Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
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5 Different Bottles of Herb-Infused Anointing Oil to Make Before the Full Moon on Sunday
4 Candle Sigils to Draft Before the Full Moon on Sunday
I feel very stretched thin. Relaxing feels pretty much absolutely impossible for me right now.
Continue reading “Of Workload and Wishes”
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3 Chicken Egg Rolls Eaten With Dinner
I despise Monday-flavored-Tuesdays. They’re stressful and overwhelming.
Continue reading “Of Teardrops and a Typewriter”
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I went to bed after two am this morning. I woke up at 0629 on the nose. No reason at all. Could not go back to sleep no matter what I tried.
Continue reading “Of Macaroni and Manic?”What’s your favorite time of day?
My favorite time of day is any time between the gloaming and about two a.m.
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Lucian and I spent a good two and a half hours this evening going through the massive amount of acrylic yarn that I have acquired over the years. I’m talking stuff from before my marriage to Stephanie in 2017.
Continue reading “Of Altars and A Lot of Yarn”What do you enjoy most about writing?
I enjoy being a storyteller. The thing I enjoy the most is when people enjoy what I create, whatever the medium!
What motivates you?
I am near to almost completely certain that I answered this prompt last year.
What motivates me? Compassion, spite, and the desire to leave the world a better, kinder place in my wake.
What is a word you feel that too many people use?
In America, with it having been around since the initial signing of the Declaration of Independence on 2nd, July, 1776, the word “freedom” is thrown around a lot.
People think the freedom of speech should be freedom from consequences or that racism is a bygone issue when there are still sundown towns across the country.
I am as free as a canary in a coal mine, screaming a warning, unheeded, for the dangers to come.
All I can do is my best.
What positive emotion do you feel most often?
I actually felt the need to consult the Feelings Wheel my prior therapist sent me for this one. I wasn’t sure if curiosity was an option?
While i’m not sure if it’s because I am not by stretch of anyone’s imagination neurotypical, if it’s because I have too much emotional trauma from over the years, or I just keep failing to grasp the differences between the multitudes of emotional states a person can have, I struggle a lot with emotions. Particularly, with identifying what emotion I am feeling. I struggle with expressing and acknowledging negative emotions. for the most part.
However, if I had to pick a positive emotion that I feel the most often it would be curiosity. 
What is the most important thing to carry with you all the time?
Hope and a journal with a really nice pen.
What brings you peace?
I often find myself trying to avoid the chaos inside my mind. For a mental illness that is supposed “all in my head” or some such utter nonsense that is meant to diminish what I deal with on a regular basis, it sure is pretty potent. In any case, I often have to find external focus points for my brain to reach even a modicum of quiet. Whether it’s dishes or cooking, crocheting or sweeping , or even just playing Tetris, I have to have something for my hands to do.
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4 Books Picked Up at the Library
We were talking about needing a laugh so we were telling each other about our favorite Carol Burnett moments. Mine is the “famous” elephant show blooper.
Continue reading “Of Bloopers and Boxed Mac and Cheese”
Write about a random act of kindness you’ve done for someone.
I don’t quite know how to phrase this particular response without sounding self-aggrandizing or prideful.
I am kind because the world is not. I am patient with most people because others are not. I am helpful, compassionate, and empathetic because the world is filled with cruelty.
The only way to make it better is with little acts of kindness.
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