Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
14,666 Days Alive
3 Egg Rolls Eaten
1 Still Yet to be Built Bedframe
I did not have a good day… week… month? August has been fucking rough. I’m just tired. And whomever lives above us is blasting their television. Ugh.
I am going to bed.
Take your meds, folks.
What motivates you?
I am near to almost completely certain that I answered this prompt last year.
What motivates me? Compassion, spite, and the desire to leave the world a better, kinder place in my wake.
What is a word you feel that too many people use?
In America, with it having been around since the initial signing of the Declaration of Independence on 2nd, July, 1776, the word “freedom” is thrown around a lot.
People think the freedom of speech should be freedom from consequences or that racism is a bygone issue when there are still sundown towns across the country.
I am as free as a canary in a coal mine, screaming a warning, unheeded, for the dangers to come.
All I can do is my best.
14,663 Days Alive
1 Rough Day
Today was a day from hell. Not my story to tell, but suffice it to say Excedrin, caffeine, and sheer adaptability in the face of stress served me well today.
Continue reading “Of Tired Hearts and Tuesdays”
14,662 Days Alive
$32.99 to Make my Artistic Dreams Come to Life
1 Ridiculous, Amazing Idea
I want to buy a bottle of Stuart Semple’s Black 2.0 paint. Why? So I can make ART.
Continue reading “Of Black Paint and Batty Bats”What positive emotion do you feel most often?
I actually felt the need to consult the Feelings Wheel my prior therapist sent me for this one. I wasn’t sure if curiosity was an option?
While i’m not sure if it’s because I am not by stretch of anyone’s imagination neurotypical, if it’s because I have too much emotional trauma from over the years, or I just keep failing to grasp the differences between the multitudes of emotional states a person can have, I struggle a lot with emotions. Particularly, with identifying what emotion I am feeling. I struggle with expressing and acknowledging negative emotions. for the most part.
However, if I had to pick a positive emotion that I feel the most often it would be curiosity. 
14,660 Days Alive
2 Chicago Style Hot Dogs Eaten
I am starting to try and get my room in order this weekend. I hope to build the bookcases and my altar tomorrow during daylight hours.
For now, it is time to sleep.
Take your meds, folks.
What is the most important thing to carry with you all the time?
Hope and a journal with a really nice pen.
14,658 Days Alive
2 Hours Spent Accidentally Napping
1 More Day Till Payday
I went home from work with a pretty bad headache today. I’m stressed because Nina is off tomorrow. My boss, Sarah, will be in-office.
Continue reading “Of Reconnecting and Rest”
14,657 Days Alive
2 Slices of Gino’s East Supreme Pizza Eaten for Dinner
1 Episode of Haunted Gingerbread Showdown Watched
Tonight was a low spoons night. We had pizza for dinner, watched an episode of the latest ridiculous seasonal baking show. And I did my initial Discussion Board posts for the week.
I am exhausted.
Take your meds, folks.
What brings you peace?
I often find myself trying to avoid the chaos inside my mind. For a mental illness that is supposed “all in my head” or some such utter nonsense that is meant to diminish what I deal with on a regular basis, it sure is pretty potent. In any case, I often have to find external focus points for my brain to reach even a modicum of quiet. Whether it’s dishes or cooking, crocheting or sweeping , or even just playing Tetris, I have to have something for my hands to do.
14,655 Days Alive
2,755 Posts So Far
2,513 Days Since My Bipolar Diagnosis
4 Books Picked Up at the Library
We were talking about needing a laugh so we were telling each other about our favorite Carol Burnett moments. Mine is the “famous” elephant show blooper.
Continue reading “Of Bloopers and Boxed Mac and Cheese”
Write about a random act of kindness you’ve done for someone.
I don’t quite know how to phrase this particular response without sounding self-aggrandizing or prideful.
I am kind because the world is not. I am patient with most people because others are not. I am helpful, compassionate, and empathetic because the world is filled with cruelty.
The only way to make it better is with little acts of kindness.
Postmark Wonderland 