Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
14,551 Days Alive
2,008 Days Straight on Duolingo
10 Chicken Nuggets Eaten for Dinner
8 New Plates/Bowls/Cup Bought From WalMart
2 Sinks Cleaned Out and Sanitized
Ooof. I am so fucking tired of this headache. C’mon Friday! Get here fast! I need iron!
Continue reading “Of Doing Dishes and Depression”
14,550 Days Alive
2,007 Days Straight on Duolingo
24th Day of My Headache
3 Days Till Spock’s 15th Birthday/Beltane
2 New Classes Started
1 Episode of Ghost Hunters Watched with Mac
Well. I tried to go to the ER after work. Four hours in, I left without ever even being triaged. I’m going to try a different ER tomorrow, if I still have this damn headache. I didn’t even check out AMA, because they never even checked me out. Ugh. Goddamnit.
Continue reading “Of Ghost Hunters and Goddammit”
14,548 Days Alive
22nd Day of This Stupid Freaking Headache
5 Weeks Done of Introduction to Healthcare Communication
6 White Chocolate Macadamia Nut Cookies Received from Doordash
1 Nat 20 Rolled on a Check During Pathfinder
Today is my fifth and final week of my first college class. I have two new classes: Student Success as well as Healthcare Settings, Claim Cycles, and Claims Processing. I’m not sure what the first class is. The second class should be fairly straightforward.
Continue reading “Of Nat 20s and Nachos”
14,547 Days Alive
44 Requests Completed at Work Today
2 Missed Phone Calls from Friends
I am so glad it’s the weekend. And that it’s payday. Holy shit was this week rough for me. Just… utterly dismal.
Continue reading “Of Dishes and Dairy Queen Blizzards”
14,546 Days Alive
6,876 Days Since I Stopped Drinking Alcohol
64 Minutes Spent Texting 988 Today
20 Days of this Fucking Headache
7 Days Till Spock’s 15th Birthday
1 Hour Till Payday
I’m still here. I’m suicidal but safe. No plan. Not enough energy to do anything anyway. Did therapy today. Lots of Big Emotions. But I’m still here.
Continue reading “Of Therapy and Tolerance”
14,541 Days Alive
Nat 19 Rolled in Pathfinder
13 Bites of Ben & Jerry’s Half Baked Ice Cream
3.5 Hours Overtime Worked Today
3 Buffalo-Sauce Dipped Chicken Tenders from Rally’s
47 Minute Nap
1 Discussion Board Post Made Today
I am utterly exhausted. I woke up at quarter to seven this morning…. Which absolutely sucks bawls because I didn’t fall asleep until well after four am this morning. Ugh.
Continue reading “Of Buffalo Sauce and Ben & Jerry’s”
14,540 Days Alive
1,998 Days Straight on Duolingo
4 Hours of Overtime Planned Tomorrow
It got up to nearly 75 degrees today. Had to turn on the AC and the oscillating fan in the bedroom.
Continue reading “Of Overtime and Oscillating Fans”
14,539 Days Alive
7: Ferritin Level
4: Iron Saturation Level
Anemia fucking sucks. I feel like my bones hurt. And the rest of my damn body. Ugh. Hopefully, the insurance company will approve my infusion soon.
Continue reading “Of Air Conditioning and Agony”
14,537 Days Alive
3 of 6 Lectures Watched
1 Crying Jag
Spock kept sitting on my desk and notebook while I was trying to study this evening. And because I’m a six on the pain scale and an eight on the discomfort scale, my focus was shot today.
Continue reading “Of Cat Hair and Crying”
14,531 Days Alive
1,989 Days Straight on Duolingo
2 Lectures Left to Watch
1 Clingy Kitty Boy
Spock is super clingy tonight. I’m not feeling super great; just another headache and general fatigue issue. I can’t wait for Friday’s appointment with the hematologist, even if I’m nervous. Despite my tattoos, I’m not fantastic with needles being used to inject stuff into me.
Continue reading “Of Caffeine and Cat Hair”
14,523 Days Alive
1,983 Days Straight on Duolingo
Tomorrow is Friday. Woo hoo!!! I am greatly looking forward to this weekend.
Continue reading “Of Comprehension and Compression”
14,521 Days Alive
I am still studying at nearly midnight. I’m going to focus on that.
Take your meds folks.
14,516 Days Alive
95% on Chapter 1’s Assessment
20/20 on Two Quizzes
6 Online Lectures Attended
1 Week of College All But in the Bag
Woof. I procrastinated for nearly twenty minutes getting out of the car once I got home from work today. Just, it was a lovely day, I was exhausted, and moving from the driver’s seat just felt like Too Much Work.
Continue reading “Of Passing and Procrastination”
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