Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
14,560 Days Alive
9,210 Ebooks Downloaded or Checked Out From the Library
484 Faxes Forwarded To Our Logger At Work
51 Days Till My 40th Birthday
2 Books I Am Waffling Between Reading
I got some homework done this evening, but not as much as I hoped to. I was in a whole lot of pain for some reason. Just general back ache and stomach pain. And then reality, realization, and annoyance set in.
Continue reading “Of Practical Magic and Pickles”
14,558 Days Alive
93.6% In My Claims Cycles Class
3 Days Till Payday
2 Bowls of Turkey Chili Eaten
–$26.11 in the Bank Till Friday
Well, fuck. I don’t often overdraft myself. But apparently. I have to rock being in the red until Friday because something pulled out when it shouldn’t have.
Continue reading “Of Damnit All and Disappointment”
14,551 Days Alive
2,008 Days Straight on Duolingo
10 Chicken Nuggets Eaten for Dinner
8 New Plates/Bowls/Cup Bought From WalMart
2 Sinks Cleaned Out and Sanitized
Ooof. I am so fucking tired of this headache. C’mon Friday! Get here fast! I need iron!
Continue reading “Of Doing Dishes and Depression”
14,550 Days Alive
2,007 Days Straight on Duolingo
24th Day of My Headache
3 Days Till Spock’s 15th Birthday/Beltane
2 New Classes Started
1 Episode of Ghost Hunters Watched with Mac
Well. I tried to go to the ER after work. Four hours in, I left without ever even being triaged. I’m going to try a different ER tomorrow, if I still have this damn headache. I didn’t even check out AMA, because they never even checked me out. Ugh. Goddamnit.
Continue reading “Of Ghost Hunters and Goddammit”
14,547 Days Alive
44 Requests Completed at Work Today
2 Missed Phone Calls from Friends
I am so glad it’s the weekend. And that it’s payday. Holy shit was this week rough for me. Just… utterly dismal.
Continue reading “Of Dishes and Dairy Queen Blizzards”
14,546 Days Alive
6,876 Days Since I Stopped Drinking Alcohol
64 Minutes Spent Texting 988 Today
20 Days of this Fucking Headache
7 Days Till Spock’s 15th Birthday
1 Hour Till Payday
I’m still here. I’m suicidal but safe. No plan. Not enough energy to do anything anyway. Did therapy today. Lots of Big Emotions. But I’m still here.
Continue reading “Of Therapy and Tolerance”
14,542 Days Alive
5th and Final Week of My First Class
2 Shredded Chicken Chimichangas Eaten
1 Chapter on Grief in the Healthcare Environment Read for Class
I slept through lunch today. I was so tired. I still am. But I got my reading done for the week for class. This week is about grief in the healthcare environment.
Continue reading “Of Squishes and Sandwiches”
14,541 Days Alive
Nat 19 Rolled in Pathfinder
13 Bites of Ben & Jerry’s Half Baked Ice Cream
3.5 Hours Overtime Worked Today
3 Buffalo-Sauce Dipped Chicken Tenders from Rally’s
47 Minute Nap
1 Discussion Board Post Made Today
I am utterly exhausted. I woke up at quarter to seven this morning…. Which absolutely sucks bawls because I didn’t fall asleep until well after four am this morning. Ugh.
Continue reading “Of Buffalo Sauce and Ben & Jerry’s”
14,537 Days Alive
3 of 6 Lectures Watched
1 Crying Jag
Spock kept sitting on my desk and notebook while I was trying to study this evening. And because I’m a six on the pain scale and an eight on the discomfort scale, my focus was shot today.
Continue reading “Of Cat Hair and Crying”
14,533 Days Alive
47 Minute Nap
7 Vials of Blood Taken at My Appointment
1 Game of Magic: the Gathering Won!
So. MHO is the shorthand for the hematology:oncology office I went to after I left work early today. My new doctor is a pretty decent dude.
Continue reading “Of MHO and Magic: the Gathering”
14,532 Days Alive
1,990 Days Straight on Duolingo
3 Hours Studying Tonight
1 Italian Sub Sandwich for Dinner
I have gotten through all three of the chapters assigned for reading this week for class. I also did my discussion board post follow ups for the week. I still need to do my assignment and assessment. One is all multiple choice, another is essay questions, and I don’t remember which is which right now.
Continue reading “Of Italian Subs and Ice Cream”
14,531 Days Alive
1,989 Days Straight on Duolingo
2 Lectures Left to Watch
1 Clingy Kitty Boy
Spock is super clingy tonight. I’m not feeling super great; just another headache and general fatigue issue. I can’t wait for Friday’s appointment with the hematologist, even if I’m nervous. Despite my tattoos, I’m not fantastic with needles being used to inject stuff into me.
Continue reading “Of Caffeine and Cat Hair”
14,530 Days Alive
6 Lectures Listened To
5.75 Hours of Studying and Homework
1 Accidentally Late Night
Oof. I didn’t realize how long J was studying and listening to lectures this evening. Seems like just an hour or so ago I got home, jumped in the shower, and fed the feline overlord. Nope. I’ve been at it since 1730.
Continue reading “Of Listening and Late Nights”
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