Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
14,555 Days Alive
2,012 Days Straight on Duolingo
5.5 Lectures to Finish Before Midnight Tomorrow
1 New Study-Scented Candle Needed
The photo tonight is my desk setup for studying. Not the full thing, as I’d practically need to take a panoramic for the full L-shaped desk to be revealed.
Continue reading “Of Lingering Pain and Light Sources”
14,533 Days Alive
47 Minute Nap
7 Vials of Blood Taken at My Appointment
1 Game of Magic: the Gathering Won!
So. MHO is the shorthand for the hematology:oncology office I went to after I left work early today. My new doctor is a pretty decent dude.
Continue reading “Of MHO and Magic: the Gathering”
14,527 Days Alive
15 Minutes Accidentally Late to the Library for Crochet Class
4 People Showed Up to My Crochet Class (Plus Me!)
3 Hours Socializing at the Library
2 Chili Dogs Eaten
I totally overslept this morning. I woke up pretty damn early, initially, today. But I had a massive migraine hangover and my face was super fucking puffy. I almost looked like I had been punched in the face. Not a good look for me.
Continue reading “Of Shadow Headaches and Steak Burrito Bowl”
14,518 Days Alive
98/100 on This Week’s Assignment
1 Week Since I Last Picked Up a Crochet Hook
I haven’t really crocheted at all this week. Most of my “free” time was dedicated to school work, sleep, or just existing in a pain/brain fog double punch due to a fibro flare. It kinda sucked.
Continue reading “Of Ennui and Expectations”
14,463 Days Alive
4 Rows Left on the Current Crochet Project
1 Hour Spent with a Kitten in My Lap
I felt relatively well rested when I pulled myself out of bed around half past seven this morning. High pain day had me going back to sleep around nine till noon.
Continue reading “Of Kittens and Kerfuffles”
14,455 Days Alive
5 Years Divorced as of 23rd April of This Year
2nd Place in Tonight’s Magic: The Gathering Game
1.5 Years Since Mom Died
1 Chocolate Coke Float Imbibed
I’m not doing great tonight. In the last few days, a bunch of people have brought up my ex-wife in conversation. It happened again today.
Continue reading “Of Existencial Dread and Ex-Wives”
14,449 Days Alive
2 Retinas Called Pretty by the Eye Doctor
My eye doctor is a very strange woman. In our appointment, she told me how her first grandson, born a month ago, is named for Doc Holiday, told me I have a “cute freckle” in both eyes, complimented my “pretty retinas”, and congratulated me on getting me eye pressure lower.
It was a weird morning.
Continue reading “Of Dilation and Dungeon Crawls”
14,413 Days Alive
2nd Place in a Game of Commander Magic: the Gathering
1 Raspberry and Chocolate Tart Eaten
I came in second place tonight in a friendly four-way game of Magic: The Gathering. We went over to Beau and Tina’s for holiday gifts and a few games of Magic.
Continue reading “Of Tootsie Pops and Triskaidekaphobia”
14,365 Days Alive
292 Gold Pieces
12 Boneless Buffalo Wings Eaten
2 Scoops of Super Chocolate Cake and Vanilla Ice Cream
1 Negative Covid-19 Test
I got to go to Pathfinder this evening!! I’m so excited. I also got to snuggle Mac so I’m so damn happy. The touch deprivation was hell, even with a weighted blanket.
Continue reading “Of Chocolate Cake and Cackling”
14,351 Days Alive
1 Caramel Churro Eaten
1/3rd of a Ground Beef Burrito Eaten
My poor friends Tina and Beau are in need of a good hot toddy. Their sinuses are trying to murder them and they aren’t feeling well. Not sick, no fever, but they’re under the weather.
Continue reading “Of Hydras and Hot Toddies”
14,323 Days Alive
3 Days into This Mental Funk
I am stuck in this endless negative feedback loop. In angry and I don’t quite know why.
Continue reading “Of Recovery and Rage”
14,274 Days Alive
I am so goddamned tired of being in pain.
I think I’m angry about it, but mostly just tired of the misery that is being me.
Continue reading “Of Magic the Gathering and Misery”
14,120 Days Alive
2nd Place in Today’s Magic: The Gathering Game
It’s the Full Moon tonight. I am hoping to be able to do a spell tomorrow for more stability as I’m feeling very mentally stuck in quicksand. Or the Swamps of Sadness.
Continue reading “Of Full Moons and Fear”
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