Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
14,738 Days Alive
233 Hours Until Llama Arrives
60 Milligrams of Hydroxyzine Taken
Post-panic attack crash sucks.
Also, I fucking forgot to hit post on this and fell asleep with my phone in my hand. Said hand now hurts.
Take your meds, folks.
14,737 Days Alive
2 Trays of Potato Nachos Made for Dinner
1 Panic Attack
I am trying not to doom-spiral right now. I’m worried what the future will bring. I’m doing my best. I’m using the limited resources available to me. But gods is it hard.
Continue reading “Of Potatoes and Present”
14,736 Days Alive
I’m still not doing all right today. I did however make an absolutely delicious chicken Alfredo casserole with frozen ravioli. Ridiculously delicious.
I’m really struggling right now and I’m doing the best I can. All I can do is keep going. I really don’t know what else to do.
Happiest of birthdays to my darling, dear friend J. And happy Halloween to everyone else!
Take your meds, folks.
14,731 Days Alive
1 Week into the Actual Coding Class
So this week is Halloween week. That means on Friday it is Bill6 and J’s 10th wedding anniversary, it is also J’s birthday, and the witch’s new year.
Continue reading “Of Birthdays and Bilateral Bursitis”
14,724 Days Alive
2,512 Days Since My Dad Passed Away
9 Courses Until I Finish My Degree
7 Years Gone in December
Hey, friends. This ain’t a happy entry, for the most part. No offenses taken if you skip this one.
Continue reading “Of Bereavement and Breathing”
14,723 Days Alive
$485.54 Or More Needed ASAP to Pay Bills and Get My Account into the Positive
-$269.28 in the Bank.
10 Days to Pay My Car Insurance
1 Asthma Attack Last Night
Man. I need to find an anti-evil eye hanger or something for my bedroom. Or cast another spell on the full moon on the 5th of November. Something to get out of this death roll.
Continue reading “Of Invidia and Instrumental Music”
14,722 Days Alive
1 Idiot Nazi Argued With on Social Media
Some people‘s idiocy is frankly astounding these days. I like surfing those AITA on Facebook sometimes. Some Canadian former social worker woman was being ignorant. And I asked her why. And she did not like that. 
Continue reading “Of Overdrafts and Opinions”
14,717 Days Alive
16 Steps Down from the First Floor to the Ground Floor
2 Furniture Straps
We finally got the entertainment center into the apartment today! Out of my trunk and down the steps without injury. A lot of cursing and three stops to be able to breathe, but no injuries.
Continue reading “Of Furniture Straps and Fake Fireplaces”
14,716 Days Alive
27 Minute Work Call at 10:15 p.m
1 Accidental Couch Nap This Afternoon
I have a love of incense and scented candles. I don’t like the sprays, but I love essential oils. There’s particular scents that I have powerful, positive associations with and I blatantly abuse that fact when I’m having a bad brain day.
Continue reading “Of Smoke and Snoozing”
14,715 Days Alive
2.9 Hours Billed Today for Work
4 Homework Assignments Done
1 Extra Credit Assignment Done
Both Benny and Spock seem to be running around chasing shadows. Or a bug. Either way, they’re dashing about, each singing.
Continue reading “Of Filings and Feline Singing”
14,709 Days Alive
I got to drag Anish Kapoor for being a twat on my class Discussion Board post today. And thwacked my head pretty damn hard trying to reach one of Spock’s cat toys.
My head hurts and I have too much to do to stay up late. I’m going to try and read just a chapter and then head to bed.
Take your meds, folks!
14,703 Days Alive
71 Miles Driven Roundtrip for a Working, Cheap, Multimedia Player
10 mg of Cyclobenzaprine Taken Twice Today
1 Massive Mug of Zero Sugar Root Beer Enjoyed
All my bills are paid. I get paid again next Friday from the 1099 gig. And holy hell was yesterday difficult for me. But I survived.
Continue reading “Of Rent And Radios”
14,702 Days Alive
$23.21 Spent at the Thrift Store Outlet
2 Free Blankets Received
Well. Today was both awesome and absolutely awful. Awesome stuff first, then my bitching. Here we go!
Continue reading “Of Friendliness and Feelings”
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