Category: Writing

Prompt Answer: Lost Everything

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What would you do if you lost all your possessions?

Well, friends, y’all might not have known this but I was homeless for over a decade.

I have lost everything. Down to my shoes.

I don’t wish it on anyone, at any time, but I do kind of wish I could fit everything I own into my car. As I now have a tiny little Ford Fusion, named Sherrinford, I don’t think I could do it.

Oh, well.

It doesn’t seem like I’m going to be moving again any time soon, thankfully. So my clutterbitch/maximalist ways will eventually need to be trimmed down. But not anytime soon.

Ciao for now!

Prompt Answer: Life Details

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What details of your life could you pay more attention to?

My dudes.

Guys, gals, and outside the binary pals.

Y’all.

I have one of the worst cases of ADHD and I am on the autism spectrum. Fucking most of my life is spent grasping at mental straw while powering through in a meatsuit that was designed with Sysyphus in mind.

I am incessantly in pain. And trying to focus through brain fog and fatigue. And have the attention span of gnat on cocaine at the best of non-hyper focused times.

Genuinely, I try so hard not to be bitter. I strive to be happy, be kind, be loving, be patient. But fuck if I can all the time.

What could I pay more attention to? The insides of my eyelids. I need more rest.

That’s what I’m off to do.

Take your meds, folks.

Prompt Answer: Heritage

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What aspects of your cultural heritage are you most proud of or interested in?

Most of my heritage is generally Jewish. Or a blackjack dealer. At least on my mom’s side of the equation.

The paternal unit has the communication skills the gods gave a block of Parmesan cheese. So I have no clue about his heritage. Other than he lives in Pennsylvania.

Prompt Answer: More Informed

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Which topics would you like to be more informed about?

Honestly? My own diagnoses, that’s what I’d like to be more informed about.

I don’t know much about diabetes other than “sugar/carbs BAD”. I know Metformin helps my blood sugar, so does my basaglar. But I don’t know more than that. And every time I ask, I get referred to an endocrinologist that turns out to be some sort of shitheel.

I don’t know that much about fibromyalgia except that pregabalin helps me function at a three to five, usually, on the pain scale rather than a seven to nine. I know I still hurt.

I know I’m likely going to need new knees at some point, for they’ve been bad since I was a teenager.

I want to know more about Autism Spectrum Disorder, beyond people trying to fix me.

And don’t get me started on my bipolar. No one, none of my providers, have done anything but throw medication at the problem (read: me), and suggest therapy. Except I can’t find an affordable, in-network therapist that is queer/asexually friendly.

My most recent attempt at therapy cost me $65 for half an hour, and I was told to medicate to fix my “low libido issue”. Fuck off with that.

Ugh. I guess I’ll be googling stuff in the near future.

Prompt Answer: Celebrating Holidays

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How do you celebrate holidays?

Well, my mother was Jewish. My not-biological-father was lapsed Roman Catholic. I’m pagan.

So the secular holidays are meh. I don’t celebrate them much, beyond getting together with friends for a homemade meal.

Now the witchy holidays I try to keep, do a little something for each. Like, tomorrow is the first day of Fall and I plan to try and make some quick bread when I get home from work, spoons depending.