Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
14,961 Days Alive
I got to make cold processed soap today with Owl. I am more than a little worried because Mr. Spock is under the weather and he’s just so damn old for a cat.
I’m going to bed in self-defense.
Take your meds, folks.
14,891 Days Alive
152 Miles Driven Today to Meet Up With Uncle Comic
49 Words Per Minute Typed Going Moderately Slow
12.5 Hours Till the 221B Weekly Write In!
1 Accidental Nap
My jaw is doing the thing where it keeps randomly clenching bilaterally. I assume it’s because of anxiety, because solo trips, more than about 45 minutes have a tendency to make me anxious.
Continue reading “Of Audiobooks and Anxiety”
14,803 Days Alive
56 Days Until I’ve Been Alive for 15,000 Days
0 Books Chosen for the 13 Moons Reading Challenge
Well, I know this is going to be late to post because I am currently hiding in a dark room with the “ice hat” on. (Edit: called it! I slept till 1030 Wednesday morning.) I also call the thing our “hawk hat”. Whatever you call it, it is helping. Between the TheraIce frozen hat thingie, my usual cocktail of migraine meds, a full-sugar Coca-Cola (for the first time I don’t even know how long), a zero-sugar Gatorade, and a bit of drive-thru food, I hope I can get over this quickly.
I had to leave work early because of my stupid, pain-riddled body. Ugh. Just the lovely, ever-continuing adventures of the malfunctioning meatbag, I guess. I’m going to try and get some rest after I drink more water.
Take your meds, folks.
14,800 Days Alive
2,236 Days Straight on Duolingo
It’s a super moon today, the first full moon of 2026. There is also some kind of meteor shower thing that I haven’t bothered to go outside and look at. I’m so, so tired of being in discomfort, and pain, and unable to focus. I am doing my best to keep going. I’m doing yoga as often as I am physically capable of doing so. Sleep is elusive due to pain and discomfort; I fell asleep after 4 AM this morning and I assume that Sunday will be more of the same.
Take your meds, folks
14,794 Days Alive
2,230 Days Straight on Duolingo
5 Shelves on the Bookshelf I Built This Evening
3 Ibuprofen Taken
Welp, I had a full on panic attack today. Pretty much disassembled my room onto my bed trying to find the old smart watch that DW gave me back in 2020.
Continue reading “Of Hip Pain and Hydroxyzine”
14,793 Days Alive
3 Packs of Coca Cola Purchased for the House
3 Pound Bag of Yellow Onions Bought for $1.89
1 Trip to Goodwill with Lucian This Afternoon
Well, I found one more book for my bookshelf when Lucian and I went to Goodwill this afternoon.
Continue reading “Of Clean Up and Construction”
14,791 Days Alive
3 Chocolate Mint Candy Canes Taken from the Box
Another quick entry here. I don’t know what is going on with my account. I just had to reset the password for the third time in two days. Someone seems to be trying to get in, but thankfully they have not yet.
Christmas Eve and morning was awesome except for the slightly stale donuts I picked up at the grocery store yesterday. We did not get to Chinese food today because I had a panic attack and then a post-panic attack headache that nearly incapacitated me for the rest of the evening. I don’t even think I had dinner.
I’m going to go to bed. I will share pictures of our wonderful stockings and such later this week.
Take your meds, folks.
14,790 Days Alive
OK, this is gonna be a quick one because I’m running on a whole three hours of sleep today and for, I think the first time in at least five years if not longer, I have to go shopping on Christmas Eve. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it so much. But, again: most of my gifts this year to my household are edible and perishable.
We are going to try to watch Indiana Jones movies and have Chinese food for Christmas. Homemade Chinese food, cause we are broke as hell and trying to be responsible adults.
Also, tonight’s photo/GIF is not my old man, Mr. Spock, being a personal terror to a Christmas tree. It is just a random GIF that I found on GIPHY for this purpose. And that purpose is humor
Merry Christmas Eve! And take your meds, folks.
14,789 Days Alive
2 Packets of Hot Cocoa Powder Accidentally Added to My Cup
My new job does the full-timers well around the holidays. And Rose, rockstar that she is, set up a hot cocoa bar in the break room! Super cool. Of course, I got distracted listening to someone talk about books and accidentally added two packets of hot cocoa to one cup. A delicious mistake, but I kinda felt bad.
Continue reading “Of Deep Breaths and Double Hot Cocoa”
14,787 Days Alive
2,223 Days Straight on Duolingo
$86.47 Due for My January Health Insurance Premium
40th Winter Solstice I Have Lived
3 Hours Or Less Sleep Gotten
1 Burnt Out Self
I fell asleep after six am and was up again by ten a.m. For whatever reason, even with my anti-anxiety meds, sleep evades me.
Continue reading “Of Tiny Turtles and Turn Around Time”
14,785 Days Alive
2,221 Days Straight on Duolingo
4 Hours Spent at the Big Gay Holiday Market
1 Hug from a Stranger
Trigger warning: discussion of parental demise.
I actually fought with myself on whether or not to post this one. I’ve decided to post it, but heavily trimmed of most of the anger I originally had spewing in this.
Continue reading “Of Holiday Markets and Hugs”
14,784 Days Alive
33 Peanut Butter Chocolate Chip Cookies Baked Tonight
0 Spoons Left
If I get to sleep before two am, it will be a miracle. I’ve made cookies for the company potluck tomorrow. I’ve tried to go to bed early. It is just after eleven and I have been flipping over like an annoyed rotisserie chicken.
I’m just going to take an anti-anxiety med.
Take your meds, folks.
14,783 Days Alive
7 Days Until Christmas Eve
1 Possible Future Road Trip for the Holiday?
I am looking back over all that has happened in 2025. It’s not all sunshine and roses, but there was growth.
Continue reading “Of Glances Backward and Growth”
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