Category: Feeling Worthless

Of Ranch Cups and Rest Needed

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14,775 Days Alive

13 Whoppers is a Serving

4 of Wendy’s Spicy Chicken Nuggets Enjoyed with Dinner

3-ish Hours of Sleep Last Night

1 Row Crocheted on Lynne’s Blanket

$0.53 Cents Paid for an Extra Cup of Ranch Nugget Sauce For Lucian

Holy crap, am I so glad I work from home tomorrow! Sleet, cold weather, icy roads, and a damned headache I’ve been nursing since noon. Ugh.

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Of Attempts and Abapical

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14,772 Days Alive

76 Minutes Catching Up With Tina

0 Crochet Stitches Accomplished

I am… at a low point. Yeah, I know it will get better. I some of it is just too much everything all at once. Some of it is the holidays are hard for me. I know that not being able to bring myself to do much more than exists, do homework, and go to work is likely depression being a jerk. I know, I know, I know.

But I feel like I’m dying in slow motion.

Take your meds, folks.

Of Tearing Up and Time Consumption

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14,771 Days Alive

400+ Ebooks Removed from My Kindle Collection

211 Approximate Hours Until the Start of Hanukkah 2025

50+ Pages of Notes Taken in Today’s Training Sessions

It was my third day at my new in-office job today. Everyone is still super awesome. They are also super loud, but when I am training, I can shut the door so I can actually hear the videos I’m supposed to watch.

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Of Snowstorms and Surprises

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14,764 Days Alive

2,619 Days of Daily Posts on Postmark Wonderland

83 +/- Kitty Years for Mr. Spock

2 Days of Snow Forecast

1 New Job Next Week

SON OF A FUCKING BISCUIT. Two guesses who fell asleep face-first on their Kindle last night?

I know I’m gonna cry when my gift arrives. My support system has been so amazing lately, and I have just been getting run over by the struggle bus mentally.

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Of Foil and Furniture

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14,745 Days Alive

65 Hours, Give Or Take, Until Llama Arrives

4th Week of Diagnostic Coding for Medical Billing Starting Tomorrow

3 Chicken Teriyaki Foil Packets

Okay, this time I didn’t fall asleep without posting. I did however get completely sidetracked trying to put my room back together. Brian built the new desk I got off Amazon for me today. You know, the one I’ve been meaning to build for like three weeks now? That one.

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Of Root Beer and a Radio Show

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14,742 Days Alive

2,606 Days Straight on Postmark Wonderland

2,182 Days in a Row on Duolingo (Esperanto and Spanish)

1 Amazing New Friend Met

This blog of mine went live in the immediate wake of my diagnosis as bipolar back in autumn of 2018. It is an online haven of my struggles, successes, trials, adventures, mishaps, and medical/therapudic experiences. It’s not for everyone, and that’s okay.

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