14,573 Days Alive
53 Minutes In Therapy
I am not having a great week. It hasn’t been awful, but it’s not been fun.
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Category: Feeling Worthless
Of Countdowns and Candy
14,572 Days Alive
2,028 Days Straight on Duolingo
39 Days Till my 40th Birthday!
Did you know a serving of Red Hots is 25 pieces? I did, because I check the box. I ate 2/5ths of a serving after finishing my tasks for the evening. And for those caramel-inclined, a serving of Milk Duds is ten pieces, but five is what I usually eat.
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14,569 Days Alive
42 Days till my 40th Birthday
5.5 Lectures to Finish Listening To
I am on the mental struggle bus today. No focus, having to re-watch all of my lectures from earlier this week to try and do the assignments.
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14,568 Days Alive
3 Discussion Board Posts Made Today
1 Very Loud Brain Gremlin
I know I can be sensitive sometimes. It’s a thing. Like Rejection Sensitivity is a thing I struggle with. Psychology Today can define it way better than I can.
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14,558 Days Alive
93.6% In My Claims Cycles Class
3 Days Till Payday
2 Bowls of Turkey Chili Eaten
–$26.11 in the Bank Till Friday
Well, fuck. I don’t often overdraft myself. But apparently. I have to rock being in the red until Friday because something pulled out when it shouldn’t have.
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14,547 Days Alive
44 Requests Completed at Work Today
2 Missed Phone Calls from Friends
I am so glad it’s the weekend. And that it’s payday. Holy shit was this week rough for me. Just… utterly dismal.
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14,546 Days Alive
6,876 Days Since I Stopped Drinking Alcohol
64 Minutes Spent Texting 988 Today
20 Days of this Fucking Headache
7 Days Till Spock’s 15th Birthday
1 Hour Till Payday
I’m still here. I’m suicidal but safe. No plan. Not enough energy to do anything anyway. Did therapy today. Lots of Big Emotions. But I’m still here.
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14,545 Days Alive
19th Day of this Gorram Headache
5 Years Divorced as of Today
2 Hours of Sleep
1 Therapy Session Tomorrow
I was officially divorced from my ex-wife five years ago today.
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14,523 Days Alive
1,983 Days Straight on Duolingo
Tomorrow is Friday. Woo hoo!!! I am greatly looking forward to this weekend.
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Of Time Change and Taco Seasoning
14,499 Days Alive
6 Chicken Quesadillas Made for Dinner
2 Naps Taken Today
I made simple chicken quesadillas for dinner this evening. I bought a large shaker bottle of taco seasoning to make things easier for myself. It worked pretty well. Dinner was good but holy fuck am I in pain.
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14,497 Days Alive
14 Weeks to Finish the Two-Tone Throw
2 Orders of Cheesy Fiesta Potatoes with Pico Eaten
1 Shopping Trip with Tina Tomorrow!
Our systems went down at work today for over two hours! So frustrating. Especially when we had more than three hours of servers being down earlier this week. Just not fun.
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14,494 Days Alive
10/10 on the Discomfort Scale
7.5/ 10on the Pain Scale
1 Load of Laundry Done
Not much to say today. I’m having a really bad fibromyalgia flare up. The exhaustion is really bad AND I’m in so much pain. I can’t even crochet.
I’m going to bed.
Take your meds, folks.
Of Frustration and Financial Fuckery
14,482 Days Alive
25% Interest Rate on a a Potential Car Loan
1 Test Drive Taken this Evening
It’s late. I’m tired. I hate car shopping and places that charge the state maximum for interest rates.
I’m going to bed in self-defense.
Take your meds, folks.
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