14,662 Days Alive
$32.99 to Make my Artistic Dreams Come to Life
1 Ridiculous, Amazing Idea
I want to buy a bottle of Stuart Semple’s Black 2.0 paint. Why? So I can make ART.
Continue reading “Of Black Paint and Batty Bats”
14,662 Days Alive
$32.99 to Make my Artistic Dreams Come to Life
1 Ridiculous, Amazing Idea
I want to buy a bottle of Stuart Semple’s Black 2.0 paint. Why? So I can make ART.
Continue reading “Of Black Paint and Batty Bats”What positive emotion do you feel most often?
I actually felt the need to consult the Feelings Wheel my prior therapist sent me for this one. I wasn’t sure if curiosity was an option?
While i’m not sure if it’s because I am not by stretch of anyone’s imagination neurotypical, if it’s because I have too much emotional trauma from over the years, or I just keep failing to grasp the differences between the multitudes of emotional states a person can have, I struggle a lot with emotions. Particularly, with identifying what emotion I am feeling. I struggle with expressing and acknowledging negative emotions. for the most part.
However, if I had to pick a positive emotion that I feel the most often it would be curiosity. 
14,660 Days Alive
2 Chicago Style Hot Dogs Eaten
I am starting to try and get my room in order this weekend. I hope to build the bookcases and my altar tomorrow during daylight hours.
For now, it is time to sleep.
Take your meds, folks.
14,658 Days Alive
2 Hours Spent Accidentally Napping
1 More Day Till Payday
I went home from work with a pretty bad headache today. I’m stressed because Nina is off tomorrow. My boss, Sarah, will be in-office.
Continue reading “Of Reconnecting and Rest”14,657 Days Alive
2 Slices of Gino’s East Supreme Pizza Eaten for Dinner
1 Episode of Haunted Gingerbread Showdown Watched
Tonight was a low spoons night. We had pizza for dinner, watched an episode of the latest ridiculous seasonal baking show. And I did my initial Discussion Board posts for the week.
I am exhausted.
Take your meds, folks.
14,655 Days Alive
2,755 Posts So Far
2,513 Days Since My Bipolar Diagnosis
4 Books Picked Up at the Library
We were talking about needing a laugh so we were telling each other about our favorite Carol Burnett moments. Mine is the “famous” elephant show blooper.
Continue reading “Of Bloopers and Boxed Mac and Cheese”14,653 Days Alive
2 Turkey Taco Rice Bowls Eaten for Dinner
1 Zero Sugar Cream Soda Enjoyed
Man, I could not get my brain to focus today. At all. Just.. shot.
I’m just going to go to bed. Try again tomorrow.
Take your meds, folks.
14,652 Days Alive
2.5 Pork Egg Rolls Eaten
1 Not-So-Fun Fact Learned Today
I want one of the blue raspberry ice cups we have in the freezer. But it’s not a good choice with it being minutes to midnight right now. So I shall refrain this time.
Continue reading “Of Italian Ice and Idiocy”Describe your life in an alternate universe.
In an alternate universe, I am gone.
I am naught but a bit of leftover ash and bone in a pretty little jar on a mantle of a strange kitchen fireplace in Altamonte Springs, Florida.
What once was my body rattles on the mantle as my nieces thunder by on the tile floors. As children are wont to do, those delightful little girls, right now just five and six years old, run like a heard of elephants through the house. As often as they can, they are shrieking in glee and doing most things at maximum volume.
Since human cremains are so high in salt, phosphate, and calcium, while also having a high pH, maybe I’ve been diluted and mixed into the enriched soil beneath the blueberry bushes I convinced my brother to purchase that one trip to Home Depot we took years ago.
In any case, I have shuffled off this mortal coil in this other world. Maybe I have been reborn as a chubby and beloved kitten or a feisty little foal with mischief in my heart. I am gone, but not forgotten. Dead, but not lost to memory, yet.
In another universe, I am but ash in a jar on the mantle of a fireplace.
14,650 Days Alive
533 Words Written for This Week’s Discussion Board Post
2 Slices of Pizza for Dinner
1 Ridiculous and Amazing Goodwill Purchase
Well. Today was an absolute shitshow. Just… didn’t sleep well, forgot to post last night’s blog entry before passing out reading, really rough day at work…
Continue reading “Of Opinions and Options”14,649 Days Alive
3 Wendy’s Sandwiches Picked Up for Dinner
2 New Supplements I’m Supposed to Start Taking
1 Unhappy Hip
I had my bloodwork follow up with my primary care physician today. The basic breakdown is that, to no one’s shock at all, I am still iron-deficient anemic. Also, my Vitamin D is super low. Not like, rickets low, but pretty damn bad.
Continue reading “Of Doctor’s Appointments and Drive Through Dinners”14,648 Days Alive
4 More Days till the Weekend
Edit: Son of a bitch. I fell asleep again.
I have not had a good day. Tonight is a Taco Bell for dinner kind of night. And a hot shower with a candle going.
Take your meds, folks.
14,647 Days Alive
4th Week of Class in the Books
1 Grocery Order Picked Up from the Store
Today was a hard day, both physically and mentally. I am burnt out and my body is just hurting. The left hip bursitis sucks. Finding comfortable ways to sit or stand or just exist is difficult.
Continue reading “Of Peculiar Noises and Pickup”