5 Rows into the C2C Baby Blanket I’m Currently Making
I am so ready for this upcoming three day weekend. The Full Moon isn’t until September 7th, but I am hoping that I am able to manifest a great deal of positive change before then.
I am naught but a bit of leftover ash and bone in a pretty little jar on a mantle of a strange kitchen fireplace in Altamonte Springs, Florida.
What once was my body rattles on the mantle as my nieces thunder by on the tile floors. As children are wont to do, those delightful little girls, right now just five and six years old, run like a heard of elephants through the house. As often as they can, they are shrieking in glee and doing most things at maximum volume.
Since human cremains are so high in salt, phosphate, and calcium, while also having a high pH, maybe I’ve been diluted and mixed into the enriched soil beneath the blueberry bushes I convinced my brother to purchase that one trip to Home Depot we took years ago.
In any case, I have shuffled off this mortal coil in this other world. Maybe I have been reborn as a chubby and beloved kitten or a feisty little foal with mischief in my heart. I am gone, but not forgotten. Dead, but not lost to memory, yet.
In another universe, I am but ash in a jar on the mantle of a fireplace.
I had my bloodwork follow up with my primary care physician today. The basic breakdown is that, to no one’s shock at all, I am still iron-deficient anemic. Also, my Vitamin D is super low. Not like, rickets low, but pretty damn bad.
Edit: remember to hit post before falling asleep face-first in a book, Theo!
The barometric pressure right now is making my head hurt. And my left hip still hurts. And my lower back, but that could be uterus in rebellion related shit.
5-Level Purple Inbox Tray Assembled and Put to Use at Work
1 New, Upcoming, Well-Researched Rant
For the new or forgetful, I was homeless, couch-surfing, transient, or otherwise without a residence for a total of thirteen years in my youth and young adulthood. Bear this in mind when reading beyond this point that I have Great Big Feelings and opinions on things of this theme.
In about ten hours, I will be on the road with my brother in law, Brian, to drive the four and a half to six hour (traffic depending) drive to Indiana one last time.
I am not doing too well tonight. Mac reached out via text and it made me cry. I don’t think we can repair our relationship or stay friends and that breaks my damn heart.