Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
14,546 Days Alive
6,876 Days Since I Stopped Drinking Alcohol
64 Minutes Spent Texting 988 Today
20 Days of this Fucking Headache
7 Days Till Spock’s 15th Birthday
1 Hour Till Payday
I’m still here. I’m suicidal but safe. No plan. Not enough energy to do anything anyway. Did therapy today. Lots of Big Emotions. But I’m still here.
Continue reading “Of Therapy and Tolerance”
14,541 Days Alive
Nat 19 Rolled in Pathfinder
13 Bites of Ben & Jerry’s Half Baked Ice Cream
3.5 Hours Overtime Worked Today
3 Buffalo-Sauce Dipped Chicken Tenders from Rally’s
47 Minute Nap
1 Discussion Board Post Made Today
I am utterly exhausted. I woke up at quarter to seven this morning…. Which absolutely sucks bawls because I didn’t fall asleep until well after four am this morning. Ugh.
Continue reading “Of Buffalo Sauce and Ben & Jerry’s”
14,499 Days Alive
6 Chicken Quesadillas Made for Dinner
2 Naps Taken Today
I made simple chicken quesadillas for dinner this evening. I bought a large shaker bottle of taco seasoning to make things easier for myself. It worked pretty well. Dinner was good but holy fuck am I in pain.
Continue reading “Of Time Change and Taco Seasoning”
14,497 Days Alive
14 Weeks to Finish the Two-Tone Throw
2 Orders of Cheesy Fiesta Potatoes with Pico Eaten
1 Shopping Trip with Tina Tomorrow!
Our systems went down at work today for over two hours! So frustrating. Especially when we had more than three hours of servers being down earlier this week. Just not fun.
Continue reading “Of Yarn and Yakking”
14,494 Days Alive
10/10 on the Discomfort Scale
7.5/ 10on the Pain Scale
1 Load of Laundry Done
Not much to say today. I’m having a really bad fibromyalgia flare up. The exhaustion is really bad AND I’m in so much pain. I can’t even crochet.
I’m going to bed.
Take your meds, folks.
14,482 Days Alive
25% Interest Rate on a a Potential Car Loan
1 Test Drive Taken this Evening
It’s late. I’m tired. I hate car shopping and places that charge the state maximum for interest rates.
I’m going to bed in self-defense.
Take your meds, folks.
14,481 Days Alive
2 Vehicles Test Driven
I test drove two cars today: a 2021 Mitsubishi Mirage and a 2020 Ford EcoSport. The Mirage was awful.
Continue reading “Of Collateral and Cars”
63,595 Miles on Sherrinford the Ford Focus
14,479 Days Alive
1 Fond, Tearful Farewell
Well, I said goodbye to my Ford Focus today and returned the rental that my insurance covered for me for three whole days after m car was declared a total loss. Three days.
Continue reading “Of Skyrim and Sad Days”
14,478 Days Alive
2 Inches of Fresh Snowfall
1 Blanket Finished
I’m still terrified everything is going to go wrong. Anxiety sucks.
Continue reading “Of Completion and Concern”
14,477 Days Alive
2 Days Till I Return the Rental
1 Level Gained on my Pathfinder Character Moralee Grey Morrowind
I have hope. It means waiting till Tuesday to possibly get a new car, but there is finally hope.
Continue reading “Of Morals and Morning Light”
14,472 Days Alive
$44.73 Spent on Medication
4 Mega Stuffed Oreos Eaten
2 Rows Left on the Border of Axton’s Blanket
The man who towed my car to the repair shop was a walking, delightful, chain-smoking stereotype. Marlboro Red 33s smoking guy named ‘Joe’ who called me “little lady” and “miss ma’am” during our approximately forty-five minutes together.
Continue reading “Of Towing and Taxes”
14,463 Days Alive
4 Rows Left on the Current Crochet Project
1 Hour Spent with a Kitten in My Lap
I felt relatively well rested when I pulled myself out of bed around half past seven this morning. High pain day had me going back to sleep around nine till noon.
Continue reading “Of Kittens and Kerfuffles”
14,459 Days Alive
I made lo mein and pot stickers for dinner this evening. Both from frozen but it was delicious, if not really enough food. But now I want to make lo mein from scratch.
Continue reading “Of Lo Mein and Luck”
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