Category: PTSD

Of Cookies and Caution

~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,784 Days Alive

33 Peanut Butter Chocolate Chip Cookies Baked Tonight

0 Spoons Left

If I get to sleep before two am, it will be a miracle. I’ve made cookies for the company potluck tomorrow. I’ve tried to go to bed early. It is just after eleven and I have been flipping over like an annoyed rotisserie chicken.

I’m just going to take an anti-anxiety med.

Take your meds, folks.

Of Brothers and Birthdays

~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,782 Days Alive

30+ Random Ideas for Hypothetical Intentional Extinction of Select Individuals While At Dinner

3 New Family Members to Hug

1 Singing Voicemail Left for Grandma Gator

Son of a freakin’,three-headed progeny of a seven-legged Plutonian politician!!! I fell asleep. Again. I’ve been trying to go to bed early, but it hasn’t been working well, and then I get side tracked to the eighth power of AuDHD and whoops, there’s another gorram blog post sitting, confused, in my Drafts Box.

Continue reading “Of Brothers and Birthdays” →

Of Pivoting and Plotting

~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,780 Days Alive

26 Books Chosen for the 2026 Alphabet Book Challenge

2 Days Until Grandma Gator’s Birthday

1st Day of Hanukkah

I absolutely forgot that Hanukkah started this evening. I gave Grandma Gator a buzz while I was on my way to the grocery store and she reminded me that it was both the first day of Hanukkah and a few days until her birthday!

Continue reading “Of Pivoting and Plotting” →

Of Snowfall and Spring Rolls

~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,778 Days Alive

1 Dinner Shared with Lucian

I have never lived on my own. Ever. I’ve always lived with family, with friends, couch surfed, or stayed in encampments. I still, however , love having my own space. Maybe some time down the road I can have my tiny house ? But for now, when it’s literally scant degrees above zero, snowy, and my brain gremlins are loud, it is best that I am not alone.

Take your meds, folks.

Of Ranch Cups and Rest Needed

~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,775 Days Alive

13 Whoppers is a Serving

4 of Wendy’s Spicy Chicken Nuggets Enjoyed with Dinner

3-ish Hours of Sleep Last Night

1 Row Crocheted on Lynne’s Blanket

$0.53 Cents Paid for an Extra Cup of Ranch Nugget Sauce For Lucian

Holy crap, am I so glad I work from home tomorrow! Sleet, cold weather, icy roads, and a damned headache I’ve been nursing since noon. Ugh.

Continue reading “Of Ranch Cups and Rest Needed” →

Of Attempts and Abapical

~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,772 Days Alive

76 Minutes Catching Up With Tina

0 Crochet Stitches Accomplished

I am… at a low point. Yeah, I know it will get better. I some of it is just too much everything all at once. Some of it is the holidays are hard for me. I know that not being able to bring myself to do much more than exists, do homework, and go to work is likely depression being a jerk. I know, I know, I know.

But I feel like I’m dying in slow motion.

Take your meds, folks.

Of Tearing Up and Time Consumption

~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,771 Days Alive

400+ Ebooks Removed from My Kindle Collection

211 Approximate Hours Until the Start of Hanukkah 2025

50+ Pages of Notes Taken in Today’s Training Sessions

It was my third day at my new in-office job today. Everyone is still super awesome. They are also super loud, but when I am training, I can shut the door so I can actually hear the videos I’m supposed to watch.

Continue reading “Of Tearing Up and Time Consumption” →