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Tag: Feelings

Of Worries and Writing

October 27, 2025November 8, 2025 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,732 Days Alive

$277.14 in the Red Still

4 Episodes of Murder She Wrote Watched

2 Meetings Tomorrow

I am not doing so well today. I’m sober. I’ve taken all my meds, and even ate three meals. But I’m not okay.

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Of Birthdays and Bilateral Bursitis

October 26, 2025November 8, 2025 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,731 Days Alive

1 Week into the Actual Coding Class

So this week is Halloween week. That means on Friday it is Bill6 and J’s 10th wedding anniversary, it is also J’s birthday, and the witch’s new year.

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No Spoons

October 25, 2025 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

This week has been hell.

Of Cracked Hands and Cash Flow

October 23, 2025 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,727 Days Alive

11 Documents to Generate for a Client

7 Days Till I Get Paid Again

5 Episodes of Blown Away Watched

Okay, so my hands are in agony right now. To the point where they were just red and cracking and hurt to even breathe on them. I got help from Lucian and Brian, thankfully.

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Of Hurdles and Hot Cocoa

October 21, 2025 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,726 Days Alive

4.0 GPA Still

2 Bean Burritos Eaten

1 Grateful Me

Well. Things got a little less suck-tacular today.

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Of Rainfall and Repeated Crying Jags

October 20, 2025 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,725 Days Alive

6 Crying Breakdowns Today

1 Massive Headache

It rained today, off and on. And tomorrow it’s supposed to be in the forties all day. Glorious weather. Not doing well, but doing my best. I have to ask a friend for grocery help again. I fucking hate it.

I’m going to bed.

Take your meds, folks.

Of Bereavement and Breathing

October 19, 2025 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,724 Days Alive

2,512 Days Since My Dad Passed Away

9 Courses Until I Finish My Degree

7 Years Gone in December

Hey, friends. This ain’t a happy entry, for the most part. No offenses taken if you skip this one.

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Of Overdrafts and Opinions

October 17, 2025 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,722 Days Alive

1 Idiot Nazi Argued With on Social Media

Some people‘s idiocy is frankly astounding these days. I like surfing those AITA on Facebook sometimes. Some Canadian former social worker woman was being ignorant. And I asked her why. And she did not like that. 

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Of Anxiety and Alfredo

October 16, 2025 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,721 Days Alive

303 Job Applications Submitted Since 11 September, 2025

3 Packages of Alfredo-Style Dried Pasta Mix

1 Delicious Dinner

The hell does it say about me that after 50 milligrams of hydroxyzine, I am still peel-me-off-the-ceiling anxious?

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Of Ebooks and Excellence

October 15, 2025 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,720 Days Alive

21 Days Till My Library Ebook Is Due

Okay, this is basically just a “not dead, busy reading” post.

I just had the copy of Bury Our Bones in the Midnight Soil by V.E. Schwab pop up as available for download from the library.

There goes at least the next hour of my life.

Take your meds, folks!

Of Sport Peppers and Siblings

October 14, 2025 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,719 Days Alive

5+ Hours Spent in the Car Round Trip

2 Chicago-Style Hot Dogs Eaten

I drove down to Chicago with Lucian this morning. My brain had the structural integrity of a goddamned damp sugar cube right now.

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Of Couches and Contentment

October 13, 2025 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,718 Days Alive

Edit: I fucking forgot to hit post again.

I knocked out after taking pain meds for a killer headache this afternoon. Completely by accident. Spock kept me company on the couch as I rested.

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Of Furniture Straps and Fake Fireplaces

October 12, 2025 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,717 Days Alive

16 Steps Down from the First Floor to the Ground Floor

2 Furniture Straps

We finally got the entertainment center into the apartment today! Out of my trunk and down the steps without injury. A lot of cursing and three stops to be able to breathe, but no injuries.

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