Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
14,564 Days Alive
2,021 Days Straight on Duolingo
9 Minutes 56 Second on Hold to Speak With My Academic Advisor
3rd Week of My Second Term
0 Cupcakes Eaten This Week
I’ve got overtime I have to do all this week. It is absolutely exhausting.
Continue reading “Of Candles and Cupcakes”
14,563 Days Alive
41 Items on Our Grocery Order
5.25 Hours Spent Studying and Completing Homework Assignments
2 Slices of Grocery Store Pizza Eaten
1 Mild Headache
I need to manage my time a little better with school this week. I don’t like spending most of Sunday afternoon stuck at my computer re-reading chapters and listening to lectures at double speed.
Continue reading “Of Brain Fog and Brown Bags”
14,561 Days Alive
Played a game on Steam with Mac. Super tired. Just trying to keep my head above water.
Strive to be happy was the line I said was my goal for the year. I’m still striving.
Take your meds, folks.
14,560 Days Alive
9,210 Ebooks Downloaded or Checked Out From the Library
484 Faxes Forwarded To Our Logger At Work
51 Days Till My 40th Birthday
2 Books I Am Waffling Between Reading
I got some homework done this evening, but not as much as I hoped to. I was in a whole lot of pain for some reason. Just general back ache and stomach pain. And then reality, realization, and annoyance set in.
Continue reading “Of Practical Magic and Pickles”
14,558 Days Alive
93.6% In My Claims Cycles Class
3 Days Till Payday
2 Bowls of Turkey Chili Eaten
–$26.11 in the Bank Till Friday
Well, fuck. I don’t often overdraft myself. But apparently. I have to rock being in the red until Friday because something pulled out when it shouldn’t have.
Continue reading “Of Damnit All and Disappointment”
14,557 Days Alive
44 Requests Processed at Work
10 Hot Buffalo Boneless Wings Eaten for Dinner
1 Stop at the Dollar General for Groceries
I have a thing for fizzy beverages. I don’t quite know why. I just like the bubbles, I guess? Anyway, I went grocery shopping today, at the Dollar General. A single, 20 ounce bottle of pop was $2.50! Ridiculous.
Continue reading “Of Wings and Water”
14,556 Days Alive
2,013 Days Straight on Duolingo
So. I did a dumb thing and I did not complete about the last third of my homework until about an hour ago. Zero out of ten: do NOT recommend.
Continue reading “Of Wrapping Paper and Winging It”
14,553 Days Alive
15 Years of Spock Being Alive
1 More Day Until My Iron Infusion Appointment
I’m super fucking out of spoons, so this will be brief.
Continue reading “Of Beltane 2025 and Birthday Brats”
14,551 Days Alive
2,008 Days Straight on Duolingo
10 Chicken Nuggets Eaten for Dinner
8 New Plates/Bowls/Cup Bought From WalMart
2 Sinks Cleaned Out and Sanitized
Ooof. I am so fucking tired of this headache. C’mon Friday! Get here fast! I need iron!
Continue reading “Of Doing Dishes and Depression”
14,550 Days Alive
2,007 Days Straight on Duolingo
24th Day of My Headache
3 Days Till Spock’s 15th Birthday/Beltane
2 New Classes Started
1 Episode of Ghost Hunters Watched with Mac
Well. I tried to go to the ER after work. Four hours in, I left without ever even being triaged. I’m going to try a different ER tomorrow, if I still have this damn headache. I didn’t even check out AMA, because they never even checked me out. Ugh. Goddamnit.
Continue reading “Of Ghost Hunters and Goddammit”
14,547 Days Alive
44 Requests Completed at Work Today
2 Missed Phone Calls from Friends
I am so glad it’s the weekend. And that it’s payday. Holy shit was this week rough for me. Just… utterly dismal.
Continue reading “Of Dishes and Dairy Queen Blizzards”
14,546 Days Alive
6,876 Days Since I Stopped Drinking Alcohol
64 Minutes Spent Texting 988 Today
20 Days of this Fucking Headache
7 Days Till Spock’s 15th Birthday
1 Hour Till Payday
I’m still here. I’m suicidal but safe. No plan. Not enough energy to do anything anyway. Did therapy today. Lots of Big Emotions. But I’m still here.
Continue reading “Of Therapy and Tolerance”
14,544 Days Alive
60+ Faxes Handled Today
30 Minutes Late to Work
18 Days of my Headache
10 Boneless Wings Eaten
My coworker was out sick today. Not usually a problem, but I didn’t fall asleep till after three am. Again. And then I overslept by almost an hour. So I was late to work.
Continue reading “Of Sleeping In and Sick Days”
