Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
13,226 Days Alive
I’m having a wretched brain day. Like, absolutely awful. I’ve tried locking the brain gremlins in the oubliette, but they pulled a Nothing, from Neverending Story and basically sucked all the color from my mental landscape.
Continue reading “Of Gremlins and Goals”
13,184 Days Alive
701 Days Straight on Duolingo
2 Doctor Appointments
I carry a lot of tension in my back. Specifically my shoulders and neck. I guess a lot of people do. I was told by two separate people, both therapists in their own way, to unclench and do some stretches.
Continue reading “Of Talk and Tension”
14,041 Days Alive
6 Days Till 1,000 Days Straight on PostmarkWonderland
I saw Reffie today! Even with a literal therapy session cutting into our time together, I had an awesome day.
Continue reading “Of Winders and Windows”
14,013 Days Alive
60 Minutes of Therapy
2 Homework Assignments
1 New Book to Read
I had therapy today and man was it hard. I keep getting triggered by a specific stressor and I don’t know how to go about removing it form my peripherals. It’s an exceedingly complicated situation.
I also need to work on my anger.
Continue reading “Of Anger and Actualization”
13,073 Days Alive
I didn’t get a single thing done today at work that I wanted to. I’m phenomenally frustrated.
Continue reading “Of Plum and Progress (Or lack there of)”
13,042 Days Alive
3 Butter Tarts Eaten
1 Old Favorite Shared with Fen
Somehow, despite knowing me for almost a decade, Fen had never seen the movie Practical Magic. Until tonight! We watched it and they really enjoyed it.
Continue reading “Of Practical Magic and Picnic Tables”
13,038 Days Alive
560 Day Streak on Duolingo
I’d metaphorically kill for a good Granny Smith Apple and some caramel or peanut butter. Or some grapes and cheese. Just… charcuterie fixing in general seem to be the craving. That and murder shows.
Continue reading “Of Manzanas and Murder”
13,008 Days Alive
2 Therapy Homework Assignments
I had therapy with Mx S. today. It went well enough; I told them about the massive panic attack on Thursday and we discussed it at great length.
Continue reading “Of Emotions and Early Mornings”
12,979 Days Alive
1,000 Posts on PostmarkWonderland!!!
501 Day Streak on Duolingo
25th Birthday of Phoenix, my Little Brother
23% Done with The Mermaid’s Daughter by Ann Claycomb
2 Rounds of Quirky Circuits Played
1 Positive Outlook for Work Tomorrow
I’m damned determined for this week to be better than last. So shall it be. It’s going to be an awesome week and I’m going to rock it out.
Continue reading “Of Biff and (More) Board Games”
12,976 Days Alive
2 Pieces of Naan Eaten
1 Massive Crying Jag
I sat in my car and cried when I got home from work today. I’m so afraid of losing my job. I’m so frustrated that it seems like I’m not getting a second stimulus payment. I’m so tired of being tired again.
Continue reading “Of Fury and Fear”12,948 Days Alive
9 Days of Writing
I feel run over today. It’s just low energy because of my cycle I’m sure, but every little thing seemed an uncontrollable situation.
Continue reading “Of Hook and Health”
33,420 Words on My NaNovel So Far
12,938 Days Alive
459 Day Streak on Duolingo
I didn’t get the ten thousand words written that I wanted to today. I got lost down a rabbit hole of research. It is highly unlikely I will hit 50,000 words this month. I could cheat, and just say that I did it, but I’m not going to.
Continue reading “Of Research and Reading”
31,000 Words on My NaNovel
12,937 Days Alive
12 Mini Pierogies
3 Loads of Laundry Done
I’m sleep deprived. And took my sleeping medication that didn’t work last night. So I’m fighting to stay awake long enough to knock this out.
I’m still behind in NaNoWriMo, but I haven’t given up yet. I’ve got my therapy appointment with Mx. Steph tomorrow at eleven, so I’m going to spend most of my day writing if I can.
I’m goi to go appease the Duolingo owl and go to bed.
Take your meds folks.
