Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
14,789 Days Alive
2 Packets of Hot Cocoa Powder Accidentally Added to My Cup
My new job does the full-timers well around the holidays. And Rose, rockstar that she is, set up a hot cocoa bar in the break room! Super cool. Of course, I got distracted listening to someone talk about books and accidentally added two packets of hot cocoa to one cup. A delicious mistake, but I kinda felt bad.
Continue reading “Of Deep Breaths and Double Hot Cocoa”
14,693 Days Alive
28.9 Hours Worked in the Last 2.5 Days
14.8 Hours Worked Between 1 am and 1105 pm Today
5 Hours of Sleep
1 Interview Scheduled for Next Week
I burned the midnight oil today. I worked from 1am to five am on a several thousand page response to discovery for DW. I then crashed out until 10:14, got up, and got back to it.
Continue reading “Of Sour Skittles and Subpoenas”
14,685 Days Alive
I made a damn good chicken soup for dinner. I didn’t have to deal with the bone in chicken, thankfully. Bryan took care of it for me.
Work sucked. Maybe tomorrow will be better.
Take your meds, folks.
14,646 Days Alive
$10.00 Burger, Fries, and Pie Meal at Perkins
1 Cup Iced Vietnamese Coffee Enjoyed
I met a new friend today! Their name is Jazmine and they’re a local, queer writer. We met off BumbleBFF. I kind of refuse to just languish in an island of social isolation here.
Continue reading “Of Bursitis and Burgers”
14,645 Days Alive
7 Tacos Purchased for Dinner
12 Hours Until I Go to Meet a New Friend
2 Bookcases Purchased
I have both therapy (8a.m) and a new friend meetup at a local coffee shop (noon) tomorrow! I am very excited about the latter and cautiously optimistic about the former.
Continue reading “Of Taco Meat and Tomorrow Morning”
14,546 Days Alive
6,876 Days Since I Stopped Drinking Alcohol
64 Minutes Spent Texting 988 Today
20 Days of this Fucking Headache
7 Days Till Spock’s 15th Birthday
1 Hour Till Payday
I’m still here. I’m suicidal but safe. No plan. Not enough energy to do anything anyway. Did therapy today. Lots of Big Emotions. But I’m still here.
Continue reading “Of Therapy and Tolerance”
14,517 Days Alive
3 Games of Phasmophbia Played
This is a quick one because I’m tired and it’s nearly midnight.
Continue reading “Of Ghosts and Giggles”
14,510 Days Alive
4 Vials of Blood Given at the Doctor’s Office
1 Tetanus Shot Received
I went to the doctors today. My anemia is really acting up and I may have to get infusions. Thankfully, I’m across the street from the local hematology oncology office when I’m at work. so that should make things a little easier.
Continue reading “Of Mathematics and Medicine”
14,448 Days Alive
47 Minutes Spent in Therapy
2 Social Events this Weekend
1 Ophthalmologist Appointment Tomorrow Morning
What does it mean when you’re craving a Granny Smith apple? Probably some weird vitamin deficiency.
Continue reading “Of Grilled Cheese and Green Apples”
14,434 Days Alive
1 Broken Hot Water Heater
Welp. My anxiety is at a thousand percent.
We have no hot water. I’m going to take some meds to try and not hyperventilate because they’re going to try and DIY replacing the hot water heater tomorrow. It’s $500 for the hot water heater. And more for the tools and stuff to install it.
Continue reading “Of Hot WaterHeaters and Hyperventilating”
14,420 Days Alive
3 Minutes Late to Work
I’m on a manic upswing right now and everything feels like it’s in all caps.
Continue reading “Of Managing and Mania”
14,407 Days Alive
1 Warm Snap Coming Tomorrow
Tomorrow afternoon, I’ll be meeting up with some local pagan peeps! I’m trying so hard to find my community here. I’ve joined Facebook groups and tried meet ups… it’s exhausting.
Continue reading “Of Warm Weather and Witchy Things”
14,336 Days Alive
1 Margarita Had with Dinner
1/2 a Double Bacon Burger Eaten
Had therapy this evening. My therapist recommended something sweet or alcoholic or both to loosen up after the rough week I’ve had. So I had a margarita with dinner.
Continue reading “Of Bacon and Booze”
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