Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
14,723 Days Alive
$485.54 Or More Needed ASAP to Pay Bills and Get My Account into the Positive
-$269.28 in the Bank.
10 Days to Pay My Car Insurance
1 Asthma Attack Last Night
Man. I need to find an anti-evil eye hanger or something for my bedroom. Or cast another spell on the full moon on the 5th of November. Something to get out of this death roll.
Continue reading “Of Invidia and Instrumental Music”
14,722 Days Alive
1 Idiot Nazi Argued With on Social Media
Some people‘s idiocy is frankly astounding these days. I like surfing those AITA on Facebook sometimes. Some Canadian former social worker woman was being ignorant. And I asked her why. And she did not like that. 
Continue reading “Of Overdrafts and Opinions”
14,719 Days Alive
5+ Hours Spent in the Car Round Trip
2 Chicago-Style Hot Dogs Eaten
I drove down to Chicago with Lucian this morning. My brain had the structural integrity of a goddamned damp sugar cube right now.
Continue reading “Of Sport Peppers and Siblings”
14,717 Days Alive
16 Steps Down from the First Floor to the Ground Floor
2 Furniture Straps
We finally got the entertainment center into the apartment today! Out of my trunk and down the steps without injury. A lot of cursing and three stops to be able to breathe, but no injuries.
Continue reading “Of Furniture Straps and Fake Fireplaces”
14,713 Days Alive
6 Pieces of Corn Cake
1 Silly Cat
I’ve been having one of those days where reality doesn’t quite seem to be fitting what I need to accomplish.
Continue reading “Of Corn Cake and Candy”
14,711 Days Alive
6 Current Drafts of a Mission Statement for My Soon-To-Be-Formed LLC
4 Hours of Sleep.
I’m in a manic episode. But I’m giving myself emotional fucking whiplash coz I’ll be up for six hours, depressed for a few hours, and then manic again for another 6-10 hours.
Continue reading “Of Mania and Muddled Words”
14,707 Days Alive
2,565 Days on Postmark Wonderland
7 Years on Postmark Wonderland
I forgot that it was the seven year anniversary of my being diagnosed with a mental health problem, specifically bipolar disorder with mania, major depressive disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, fibromyalgia, and CPTSD.
Continue reading “Of Fountain Pens and Fervency”
14,702 Days Alive
$23.21 Spent at the Thrift Store Outlet
2 Free Blankets Received
Well. Today was both awesome and absolutely awful. Awesome stuff first, then my bitching. Here we go!
Continue reading “Of Friendliness and Feelings”
14,688 Days Alive
80+ Job Applications Put In
$23.00 Spent on 26 Sliced, Freshly Made Donuts and Two Tubs of Whipped Cream Cheese
3 Cat Treats Stolen from Spock By Benny
1 Gradual Reduction of Shock
I think I’m ready to talk about what happened on Thursday. Prefacing with I am physically fine, I am mentally, emotionally, and fiscally fucked.
Continue reading “Of Lie Ins and Laid Off”
14,678 Days Alive
2,131 Days Straight on Duolingo
4 Days till the Full Moon
2 Discussion Board Posts
Tonight was a freezer meal night. Once I got home from work and settled in a bit, Imade cheese ravioli with Alfredo sauce and some garlic bread for dinner tonight. simple, filling, and cheap.
Continue reading “Of Ravioli and Ranting”
14,674 Days Alive
2,127 Days Straight on Duolingo
I went to bed after two am this morning. I woke up at 0629 on the nose. No reason at all. Could not go back to sleep no matter what I tried.
Continue reading “Of Macaroni and Manic?”
14,673 Days Alive
4 Movies “By Association”
1 Wendy’s Junior Cheeseburger Eaten as Part of Dinner
Okay, so, this might seem a little random but I really miss Robin Williams’ movies. I could rattle off more than a few of his movies off the top of my head. I could associate at least one role with a particular emotion, even. But holy fuck do I hate having depression in common with him.
Continue reading “Of Batty and Burgers”
14,672 Days Alive
435 of 435 Pages To Go In The Awakening
5 Rows into the C2C Baby Blanket I’m Currently Making
I am so ready for this upcoming three day weekend. The Full Moon isn’t until September 7th, but I am hoping that I am able to manifest a great deal of positive change before then.
Continue reading “Of Aches and Awakening”
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