13,072 Days Alive
So… apparently the fact that I associate colors/sensations/music with people is outside the norm. I was talking about it with Gwendolyn and J this evening.
Continue reading “Of Grilled Cheese and Games”Of Grilled Cheese and Games
Category: Feeling Worthless
Of Hobbies and Home
13,062 Days Alive
2 Necklaces Made
1 Bowl of Ramen Eaten
I got to see Sparrow today! Fen and I met up with them for lunch with their significant other, Patrick. We went to the ramen house just down the street that is very COVID-precaution compliant.
Continue reading “Of Hobbies and Home”Of Distress and Diagnosis
13,051 Days Alive
So not only did I wake up around two a.m. violently ill, I also had a telehealth doctor appointment today. And I have a new diagnosis.
Continue reading “Of Distress and Diagnosis”Of Chimichangas and Crafting
13,046 Days Alive
I actually did something artsy today! Fen got a new crafting toy and we were both playing with it.
Continue reading “Of Chimichangas and Crafting”Of Time and Triggers
13,046 Days Alive
This ain’t a happy one, y’all. I am about to discuss sexual assault. Might wanna skip this one.
Continue reading “Of Time and Triggers”Of Practical Magic and Picnic Tables
13,042 Days Alive
3 Butter Tarts Eaten
1 Old Favorite Shared with Fen
Somehow, despite knowing me for almost a decade, Fen had never seen the movie Practical Magic. Until tonight! We watched it and they really enjoyed it.
Continue reading “Of Practical Magic and Picnic Tables”Of Mondays and Mileage
13,036 Days Alive
195 Miles Driven Today
6 Hours of my Life I’ll Never Get Back
4 Hours Alone in the Car
2 Hours of Testing
1 Bowl of Curry for Dinner
Had the ADHD testing done today in Maitland. 97 miles away. Ugh. Dr Fyffe didn’t even bother to meet me, which kind of pissed me off. I got assistant Joy who was nice enough, in an unflavored oatmeal kind of way.
Continue reading “Of Mondays and Mileage”Of Prescriptions and Princesses
13,033 Days Alive
3 Cookie Dough Flautas Eaten
2 New Prescriptions
1 Long Day
My arm still hurts like the dickens from my COVID vaccination. But I’m not noticing any ill effects from it otherwise. Except being more tired than usual, but that would be lack of sleep.
Continue reading “Of Prescriptions and Princesses”Of Shots and Sleeping
13,032 Days Alive
I went to bed over an hour ago. I’m still not asleep. I know I’m tired. I even took meds to sleep. My arm is a little sore from where they gave me my second Covid vaccine shot.
Continue reading “Of Shots and Sleeping”Of Tears and Tacos
13,031 Days Alive
I had my meds doctor appointment today. I was honest about how much I’m struggling and how suicidal I am.
Continue reading “Of Tears and Tacos”Of Dill and Dishes
13,030 Days Alive
3 Cucumber Dill Sandwiches Consumed
My poor team lead Miss Britt is down for the count with a sinus infection, the poor dear. I hope she feels better soon. Work went well today, though I wish I’d gotten more calls done.
Continue reading “Of Dill and Dishes”Of Paranoia and Paranorman
13,026 Days Alive
Today was awful and I don’t want to talk about it. The highlight of my day was watching the Lakia film Paranorman.
Continue reading “Of Paranoia and Paranorman”Of Struggles and Silence
13,025 Days Alive
I’m… still not okay. I don’t have the spoon to go into it much, but suffice it to say that I’m terrified I’m going to lose my job. And by extension my place or live and car and everything.
I just don’t have a lot of fight left in me.
I’m going to bed.
Take your meds , folks.
