Prompt Answer: Cold Weather

How do you feel about cold weather?

Cold weather is my ideal weather. Despite my decade plus spent in the south going to college and after, winter is my favorite season.

Cold weather is wonderful. Layers of warm clothes, holidays that gather family members together, and just the glory that is snowfall. I love it.

There is just something about the silence of snow that is wonderful to me. Mind you, I despise driving in it, because I never learned to drive in snow and my car, before it got wrecked, had just gotten snow tires.

I can appreciate other seasons, but cold weather times are my favorite.

Prompt Answer: Broken Bones

Have you ever broken a bone?

The honest answer is “I don’t know”. I might have broken some knuckles back in my hot-tempered teenage years, as I was an angry, scrappy thing.

But as for major bones? I don’t think so. I’ve pulled a few muscles, sprained some ankles, but I don’t think I’ve broken any major bones.

Prompt Answer: Career Path

What is your career plan?

It’s less a path, more a seldom-navigated deer track in the woods. I have a day job that I might turn into a career.

But in my heart of hearts, I want to be a published author. I want to sell my stories and be able to support myself.

Writing is my love.

Prompt Answer: Just One Day

What’s a job you would like to do for just one day?

A job I’d like to do for just one day, just to fulfill my childhood dream, is be a bartender at a tiny, hole in the wall, nowheresville bar. Just once.

I wanted so badly to be a great server and bartender when I was growing up. My mom worked at TGIFriday’s when I was a kid and somewhere in the world is a picture of little six or seven year old me wearing her uniform shirt like a dress.

Prompt Answer: Quote to Live By

Do you have a quote you live your life by or think of often?

In times of strife or stubble, much like I am going through right now, I bring to mind Max Ehrmann’s poem Desiderata. It is a few years shy of a century old poem, but resonates so strongly with me in so many ways.

One line in particular strikes a chord with me to the point of wanting to get it tattooed onto me:

Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here.

Max Ehrmann, 1927
source: https://www.desiderata.com/desiderata.html

That last line in particular helps me. “You have a right to be here.” I don’t always feel that I do. I don’t often feel like I wish to be here. It’s a daily battle I wage against my own brain gremlins.

I hate that I’m suicidal. It makes me feel like I’m weak or something.

All I can do is keep going.

Prompt Answer: Camping

Have you ever been camping?

I have been camping, many, many years ago. We went with my stepfather, cousins, and sister, I believe.

I remember fishing. S’mores. And some not so pleasant parts.

I’d like to make new memories camping, or maybe staying in a cabin?

Prompt Answer: First Thing That Comes To Mind

Jot down the first thing that comes to your mind.

I’m not always glad I am still here. I know it’s probably the brain gremlins talking. I know it. But I am not always glad for the continued struggle, despite the successes I’ve had.

I have my GED. A place to live. A really, really good job. And I have my cat, partner, and a small group of local friends.

I just have to keep going. But fucking hell is it exhausting.