Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
14,794 Days Alive
2,230 Days Straight on Duolingo
5 Shelves on the Bookshelf I Built This Evening
3 Ibuprofen Taken
Welp, I had a full on panic attack today. Pretty much disassembled my room onto my bed trying to find the old smart watch that DW gave me back in 2020.
Continue reading “Of Hip Pain and Hydroxyzine”
14,793 Days Alive
3 Packs of Coca Cola Purchased for the House
3 Pound Bag of Yellow Onions Bought for $1.89
1 Trip to Goodwill with Lucian This Afternoon
Well, I found one more book for my bookshelf when Lucian and I went to Goodwill this afternoon.
Continue reading “Of Clean Up and Construction”
14,791 Days Alive
3 Chocolate Mint Candy Canes Taken from the Box
Another quick entry here. I don’t know what is going on with my account. I just had to reset the password for the third time in two days. Someone seems to be trying to get in, but thankfully they have not yet.
Christmas Eve and morning was awesome except for the slightly stale donuts I picked up at the grocery store yesterday. We did not get to Chinese food today because I had a panic attack and then a post-panic attack headache that nearly incapacitated me for the rest of the evening. I don’t even think I had dinner.
I’m going to go to bed. I will share pictures of our wonderful stockings and such later this week.
Take your meds, folks.
14,790 Days Alive
OK, this is gonna be a quick one because I’m running on a whole three hours of sleep today and for, I think the first time in at least five years if not longer, I have to go shopping on Christmas Eve. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it so much. But, again: most of my gifts this year to my household are edible and perishable.
We are going to try to watch Indiana Jones movies and have Chinese food for Christmas. Homemade Chinese food, cause we are broke as hell and trying to be responsible adults.
Also, tonight’s photo/GIF is not my old man, Mr. Spock, being a personal terror to a Christmas tree. It is just a random GIF that I found on GIPHY for this purpose. And that purpose is humor
Merry Christmas Eve! And take your meds, folks.
14,789 Days Alive
2 Packets of Hot Cocoa Powder Accidentally Added to My Cup
My new job does the full-timers well around the holidays. And Rose, rockstar that she is, set up a hot cocoa bar in the break room! Super cool. Of course, I got distracted listening to someone talk about books and accidentally added two packets of hot cocoa to one cup. A delicious mistake, but I kinda felt bad.
Continue reading “Of Deep Breaths and Double Hot Cocoa”
14,788 Days Alive
2,222 Days Straight on Duolingo
2 Massive Trays of Chicken Nachos Made for Dinner
Well, I finished today kind of late, but at least I finished. I am still struggling emotionally with the holidays and everything else going on right now. And that stuff going on in my life, the lives of my loved ones, and the general world on fire thing we’re all dealing with right now.
Continue reading “Of Cotija Cheese and Chuckles”
14,787 Days Alive
2,223 Days Straight on Duolingo
$86.47 Due for My January Health Insurance Premium
40th Winter Solstice I Have Lived
3 Hours Or Less Sleep Gotten
1 Burnt Out Self
I fell asleep after six am and was up again by ten a.m. For whatever reason, even with my anti-anxiety meds, sleep evades me.
Continue reading “Of Tiny Turtles and Turn Around Time”
14,785 Days Alive
2,221 Days Straight on Duolingo
4 Hours Spent at the Big Gay Holiday Market
1 Hug from a Stranger
Trigger warning: discussion of parental demise.
I actually fought with myself on whether or not to post this one. I’ve decided to post it, but heavily trimmed of most of the anger I originally had spewing in this.
Continue reading “Of Holiday Markets and Hugs”
14,784 Days Alive
33 Peanut Butter Chocolate Chip Cookies Baked Tonight
0 Spoons Left
If I get to sleep before two am, it will be a miracle. I’ve made cookies for the company potluck tomorrow. I’ve tried to go to bed early. It is just after eleven and I have been flipping over like an annoyed rotisserie chicken.
I’m just going to take an anti-anxiety med.
Take your meds, folks.
14,783 Days Alive
7 Days Until Christmas Eve
1 Possible Future Road Trip for the Holiday?
I am looking back over all that has happened in 2025. It’s not all sunshine and roses, but there was growth.
Continue reading “Of Glances Backward and Growth”
14,782 Days Alive
30+ Random Ideas for Hypothetical Intentional Extinction of Select Individuals While At Dinner
3 New Family Members to Hug
1 Singing Voicemail Left for Grandma Gator
Son of a freakin’,three-headed progeny of a seven-legged Plutonian politician!!! I fell asleep. Again. I’ve been trying to go to bed early, but it hasn’t been working well, and then I get side tracked to the eighth power of AuDHD and whoops, there’s another gorram blog post sitting, confused, in my Drafts Box.
Continue reading “Of Brothers and Birthdays”
14,781 Days Alive
I am in a ridiculously large amount of pain right now. I am finding it near physically impossible to get comfortable because my hips hurt. It needed doing so, I rearranged the entirety of the pantry today. Bottom to top.
Continue reading “Of Shelves and Spaghetti”
14,780 Days Alive
26 Books Chosen for the 2026 Alphabet Book Challenge
2 Days Until Grandma Gator’s Birthday
1st Day of Hanukkah
I absolutely forgot that Hanukkah started this evening. I gave Grandma Gator a buzz while I was on my way to the grocery store and she reminded me that it was both the first day of Hanukkah and a few days until her birthday!
Continue reading “Of Pivoting and Plotting”
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