Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
14,676 Days Alive
13 Skeins of Yarn Pulled from the Stash
I am not as tired as I could be. With it being Labor Day, In had today off! That was nice, as I was up past three a.m. cleaning, sorting, purging, and organizing my belongings.
Continue reading “Of Rugs and Rest”
14,675 Days Alive
3 Art Pieces Hung
2 Curtain Rods Installed
Spock has been a sleepy boy all day. Lucky him!
Continue reading “Of Nesting and Naps”
14,674 Days Alive
2,127 Days Straight on Duolingo
I went to bed after two am this morning. I woke up at 0629 on the nose. No reason at all. Could not go back to sleep no matter what I tried.
Continue reading “Of Macaroni and Manic?”
14,673 Days Alive
4 Movies “By Association”
1 Wendy’s Junior Cheeseburger Eaten as Part of Dinner
Okay, so, this might seem a little random but I really miss Robin Williams’ movies. I could rattle off more than a few of his movies off the top of my head. I could associate at least one role with a particular emotion, even. But holy fuck do I hate having depression in common with him.
Continue reading “Of Batty and Burgers”
14,672 Days Alive
435 of 435 Pages To Go In The Awakening
5 Rows into the C2C Baby Blanket I’m Currently Making
I am so ready for this upcoming three day weekend. The Full Moon isn’t until September 7th, but I am hoping that I am able to manifest a great deal of positive change before then.
Continue reading “Of Aches and Awakening”
14,671 Days Alive
2 Discussion Board Posts Done
1 Accidentally Long Nap
I still feel like absolute crap. My bones ache, my nose won’t stop running, my throat feels raw, and I am exhausted with every little movement.
Continue reading “Of Denials and Discussion Board Posts”
14,669 Days Alive
2,122 Days Straight on Duolingo
2 Small Bookshelves Assembled Today
1 Small Art Project Done
I did not one, not two, not even just three, but four things today after work! I left work early for a pre-planned appointment and got home maybe 45 minutes earlier than I usually do.
Continue reading “Of Bat Mirrors and Bookshelves”
14,668 Days Alive
2,121 Days Straight on Duolingo
Lucian and I spent a good two and a half hours this evening going through the massive amount of acrylic yarn that I have acquired over the years. I’m talking stuff from before my marriage to Stephanie in 2017.
Continue reading “Of Altars and A Lot of Yarn”
14,666 Days Alive
3 Egg Rolls Eaten
1 Still Yet to be Built Bedframe
I did not have a good day… week… month? August has been fucking rough. I’m just tired. And whomever lives above us is blasting their television. Ugh.
I am going to bed.
Take your meds, folks.
14,663 Days Alive
1 Rough Day
Today was a day from hell. Not my story to tell, but suffice it to say Excedrin, caffeine, and sheer adaptability in the face of stress served me well today.
Continue reading “Of Tired Hearts and Tuesdays”
14,662 Days Alive
$32.99 to Make my Artistic Dreams Come to Life
1 Ridiculous, Amazing Idea
I want to buy a bottle of Stuart Semple’s Black 2.0 paint. Why? So I can make ART.
Continue reading “Of Black Paint and Batty Bats”What positive emotion do you feel most often?
I actually felt the need to consult the Feelings Wheel my prior therapist sent me for this one. I wasn’t sure if curiosity was an option?
While i’m not sure if it’s because I am not by stretch of anyone’s imagination neurotypical, if it’s because I have too much emotional trauma from over the years, or I just keep failing to grasp the differences between the multitudes of emotional states a person can have, I struggle a lot with emotions. Particularly, with identifying what emotion I am feeling. I struggle with expressing and acknowledging negative emotions. for the most part.
However, if I had to pick a positive emotion that I feel the most often it would be curiosity. 
14,660 Days Alive
2 Chicago Style Hot Dogs Eaten
I am starting to try and get my room in order this weekend. I hope to build the bookcases and my altar tomorrow during daylight hours.
For now, it is time to sleep.
Take your meds, folks.
