two new classes: Student Success as well as Healthcare Settings, Claim Cycles, and Claims Processing. I’m not sure what the first class is. The second class should be fairly straightforward.
Continue reading “Of Nat 20s and Nachos”
14,547 Days Alive
44 Requests Completed at Work Today
2 Missed Phone Calls from Friends
I am so glad it’s the weekend. And that it’s payday. Holy shit was this week rough for me. Just… utterly dismal.
Continue reading “Of Dishes and Dairy Queen Blizzards”
14,546 Days Alive
6,876 Days Since I Stopped Drinking Alcohol
64 Minutes Spent Texting 988 Today
20 Days of this Fucking Headache
7 Days Till Spock’s 15th Birthday
1 Hour Till Payday
I’m still here. I’m suicidal but safe. No plan. Not enough energy to do anything anyway. Did therapy today. Lots of Big Emotions. But I’m still here.
Continue reading “Of Therapy and Tolerance”
14,545 Days Alive
19th Day of this Gorram Headache
5 Years Divorced as of Today
2 Hours of Sleep
1 Therapy Session Tomorrow
I was officially divorced from my ex-wife five years ago today.
Continue reading “Of Anniversaries and Anxiety Cleaning”
14,544 Days Alive
60+ Faxes Handled Today
30 Minutes Late to Work
18 Days of my Headache
10 Boneless Wings Eaten
My coworker was out sick today. Not usually a problem, but I didn’t fall asleep till after three am. Again. And then I overslept by almost an hour. So I was late to work.
Continue reading “Of Sleeping In and Sick Days”
14,543 Days Alive
2,000 Days Straight on Duolingo
1 Milky Way Bar Ordered Through DoorDash by Mac
I don’t like Snickers bars. Why does this matter? Rather than the single Milky Way bar I asked for when Mac was offering to order desert, I got two , king-sized Snickers bars. Sad day. they hurt my teeth, or at least the peanuts do.
Continue reading “Of Duolingo and Disappointment”
14,542 Days Alive
5th and Final Week of My First Class
2 Shredded Chicken Chimichangas Eaten
1 Chapter on Grief in the Healthcare Environment Read for Class
I slept through lunch today. I was so tired. I still am. But I got my reading done for the week for class. This week is about grief in the healthcare environment.
Continue reading “Of Squishes and Sandwiches”
14,541 Days Alive
Nat 19 Rolled in Pathfinder
13 Bites of Ben & Jerry’s Half Baked Ice Cream
3.5 Hours Overtime Worked Today
3 Buffalo-Sauce Dipped Chicken Tenders from Rally’s
47 Minute Nap
1 Discussion Board Post Made Today
I am utterly exhausted. I woke up at quarter to seven this morning…. Which absolutely sucks bawls because I didn’t fall asleep until well after four am this morning. Ugh.
Continue reading “Of Buffalo Sauce and Ben & Jerry’s”
14,540 Days Alive
1,998 Days Straight on Duolingo
4 Hours of Overtime Planned Tomorrow
It got up to nearly 75 degrees today. Had to turn on the AC and the oscillating fan in the bedroom.
Continue reading “Of Overtime and Oscillating Fans”
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