What details of your life could you pay more attention to?
My dudes.
Guys, gals, and outside the binary pals.
Y’all.
I have one of the worst cases of ADHD and I am on the autism spectrum. Fucking most of my life is spent grasping at mental straw while powering through in a meatsuit that was designed with Sysyphus in mind.
I am incessantly in pain. And trying to focus through brain fog and fatigue. And have the attention span of gnat on cocaine at the best of non-hyper focused times.
Genuinely, I try so hard not to be bitter. I strive to be happy, be kind, be loving, be patient. But fuck if I can all the time.
What could I pay more attention to? The insides of my eyelids. I need more rest.
Today is a high pain day. Like a solid seven and a half out of ten. My hips are screaming, my knees hurt, my hands hurt too much to crochet. I can knit, as it takes different hand positions and is less painful, but man does it suck to be me today.
My knees are absolutely screaming today, or at least my right one. I don’t know what I did, but I feel like I need to get a knee brace. It feels like the kneecap itself is trying to escape.
Date day, this morning, kicked off about an hour after it was supposed to. We both slept in till almost eight. We were trying to be on the road sometime after seven thirty.