Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
15,037 Days Alive
1 Great Act of Kindness
I ordered my cap and gown for graduation!!! I am so damn excited for graduation. I didn’t get chosen for speaking, but I’m actually quite okay with that.
Continue reading “Of Coffee and Caps”
15,002 Days Alive
313 Miles Travelled Today
2 Chicago-Style Hot Dogs Eaten
Trigger warnings: loss of pet, grief, depression
I miss my Spock. He passed away, in my arms, on the 16th of June. Five weeks and I am still devastated. He was 16 and will be greatly, greatly missed.
Continue reading “Of Passing and Packing”
14,960 Days Alive
1,085 Days Since My Mother’s Death
I am down in Illinois visiting my girlfriend Owl and I realized that I genuinely feel like she is a supportive partner, not a child masquerading as an adult. It’s a rather glorious realization.
Continue reading “Of Brute Strength and Blessings”
14,891 Days Alive
152 Miles Driven Today to Meet Up With Uncle Comic
49 Words Per Minute Typed Going Moderately Slow
12.5 Hours Till the 221B Weekly Write In!
1 Accidental Nap
My jaw is doing the thing where it keeps randomly clenching bilaterally. I assume it’s because of anxiety, because solo trips, more than about 45 minutes have a tendency to make me anxious.
Continue reading “Of Audiobooks and Anxiety”
14,807 Days Alive
1 Closet in Desperate Need of a Clean Up
The photo you see is me taking a step back, looking at the monster hellscape that has become my closet, and nearly crying.
I’m going to tackle it today. Pray for me.
And take your meds, folks!
14,800 Days Alive
2,236 Days Straight on Duolingo
It’s a super moon today, the first full moon of 2026. There is also some kind of meteor shower thing that I haven’t bothered to go outside and look at. I’m so, so tired of being in discomfort, and pain, and unable to focus. I am doing my best to keep going. I’m doing yoga as often as I am physically capable of doing so. Sleep is elusive due to pain and discomfort; I fell asleep after 4 AM this morning and I assume that Sunday will be more of the same.
Take your meds, folks
14,793 Days Alive
3 Packs of Coca Cola Purchased for the House
3 Pound Bag of Yellow Onions Bought for $1.89
1 Trip to Goodwill with Lucian This Afternoon
Well, I found one more book for my bookshelf when Lucian and I went to Goodwill this afternoon.
Continue reading “Of Clean Up and Construction”
14,772 Days Alive
76 Minutes Catching Up With Tina
0 Crochet Stitches Accomplished
I am… at a low point. Yeah, I know it will get better. I some of it is just too much everything all at once. Some of it is the holidays are hard for me. I know that not being able to bring myself to do much more than exists, do homework, and go to work is likely depression being a jerk. I know, I know, I know.
But I feel like I’m dying in slow motion.
Take your meds, folks.
14,765 Days Alive
33 Years Since I Hugged Fievel Mouskewitz
10+ Inches of Snow Fell in the Past 24 Hours
3+ Happy Crying Jags Today
1/2 Serving of Baked Beef and Bean Nachos
Trigger warning past this initial paragraph: physical child abuse. This first part is happy, I swear.
Well. Today’s the day! He arrived! I am so freaking gleeful. Mr Fievel Mousekewitz is in my arms as I type this. As above, I have broken down crying, hugging said 39 year-old stuffed animal, at least three times so far today. A dear friend, named here as Lois, gifted him to me. He is 22 inches tall, still has his hat, shirt, trousers, and tail! He’s new to me, but used to belong to someone named Corey. Thank you so, so, so much for taking good care of Fievel for me to enjoy now.
Continue reading “Of Memories and Mouskewitz”
14,758 Days Alive
6 Cookies Given to L to Enjoy
1 Massive Tub of Popcorn
I cried. In a mostly-good way, but yeah, that movie was a fist to the emotional solar plexus.
Continue reading “Of Onions and Overnight”
14,750 Days Alive
2,088 Days Streak on Duolingo
Well, posts AGAIN work a lot better if one remembers to actually POST them. Ugh
In my defense, I was absolutely exhausted. Poor Lucian woke up with a migraine, which was miserable, so Llama and I hit up the local botanical garden instead, just the two of us.
Continue reading “Of Gladness and Gardens”
14,744 Days Alive
89 Hours, 5 Minutes Until Llama Arrives!
53 Days Until the Gregorian New Year
2 33 1/3 (LP) Records Listened to Today
1 Pan of Challah Bread Pudding Made
I knocked it out of the park today! Baking, at least. Desk still is not built, but Brian said he would help me oh tomorrow with it.
Continue reading “Of Snickerdoodle Frosties and Snowfall”
14,737 Days Alive
2 Trays of Potato Nachos Made for Dinner
1 Panic Attack
I am trying not to doom-spiral right now. I’m worried what the future will bring. I’m doing my best. I’m using the limited resources available to me. But gods is it hard.
Continue reading “Of Potatoes and Present”
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