Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
14,778 Days Alive
1 Dinner Shared with Lucian
I have never lived on my own. Ever. I’ve always lived with family, with friends, couch surfed, or stayed in encampments. I still, however , love having my own space. Maybe some time down the road I can have my tiny house ? But for now, when it’s literally scant degrees above zero, snowy, and my brain gremlins are loud, it is best that I am not alone.
Take your meds, folks.
14,775 Days Alive
13 Whoppers is a Serving
4 of Wendy’s Spicy Chicken Nuggets Enjoyed with Dinner
3-ish Hours of Sleep Last Night
1 Row Crocheted on Lynne’s Blanket
$0.53 Cents Paid for an Extra Cup of Ranch Nugget Sauce For Lucian
Holy crap, am I so glad I work from home tomorrow! Sleet, cold weather, icy roads, and a damned headache I’ve been nursing since noon. Ugh.
Continue reading “Of Ranch Cups and Rest Needed”
14,774 Days Alive
208 Days Until I Finish My Degree
This one will be short. I am so close to graduating (as seen above) and it’s freaking hard.
Continue reading “Of Wilted Spinach and Worn Down”
14,773 Days Alive
2,211 Days Straight on Duolingo
150 Stitch Starting Chain For Lynne’s Blanket
2 Slices of Leftover Pizza Eaten As Breakfast This Morning
1 Minor Panic Attack Today
We had Taco Bell for dinner this evening because I was out of spoons. Tomorrow will be pork steak with garlic-wilted spinach and either noodles and Alfredo or mashed potatoes.
Continue reading “Of Delicacies and Deadlines”
14,772 Days Alive
76 Minutes Catching Up With Tina
0 Crochet Stitches Accomplished
I am… at a low point. Yeah, I know it will get better. I some of it is just too much everything all at once. Some of it is the holidays are hard for me. I know that not being able to bring myself to do much more than exists, do homework, and go to work is likely depression being a jerk. I know, I know, I know.
But I feel like I’m dying in slow motion.
Take your meds, folks.
14,771 Days Alive
400+ Ebooks Removed from My Kindle Collection
211 Approximate Hours Until the Start of Hanukkah 2025
50+ Pages of Notes Taken in Today’s Training Sessions
It was my third day at my new in-office job today. Everyone is still super awesome. They are also super loud, but when I am training, I can shut the door so I can actually hear the videos I’m supposed to watch.
Continue reading “Of Tearing Up and Time Consumption”
14,770 Days Alive
2,208 Days Straight on Duolingo
3 Tires Pumped Full of Air
2 Slices of Supreme Deep Dish Pizza Eaten
Tonight is the final full moon of 2025. I have maybe three set goals for next year. It’s very hard for me to think forward what all I want to do is have everything stop.
Continue reading “Of Endings and Everything Else”
14,764 Days Alive
2,619 Days of Daily Posts on Postmark Wonderland
83 +/- Kitty Years for Mr. Spock
2 Days of Snow Forecast
1 New Job Next Week
SON OF A FUCKING BISCUIT. Two guesses who fell asleep face-first on their Kindle last night?
I know I’m gonna cry when my gift arrives. My support system has been so amazing lately, and I have just been getting run over by the struggle bus mentally.
Continue reading “Of Snowstorms and Surprises”
14,761 Days Alive
239 Days Until My 15th Millenary Anniversary
5 +/- Types of Flowers I Want to Make into an Art Piece
Did you know that I can’t have any of my top three favorite flowers due to their potential toxicity to cats? Yup. Buttercups, specifically ranunculus like delphinium, foxglove, and tiger lilies are my hands-down favorite flowers.
Continue reading “Of Reality and Ranunculaceous”
14,760 Days Alive
It’s ten days till 4th of December. Between the death-anniversary, money stress, a uterus in literal bloody rebellion, and a three day and counting tension headache, I just want it to stop being so hard to be alive.
Take your meds, folks.
14,759 Days Alive
8 Books on Hold at the Library
0 Clue What Our Household is Doing for the Holiday This Week
I am not… doing okay today. I fell asleep after three am this morning and I wasn’t even awake late reading. Just couldn’t get the old brain to shut the fuck up.
Continue reading “Of Lemonade and Letting Go”
14,757 Days Alive
36 Peanut Butter Chocolate Chip Cookies Made
18 Ounces of Peanut Butter
1 Cookie Eaten
Son of a bitch. Guess who forgot to hit post again?
I have a social event tomorrow morning in the form of meeting up with L at the local AMC Theater to go see a matinee showing of Brendan Fraser’s new film, Rental Family. I am super excited about it!
Continue reading “Of Recipes and Rest”
14,756 Days Alive
2 Weeks From Today is the 4th of December
Trigger warning: speaking on the loss of parents.
I feel like I’m not allowed to be as sad as I am about my Daddy’s death anniversary. it’s two weeks from today exactly. He’s been gone since 2018; I literally didn’t know what to do that day. Meaning the day after I got the phone call at something like three in the morning.
Continue reading “Of Cold Snaps and Coca Cola”
