Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
14,784 Days Alive
33 Peanut Butter Chocolate Chip Cookies Baked Tonight
0 Spoons Left
If I get to sleep before two am, it will be a miracle. I’ve made cookies for the company potluck tomorrow. I’ve tried to go to bed early. It is just after eleven and I have been flipping over like an annoyed rotisserie chicken.
I’m just going to take an anti-anxiety med.
Take your meds, folks.
14,783 Days Alive
7 Days Until Christmas Eve
1 Possible Future Road Trip for the Holiday?
I am looking back over all that has happened in 2025. It’s not all sunshine and roses, but there was growth.
Continue reading “Of Glances Backward and Growth”
14,781 Days Alive
I am in a ridiculously large amount of pain right now. I am finding it near physically impossible to get comfortable because my hips hurt. It needed doing so, I rearranged the entirety of the pantry today. Bottom to top.
Continue reading “Of Shelves and Spaghetti”
14,780 Days Alive
26 Books Chosen for the 2026 Alphabet Book Challenge
2 Days Until Grandma Gator’s Birthday
1st Day of Hanukkah
I absolutely forgot that Hanukkah started this evening. I gave Grandma Gator a buzz while I was on my way to the grocery store and she reminded me that it was both the first day of Hanukkah and a few days until her birthday!
Continue reading “Of Pivoting and Plotting”
14,778 Days Alive
1 Dinner Shared with Lucian
I have never lived on my own. Ever. I’ve always lived with family, with friends, couch surfed, or stayed in encampments. I still, however , love having my own space. Maybe some time down the road I can have my tiny house ? But for now, when it’s literally scant degrees above zero, snowy, and my brain gremlins are loud, it is best that I am not alone.
Take your meds, folks.
14,776 Days Alive
9.75 Hours of Sleep Yesterday
2.5 Hours Spent Grocery Shopping
Thanks to the new job at the eyecare clinic, I can afford to make French onion soup for dinner tomorrow! It’s really not much more than beef broth, 3 1/2 pounds of mandolin, sliced onions, and a whole lot of patience.
Continue reading “Of Shopping and Schlepping”
14,774 Days Alive
208 Days Until I Finish My Degree
This one will be short. I am so close to graduating (as seen above) and it’s freaking hard.
Continue reading “Of Wilted Spinach and Worn Down”
14,773 Days Alive
2,211 Days Straight on Duolingo
150 Stitch Starting Chain For Lynne’s Blanket
2 Slices of Leftover Pizza Eaten As Breakfast This Morning
1 Minor Panic Attack Today
We had Taco Bell for dinner this evening because I was out of spoons. Tomorrow will be pork steak with garlic-wilted spinach and either noodles and Alfredo or mashed potatoes.
Continue reading “Of Delicacies and Deadlines”
14,772 Days Alive
76 Minutes Catching Up With Tina
0 Crochet Stitches Accomplished
I am… at a low point. Yeah, I know it will get better. I some of it is just too much everything all at once. Some of it is the holidays are hard for me. I know that not being able to bring myself to do much more than exists, do homework, and go to work is likely depression being a jerk. I know, I know, I know.
But I feel like I’m dying in slow motion.
Take your meds, folks.
14,771 Days Alive
400+ Ebooks Removed from My Kindle Collection
211 Approximate Hours Until the Start of Hanukkah 2025
50+ Pages of Notes Taken in Today’s Training Sessions
It was my third day at my new in-office job today. Everyone is still super awesome. They are also super loud, but when I am training, I can shut the door so I can actually hear the videos I’m supposed to watch.
Continue reading “Of Tearing Up and Time Consumption”
14,770 Days Alive
2,208 Days Straight on Duolingo
3 Tires Pumped Full of Air
2 Slices of Supreme Deep Dish Pizza Eaten
Tonight is the final full moon of 2025. I have maybe three set goals for next year. It’s very hard for me to think forward what all I want to do is have everything stop.
Continue reading “Of Endings and Everything Else”
14,769 Days Alive
2,207 Days Straight on Duolingo
0 Rows Crocheted Today
Son of a crumbled biscuit. I fell asleep writing this. Oh dear.
Oh man am I utterly exhausted from work and socializing today. I had work in the morning, but I have to admit I was not as good as I could have been seeing as I had the beginnings of a very bad headache. It got better, but holy crap is it cold out tonight.
Continue reading “Of Friendliness and Falling Temperatures”
14,768 Days Alive
1 Hour Early to Work today
Well, I started my new part-time job today! I think I clicked pretty well with my new coworkers. Or at least I hope I did!
Continue reading “Of Plows and Punctuality”
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