14,342 Days Alive
16 Levels Gained on my Necromancer in D4
3 Doses of Acetaminophen Taken
I am in pain, layers of pain. Like a pain parfait, but without the enjoyment of it.
Continue reading “Of Language and Leveling”Of Language and Leveling
Category: Feeling Worthless
Of Loneliness and Lacking
14,340 Days Alive
638 Days Since I Moved to Indiana
0 Days Since I’ve Been Blown Off By Supposed Friends
I literally want to cry. I’m so goddamned lonely. I have Mac. My online friends. Chele, J, Reffie. And I guess I do have one “analog” friend here, Tina. But I met her through Mac and having one friend who isn’t a hugger much is like, killing me.
Continue reading “Of Loneliness and Lacking”Of Apprehension and Applesauce
14,331 Days Alive
3 Hours of Poker Research
1 Breadstick Eaten
I’m getting a tooth pulled tomorrow. It’ll be the first time in over a decade I’m getting a tooth pulled and I am, as the title implies, apprehensive as fuck.
Continue reading “Of Apprehension and Applesauce”Of Caramel Churros and Changing Seasons
14,330 Days Alive
2 Accidental Naps This Morning
1 Churro Eaten
I’m trying so hard to stay awake during out Pathfinder game. I’m trying not to drink the other Monster we have (zero sugar) because I want to be functional tomorrow for the Autumnal Equinox.
Continue reading “Of Caramel Churros and Changing Seasons”Of Elaboration and Exhaustion
14,327 Days Alive
72 Requests Logged Today at Work
1 Story Begging to be Written
So. Y’all ought to know by now I am of the witchy persuasion. Kitchen, candle, and divination focused with a dash of just being more crafty than witchcrafty.
Let me explain how pizza is a prosperity spell.
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14,320 Days Alive
4 Library Books Picked Up
1 Very Frustrating Day
Work was hell today and I don’t expect tomorrow to be much better. My coworker had a family emergency and left halfway through the day so it was just me. Hopefully tomorrow is better, but I’m not holding my breath.
Take your meds, folks.
Of Pancakes and Pizza
14,317 Days Alive
2 Pancakes Eaten
We went to IHOP for lunch today. I behaved, mostly, but I did use sugar free syrup on my two pancakes. I didn’t get the seasonal flavor because it had tons of sugar.
Continue reading “Of Pancakes and Pizza”Of Talk Therapy and Tiramisu
14,308 Days Alive
9 Minutes that My Therapist Was Late Today
2 Bowls of Zuppa Toscana Consumed
1 Lingering Headache
Heavy stuff herein. Frank discussion of sexual abuse, rape, and the mental trials of surviving both.
Had therapy today. Talked about a lot of the triggers I had flare up this week with my gynecological appointment.
Continue reading “Of Talk Therapy and Tiramisu”Of Diablo IV and Dearest
14,300 Days Alive
7 Levels Earned on my Necromancer
1 Temporary Filling
I did it. I went to the dentist this morning at the buttcrack of dawn.
Continue reading “Of Diablo IV and Dearest”Of Strength and Spite
14,278 Days Alive
592 Job Applications Put In
4 Interviews Attended
I’m trying so hard to keep going. But I’m so very tired.
I can at least make it to Friday. I can do that.
Spite don’t fail me now.
Of Oreos and Organization
14,262 Days Alive
I am stupidly depressed right now. I’ve no idea why, but literally I feel like I’m too depressed to function properly. I don’t want to eat. I’m forcing myself to hydrate.
Continue reading “Of Oreos and Organization”Of Groceries and Grief
14,261 Days Alive
4 Mint Oreos Eaten
I am not doing great. We went grocery shopping today and I just… got slammed with a wave of grief.
Continue reading “Of Groceries and Grief”Of Grease and Gratitude
14,242 Days Alive
4 Rounds Completed on the Round Ripple
3 Days Till My 39th Birthday
2 Insulin Shots Given to Spock
1 Very Greasy Burger Eaten
I’m emotionally exhausted this evening.
Continue reading “Of Grease and Gratitude”
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