Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
14,648 Days Alive
4 More Days till the Weekend
Edit: Son of a bitch. I fell asleep again.
I have not had a good day. Tonight is a Taco Bell for dinner kind of night. And a hot shower with a candle going.
Take your meds, folks.
14,647 Days Alive
4th Week of Class in the Books
1 Grocery Order Picked Up from the Store
Today was a hard day, both physically and mentally. I am burnt out and my body is just hurting. The left hip bursitis sucks. Finding comfortable ways to sit or stand or just exist is difficult.
Continue reading “Of Peculiar Noises and Pickup”
14,646 Days Alive
$10.00 Burger, Fries, and Pie Meal at Perkins
1 Cup Iced Vietnamese Coffee Enjoyed
I met a new friend today! Their name is Jazmine and they’re a local, queer writer. We met off BumbleBFF. I kind of refuse to just languish in an island of social isolation here.
Continue reading “Of Bursitis and Burgers”
14,645 Days Alive
7 Tacos Purchased for Dinner
12 Hours Until I Go to Meet a New Friend
2 Bookcases Purchased
I have both therapy (8a.m) and a new friend meetup at a local coffee shop (noon) tomorrow! I am very excited about the latter and cautiously optimistic about the former.
Continue reading “Of Taco Meat and Tomorrow Morning”
14,643 Days Alive
70+ Requests Scanned into the System Today
13 Spam Fries Eaten
2 Garlic Brick Grilled Cheese Sandwiches Eaten
When we went to Ehlenbach’s Cheese Chalet about a week and a half ago, we picked up a few cheeses, including this delicious garlic cheese. We had an interesting, low spoons dinner this evening.
Continue reading “Of Overwhelming Workload and Oven-Baked Fries”Was today typical?
Was today typical? Decidedly not.
Our main printer broke and our secondary one kept jamming. It was a rough two and a half to three hours of stress and hurry up just to wait some more. I usually love my desk, because it’s a standing desk that I have a tall chair for in case I need to sit. But today I was up and down trying to help them get either printer working before the repair technician showed up.
I was already struggling with my pain levels before I did the deck chair Hokey Pokey. Now, my pain levels are through the fucking roof. I threw up both breakfast and lunch today. I legitimately thought I was going to pass out at one point, because I had to take a bunch of deep breaths. I just sat the fuck down in the middle of the hallway near the bathrooms because I was just… out of it. My ears were ringing, my vision went spotty, and I thought I was going to throw up again. It wasn’t a headaches my butt would have gone to the ER. But it was like my usual full ache was dialed up to eleven.
Between this fibromyalgia flare up, the left hip bursitis, my white blood cell count being up to 10.4 K/ul (down from 12.67 in February where fuck if anyone knew why it was that high), my PCOS giving me double trouble for the last three months in a row, and my anemia kicking my ass it’s a wonder I can get out of bed.
I’m so tired of being in pain. I’m so weary. Hopefully my new treatment team will be of better help to me than my previous one.
Goodness knows I have a better, if still small, support system right now.
Take your meds, folks.
14,341 Days Alive
101.3%/ 100% in My Current College Course
Today was very much a rough day for me. Don’t quite know why, but I made it through the day and am doing okay.
Continue reading “Of Rough Days and Realizations”
14,340 Days Alive
89.67 % in My Grades So Far This Week
2.7 Lbs of Chuck Roast Turned into Stew Meat
I finished up this week’s homework today. I even did the extra credit for fun.
Continue reading “Of Beef Stew and Back Pain”
14,339 Days Alive
6 Oreos Eaten
1 Bowl of Tater To Nachos Eaten for Dinner
I hate not having bookshelves. Hate, hate, hate it. I’m still living out of boxes and bags and it is grating on my nerves.
I went to the doctor yesterday and got diagnosed with “pretty bad bursitis” of my left hip. Pain meds, ice, heat, and rest have all been recommended and done.
I just want to not hurt.
Lucian made totchos for dinner this evening. Tater tot nachos. They were ridiculously good.
I’m going to go pass out.
Take your meds, folks.
No spoons, only knives.
Not dead. Didn’t eat lunch.
Take your meds, folks!
14,337 Days Alive
26 Days Since the Move
1 Vexing Day
I taught Lucian how to use the Instant Pot this evening. They made an amazing coconut chicken and potato curry!
I have a doctor appointment in like, less than ten hours. Maybe it’ll be a good visit and some of my concerns will be addressed. Maybe the new doctor will be wonderful? Idk. I’m going to bed.
Take your meds, folks.
14,636 Days Alive
4 Hour System Outage at Work
Well. Today sucked. Stressful and overwhelming and just…. A bad day. I almost cried.
Continue reading “Of Embracing Weirdness and Embarrassment”
14,635 Days Alive
3 Days till my New Doctor Appointment
2 Caramel Squares Eaten
1 Pained Me
Edit: remember to hit post before falling asleep face-first in a book, Theo!
The barometric pressure right now is making my head hurt. And my left hip still hurts. And my lower back, but that could be uterus in rebellion related shit.
Continue reading “Of Pushing Through and Pressure”
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