Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
14,778 Days Alive
1 Dinner Shared with Lucian
I have never lived on my own. Ever. I’ve always lived with family, with friends, couch surfed, or stayed in encampments. I still, however , love having my own space. Maybe some time down the road I can have my tiny house ? But for now, when it’s literally scant degrees above zero, snowy, and my brain gremlins are loud, it is best that I am not alone.
Take your meds, folks.
14,777 Days Alive
14 Days Until Christmas Day
4 days Till Hanukkah Starts
Posts publish a LOT easier when one remembers to freaking hit “POST”. Ugh.
Driving to work today was an absolutely heinous adventure of the no thank you kind. I do not have any more spoons left for talking or typing things out. I did make an amazing French onion soup today that was nonalcoholic.
It really was ridiculously delicious.
I am heading to bed. I am exhausted, and while I only work until the afternoon tomorrow, it’s still a bit of a long shift when you’re kind of recovering from… something? I don’t know what I wrote here, but suffice it to say my brain was mush.
Take your meds, folks
14,776 Days Alive
9.75 Hours of Sleep Yesterday
2.5 Hours Spent Grocery Shopping
Thanks to the new job at the eyecare clinic, I can afford to make French onion soup for dinner tomorrow! It’s really not much more than beef broth, 3 1/2 pounds of mandolin, sliced onions, and a whole lot of patience.
Continue reading “Of Shopping and Schlepping”
14,775 Days Alive
13 Whoppers is a Serving
4 of Wendy’s Spicy Chicken Nuggets Enjoyed with Dinner
3-ish Hours of Sleep Last Night
1 Row Crocheted on Lynne’s Blanket
$0.53 Cents Paid for an Extra Cup of Ranch Nugget Sauce For Lucian
Holy crap, am I so glad I work from home tomorrow! Sleet, cold weather, icy roads, and a damned headache I’ve been nursing since noon. Ugh.
Continue reading “Of Ranch Cups and Rest Needed”
14,774 Days Alive
208 Days Until I Finish My Degree
This one will be short. I am so close to graduating (as seen above) and it’s freaking hard.
Continue reading “Of Wilted Spinach and Worn Down”
14,773 Days Alive
2,211 Days Straight on Duolingo
150 Stitch Starting Chain For Lynne’s Blanket
2 Slices of Leftover Pizza Eaten As Breakfast This Morning
1 Minor Panic Attack Today
We had Taco Bell for dinner this evening because I was out of spoons. Tomorrow will be pork steak with garlic-wilted spinach and either noodles and Alfredo or mashed potatoes.
Continue reading “Of Delicacies and Deadlines”
14,772 Days Alive
76 Minutes Catching Up With Tina
0 Crochet Stitches Accomplished
I am… at a low point. Yeah, I know it will get better. I some of it is just too much everything all at once. Some of it is the holidays are hard for me. I know that not being able to bring myself to do much more than exists, do homework, and go to work is likely depression being a jerk. I know, I know, I know.
But I feel like I’m dying in slow motion.
Take your meds, folks.
14,771 Days Alive
400+ Ebooks Removed from My Kindle Collection
211 Approximate Hours Until the Start of Hanukkah 2025
50+ Pages of Notes Taken in Today’s Training Sessions
It was my third day at my new in-office job today. Everyone is still super awesome. They are also super loud, but when I am training, I can shut the door so I can actually hear the videos I’m supposed to watch.
Continue reading “Of Tearing Up and Time Consumption”
14,770 Days Alive
2,208 Days Straight on Duolingo
3 Tires Pumped Full of Air
2 Slices of Supreme Deep Dish Pizza Eaten
Tonight is the final full moon of 2025. I have maybe three set goals for next year. It’s very hard for me to think forward what all I want to do is have everything stop.
Continue reading “Of Endings and Everything Else”
14,769 Days Alive
2,207 Days Straight on Duolingo
0 Rows Crocheted Today
Son of a crumbled biscuit. I fell asleep writing this. Oh dear.
Oh man am I utterly exhausted from work and socializing today. I had work in the morning, but I have to admit I was not as good as I could have been seeing as I had the beginnings of a very bad headache. It got better, but holy crap is it cold out tonight.
Continue reading “Of Friendliness and Falling Temperatures”
14,768 Days Alive
1 Hour Early to Work today
Well, I started my new part-time job today! I think I clicked pretty well with my new coworkers. Or at least I hope I did!
Continue reading “Of Plows and Punctuality”
If I had to describe my ideal living space for myself, it would be a safe, warm, lovingly cluttered space. True hiraeth for me, honestly. Hiraeth is a Welsh omesickness for a place that doesn’t exist, or at least not yet.
Continue reading “Of Home and Hiraeth”
14,765 Days Alive
33 Years Since I Hugged Fievel Mouskewitz
10+ Inches of Snow Fell in the Past 24 Hours
3+ Happy Crying Jags Today
1/2 Serving of Baked Beef and Bean Nachos
Trigger warning past this initial paragraph: physical child abuse. This first part is happy, I swear.
Well. Today’s the day! He arrived! I am so freaking gleeful. Mr Fievel Mousekewitz is in my arms as I type this. As above, I have broken down crying, hugging said 39 year-old stuffed animal, at least three times so far today. A dear friend, named here as Lois, gifted him to me. He is 22 inches tall, still has his hat, shirt, trousers, and tail! He’s new to me, but used to belong to someone named Corey. Thank you so, so, so much for taking good care of Fievel for me to enjoy now.
Continue reading “Of Memories and Mouskewitz”
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