What are your biggest challenges?
Sadly, most of my challenges are either financial or mental health related.
Author: Theodora Vanyar
Writer. Artist. Laughter addict. Queer, Jew-ish, witchy, anxiety riddled, dealing with #BipolarDisorder, and fat. Oxford Comma FOREVER! All else is icing.
Of Starlight and Stretching
14,800 Days Alive
2,236 Days Straight on Duolingo
It’s a super moon today, the first full moon of 2026. There is also some kind of meteor shower thing that I haven’t bothered to go outside and look at. I’m so, so tired of being in discomfort, and pain, and unable to focus. I am doing my best to keep going. I’m doing yoga as often as I am physically capable of doing so. Sleep is elusive due to pain and discomfort; I fell asleep after 4 AM this morning and I assume that Sunday will be more of the same.
Take your meds, folks
Of Trims and Tacos
14,799 Days Alive
I have not had the best start to the new year. We aren’t even three days into 2026 and I’m already feeling emotionally concussed, mentally exhausted, and physically over-wrung. The haircut I tried to get it was completely unsatisfactory. The drive home even worse. It’ll get better, right?
Take your meds, folks.
Prompt Answer: Positive Impact
What relationships have a positive impact on you?
The people that have had the most positive impact on my life have been my chosen family members. That also occasionally does include genetically related individuals that have not fallen far off the family tree. But mostly it is a chosen family village across the continental US and across a couple country borders.
Happy New Year 2026!!!
I am absolutely a pumpkin right now. I am going to sleep for at least five hours hopefully with no nightmares. Happy new year and sleep well.
Take your meds, folks
Prompt Answer: Creative
How are you creative?
I used to call myself a “self expressionist“. I’m pretty sure the only mediums I haven’t tried yet are just the ones that have been cost prohibitive. I write. I draw and paint and crochet and decorate and bake and cook. Tell really bad jokes. I am creative in every way that I can be.
Prompt Answer: Political Views
How have your political views changed over time?
I have always been against capitalism. I have always been an outspoken advocate for those who are transient or homeless.
I have only gotten louder, gayer, and fiercer in my belief that the world is not meant to be run by old white men alone. I mean, if you pick up any history book ever, that is why.
Of Hip Pain and Hydroxyzine
14,794 Days Alive
2,230 Days Straight on Duolingo
5 Shelves on the Bookshelf I Built This Evening
3 Ibuprofen Taken
Welp, I had a full on panic attack today. Pretty much disassembled my room onto my bed trying to find the old smart watch that DW gave me back in 2020.
Continue reading “Of Hip Pain and Hydroxyzine”Of Clean Up and Construction
14,793 Days Alive
3 Packs of Coca Cola Purchased for the House
3 Pound Bag of Yellow Onions Bought for $1.89
1 Trip to Goodwill with Lucian This Afternoon
Well, I found one more book for my bookshelf when Lucian and I went to Goodwill this afternoon.
Continue reading “Of Clean Up and Construction”Prompt Answer: Biggest Influences
Who are the biggest influences in your life?
Bea Arthur for her moxie, intelligence, Marine Corps Women’s Reserve service, and just general amazing heart.
Robin Williams for all that he did for his family fellow man while battling his own demons.
Lucille Ball for her being clever, kind, hilarious, and more than just a little bit weird.
Leonard Nimoy, for being an amazing artist, actor, and poet. Also, to be the second guy that I ever thought looked good in blue eyeshadow.
I’m sure there are more, especially if you count fictional people.
Of Stockings and Spazzing Out
14,791 Days Alive
3 Chocolate Mint Candy Canes Taken from the Box
Another quick entry here. I don’t know what is going on with my account. I just had to reset the password for the third time in two days. Someone seems to be trying to get in, but thankfully they have not yet.
Christmas Eve and morning was awesome except for the slightly stale donuts I picked up at the grocery store yesterday. We did not get to Chinese food today because I had a panic attack and then a post-panic attack headache that nearly incapacitated me for the rest of the evening. I don’t even think I had dinner.
I’m going to go to bed. I will share pictures of our wonderful stockings and such later this week.
Take your meds, folks.
Of Cheer and Chinese Food
14,790 Days Alive
OK, this is gonna be a quick one because I’m running on a whole three hours of sleep today and for, I think the first time in at least five years if not longer, I have to go shopping on Christmas Eve. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it so much. But, again: most of my gifts this year to my household are edible and perishable.
We are going to try to watch Indiana Jones movies and have Chinese food for Christmas. Homemade Chinese food, cause we are broke as hell and trying to be responsible adults.
Also, tonight’s photo/GIF is not my old man, Mr. Spock, being a personal terror to a Christmas tree. It is just a random GIF that I found on GIPHY for this purpose. And that purpose is humor
Merry Christmas Eve! And take your meds, folks.
Of Deep Breaths and Double Hot Cocoa
14,789 Days Alive
2 Packets of Hot Cocoa Powder Accidentally Added to My Cup
My new job does the full-timers well around the holidays. And Rose, rockstar that she is, set up a hot cocoa bar in the break room! Super cool. Of course, I got distracted listening to someone talk about books and accidentally added two packets of hot cocoa to one cup. A delicious mistake, but I kinda felt bad.
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