Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
14,671 Days Alive
2 Discussion Board Posts Done
1 Accidentally Long Nap
I still feel like absolute crap. My bones ache, my nose won’t stop running, my throat feels raw, and I am exhausted with every little movement.
Continue reading “Of Denials and Discussion Board Posts”What’s your favorite time of day?
My favorite time of day is any time between the gloaming and about two a.m.
14,669 Days Alive
2,122 Days Straight on Duolingo
2 Small Bookshelves Assembled Today
1 Small Art Project Done
I did not one, not two, not even just three, but four things today after work! I left work early for a pre-planned appointment and got home maybe 45 minutes earlier than I usually do.
Continue reading “Of Bat Mirrors and Bookshelves”
14,668 Days Alive
2,121 Days Straight on Duolingo
Lucian and I spent a good two and a half hours this evening going through the massive amount of acrylic yarn that I have acquired over the years. I’m talking stuff from before my marriage to Stephanie in 2017.
Continue reading “Of Altars and A Lot of Yarn”What do you enjoy most about writing?
I enjoy being a storyteller. The thing I enjoy the most is when people enjoy what I create, whatever the medium!
What motivates you?
I am near to almost completely certain that I answered this prompt last year.
What motivates me? Compassion, spite, and the desire to leave the world a better, kinder place in my wake.
What is a word you feel that too many people use?
In America, with it having been around since the initial signing of the Declaration of Independence on 2nd, July, 1776, the word “freedom” is thrown around a lot.
People think the freedom of speech should be freedom from consequences or that racism is a bygone issue when there are still sundown towns across the country.
I am as free as a canary in a coal mine, screaming a warning, unheeded, for the dangers to come.
All I can do is my best.
14,663 Days Alive
1 Rough Day
Today was a day from hell. Not my story to tell, but suffice it to say Excedrin, caffeine, and sheer adaptability in the face of stress served me well today.
Continue reading “Of Tired Hearts and Tuesdays”
14,662 Days Alive
$32.99 to Make my Artistic Dreams Come to Life
1 Ridiculous, Amazing Idea
I want to buy a bottle of Stuart Semple’s Black 2.0 paint. Why? So I can make ART.
Continue reading “Of Black Paint and Batty Bats”What positive emotion do you feel most often?
I actually felt the need to consult the Feelings Wheel my prior therapist sent me for this one. I wasn’t sure if curiosity was an option?
While i’m not sure if it’s because I am not by stretch of anyone’s imagination neurotypical, if it’s because I have too much emotional trauma from over the years, or I just keep failing to grasp the differences between the multitudes of emotional states a person can have, I struggle a lot with emotions. Particularly, with identifying what emotion I am feeling. I struggle with expressing and acknowledging negative emotions. for the most part.
However, if I had to pick a positive emotion that I feel the most often it would be curiosity. 
What is the most important thing to carry with you all the time?
Hope and a journal with a really nice pen.
14,658 Days Alive
2 Hours Spent Accidentally Napping
1 More Day Till Payday
I went home from work with a pretty bad headache today. I’m stressed because Nina is off tomorrow. My boss, Sarah, will be in-office.
Continue reading “Of Reconnecting and Rest”What brings you peace?
I often find myself trying to avoid the chaos inside my mind. For a mental illness that is supposed “all in my head” or some such utter nonsense that is meant to diminish what I deal with on a regular basis, it sure is pretty potent. In any case, I often have to find external focus points for my brain to reach even a modicum of quiet. Whether it’s dishes or cooking, crocheting or sweeping , or even just playing Tetris, I have to have something for my hands to do.
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