Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
14,789 Days Alive
2 Packets of Hot Cocoa Powder Accidentally Added to My Cup
My new job does the full-timers well around the holidays. And Rose, rockstar that she is, set up a hot cocoa bar in the break room! Super cool. Of course, I got distracted listening to someone talk about books and accidentally added two packets of hot cocoa to one cup. A delicious mistake, but I kinda felt bad.
Continue reading “Of Deep Breaths and Double Hot Cocoa”
14,788 Days Alive
2,222 Days Straight on Duolingo
2 Massive Trays of Chicken Nachos Made for Dinner
Well, I finished today kind of late, but at least I finished. I am still struggling emotionally with the holidays and everything else going on right now. And that stuff going on in my life, the lives of my loved ones, and the general world on fire thing we’re all dealing with right now.
Continue reading “Of Cotija Cheese and Chuckles”
14,787 Days Alive
2,223 Days Straight on Duolingo
$86.47 Due for My January Health Insurance Premium
40th Winter Solstice I Have Lived
3 Hours Or Less Sleep Gotten
1 Burnt Out Self
I fell asleep after six am and was up again by ten a.m. For whatever reason, even with my anti-anxiety meds, sleep evades me.
Continue reading “Of Tiny Turtles and Turn Around Time”
14,785 Days Alive
2,221 Days Straight on Duolingo
4 Hours Spent at the Big Gay Holiday Market
1 Hug from a Stranger
Trigger warning: discussion of parental demise.
I actually fought with myself on whether or not to post this one. I’ve decided to post it, but heavily trimmed of most of the anger I originally had spewing in this.
Continue reading “Of Holiday Markets and Hugs”
14,784 Days Alive
33 Peanut Butter Chocolate Chip Cookies Baked Tonight
0 Spoons Left
If I get to sleep before two am, it will be a miracle. I’ve made cookies for the company potluck tomorrow. I’ve tried to go to bed early. It is just after eleven and I have been flipping over like an annoyed rotisserie chicken.
I’m just going to take an anti-anxiety med.
Take your meds, folks.
14,783 Days Alive
7 Days Until Christmas Eve
1 Possible Future Road Trip for the Holiday?
I am looking back over all that has happened in 2025. It’s not all sunshine and roses, but there was growth.
Continue reading “Of Glances Backward and Growth”
14,782 Days Alive
30+ Random Ideas for Hypothetical Intentional Extinction of Select Individuals While At Dinner
3 New Family Members to Hug
1 Singing Voicemail Left for Grandma Gator
Son of a freakin’,three-headed progeny of a seven-legged Plutonian politician!!! I fell asleep. Again. I’ve been trying to go to bed early, but it hasn’t been working well, and then I get side tracked to the eighth power of AuDHD and whoops, there’s another gorram blog post sitting, confused, in my Drafts Box.
Continue reading “Of Brothers and Birthdays”
14,774 Days Alive
208 Days Until I Finish My Degree
This one will be short. I am so close to graduating (as seen above) and it’s freaking hard.
Continue reading “Of Wilted Spinach and Worn Down”
14,773 Days Alive
2,211 Days Straight on Duolingo
150 Stitch Starting Chain For Lynne’s Blanket
2 Slices of Leftover Pizza Eaten As Breakfast This Morning
1 Minor Panic Attack Today
We had Taco Bell for dinner this evening because I was out of spoons. Tomorrow will be pork steak with garlic-wilted spinach and either noodles and Alfredo or mashed potatoes.
Continue reading “Of Delicacies and Deadlines”
14,772 Days Alive
76 Minutes Catching Up With Tina
0 Crochet Stitches Accomplished
I am… at a low point. Yeah, I know it will get better. I some of it is just too much everything all at once. Some of it is the holidays are hard for me. I know that not being able to bring myself to do much more than exists, do homework, and go to work is likely depression being a jerk. I know, I know, I know.
But I feel like I’m dying in slow motion.
Take your meds, folks.
14,771 Days Alive
400+ Ebooks Removed from My Kindle Collection
211 Approximate Hours Until the Start of Hanukkah 2025
50+ Pages of Notes Taken in Today’s Training Sessions
It was my third day at my new in-office job today. Everyone is still super awesome. They are also super loud, but when I am training, I can shut the door so I can actually hear the videos I’m supposed to watch.
Continue reading “Of Tearing Up and Time Consumption”
14,770 Days Alive
2,208 Days Straight on Duolingo
3 Tires Pumped Full of Air
2 Slices of Supreme Deep Dish Pizza Eaten
Tonight is the final full moon of 2025. I have maybe three set goals for next year. It’s very hard for me to think forward what all I want to do is have everything stop.
Continue reading “Of Endings and Everything Else”
14,769 Days Alive
2,207 Days Straight on Duolingo
0 Rows Crocheted Today
Son of a crumbled biscuit. I fell asleep writing this. Oh dear.
Oh man am I utterly exhausted from work and socializing today. I had work in the morning, but I have to admit I was not as good as I could have been seeing as I had the beginnings of a very bad headache. It got better, but holy crap is it cold out tonight.
Continue reading “Of Friendliness and Falling Temperatures”
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