14,561 Days Alive
Played a game on Steam with Mac. Super tired. Just trying to keep my head above water.
Strive to be happy was the line I said was my goal for the year. I’m still striving.
Take your meds, folks.
Of Dawnsbury Days and Desiderata
Category: Depressed
Of Damnit All and Disappointment
14,558 Days Alive
93.6% In My Claims Cycles Class
3 Days Till Payday
2 Bowls of Turkey Chili Eaten
–$26.11 in the Bank Till Friday
Well, fuck. I don’t often overdraft myself. But apparently. I have to rock being in the red until Friday because something pulled out when it shouldn’t have.
Continue reading “Of Damnit All and Disappointment”Of Tuna and Tired
14,552 Days Alive
Spock turns fifteen tomorrow. He has a special can of wet food for his birthday dinner.
Did homework. Ate dinner. Now I’m going to read more of Gone Girl even though I’m not enjoying it thus far to see if I can get into it.
Take your meds, folks.
Of Therapy and Tolerance
14,546 Days Alive
6,876 Days Since I Stopped Drinking Alcohol
64 Minutes Spent Texting 988 Today
20 Days of this Fucking Headache
7 Days Till Spock’s 15th Birthday
1 Hour Till Payday
I’m still here. I’m suicidal but safe. No plan. Not enough energy to do anything anyway. Did therapy today. Lots of Big Emotions. But I’m still here.
Continue reading “Of Therapy and Tolerance”Of Anniversaries and Anxiety Cleaning
14,545 Days Alive
19th Day of this Gorram Headache
5 Years Divorced as of Today
2 Hours of Sleep
1 Therapy Session Tomorrow
I was officially divorced from my ex-wife five years ago today.
Continue reading “Of Anniversaries and Anxiety Cleaning”Of Cat Hair and Crying
14,537 Days Alive
3 of 6 Lectures Watched
1 Crying Jag
Spock kept sitting on my desk and notebook while I was trying to study this evening. And because I’m a six on the pain scale and an eight on the discomfort scale, my focus was shot today.
Continue reading “Of Cat Hair and Crying”Of Exacerbation and Expos
14,534 Days Alive
4th Week of Class Starting Monday
2 Assignments to Finish Tomorrow Before Midnight
1 Pack of Magic: the Gathering Cards Purchased Today
I fell asleep at Beau and Tina’s today. We went for our normal game night, but Jamison, our dungeon master, and Dustin, our roommate, are out of town at C2E2 this weekend. So instead of a game or two of Magic and then Pathfinder, everyone just played Magic.
Continue reading “Of Exacerbation and Expos”Of Breakfast Shakes and Bedrest
14,528 Days Alive
1,986 Day Streak on Duolingo
2 Little Naps Today
1 Grocery Trip
My homework is done, I was social online today, and I went grocery shopping with Mac today. I feel accomplished. And exhausted.
Continue reading “Of Breakfast Shakes and Bedrest”Of College and Chicago Dogs
14,509 Days Alive
13 Years Since I’ve Been Enrolled in College
5 Hours Fighting with the Computers at Work
2 FAFSA Applications Filled Out
1 Chicago Dog (Lacking Sport Peppers) Eaten,
I did it. I applied to be a student at Ultimate Medical Academy for their Medical Billing and Coding degree. I am “I had to take anti-anxiety meds to calm the fuck down” anxious about it. Why? Because of many reasons.
Continue reading “Of College and Chicago Dogs”Of Time Change and Taco Seasoning
14,499 Days Alive
6 Chicken Quesadillas Made for Dinner
2 Naps Taken Today
I made simple chicken quesadillas for dinner this evening. I bought a large shaker bottle of taco seasoning to make things easier for myself. It worked pretty well. Dinner was good but holy fuck am I in pain.
Continue reading “Of Time Change and Taco Seasoning”Of Yarn and Yakking
14,497 Days Alive
14 Weeks to Finish the Two-Tone Throw
2 Orders of Cheesy Fiesta Potatoes with Pico Eaten
1 Shopping Trip with Tina Tomorrow!
Our systems went down at work today for over two hours! So frustrating. Especially when we had more than three hours of servers being down earlier this week. Just not fun.
Continue reading “Of Yarn and Yakking”Of Spam and Snowfall
14,495 Days Alive
1 Hour of Overtime Worked Today
Well. Today was a very long, busy day at work. Tomorrow is not likely to be better because my coworker is at our other site tomorrow so it will be just me.
Continue reading “Of Spam and Snowfall”Of Rainfall and Rinse Cycles
14,494 Days Alive
10/10 on the Discomfort Scale
7.5/ 10on the Pain Scale
1 Load of Laundry Done
Not much to say today. I’m having a really bad fibromyalgia flare up. The exhaustion is really bad AND I’m in so much pain. I can’t even crochet.
I’m going to bed.
Take your meds, folks.
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