Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
14,560 Days Alive
9,210 Ebooks Downloaded or Checked Out From the Library
484 Faxes Forwarded To Our Logger At Work
51 Days Till My 40th Birthday
2 Books I Am Waffling Between Reading
I got some homework done this evening, but not as much as I hoped to. I was in a whole lot of pain for some reason. Just general back ache and stomach pain. And then reality, realization, and annoyance set in.
Continue reading “Of Practical Magic and Pickles”
14,558 Days Alive
93.6% In My Claims Cycles Class
3 Days Till Payday
2 Bowls of Turkey Chili Eaten
–$26.11 in the Bank Till Friday
Well, fuck. I don’t often overdraft myself. But apparently. I have to rock being in the red until Friday because something pulled out when it shouldn’t have.
Continue reading “Of Damnit All and Disappointment”
14,557 Days Alive
44 Requests Processed at Work
10 Hot Buffalo Boneless Wings Eaten for Dinner
1 Stop at the Dollar General for Groceries
I have a thing for fizzy beverages. I don’t quite know why. I just like the bubbles, I guess? Anyway, I went grocery shopping today, at the Dollar General. A single, 20 ounce bottle of pop was $2.50! Ridiculous.
Continue reading “Of Wings and Water”
14,556 Days Alive
2,013 Days Straight on Duolingo
So. I did a dumb thing and I did not complete about the last third of my homework until about an hour ago. Zero out of ten: do NOT recommend.
Continue reading “Of Wrapping Paper and Winging It”
14,555 Days Alive
2,012 Days Straight on Duolingo
5.5 Lectures to Finish Before Midnight Tomorrow
1 New Study-Scented Candle Needed
The photo tonight is my desk setup for studying. Not the full thing, as I’d practically need to take a panoramic for the full L-shaped desk to be revealed.
Continue reading “Of Lingering Pain and Light Sources”
14,553 Days Alive
15 Years of Spock Being Alive
1 More Day Until My Iron Infusion Appointment
I’m super fucking out of spoons, so this will be brief.
Continue reading “Of Beltane 2025 and Birthday Brats”
14,551 Days Alive
2,008 Days Straight on Duolingo
10 Chicken Nuggets Eaten for Dinner
8 New Plates/Bowls/Cup Bought From WalMart
2 Sinks Cleaned Out and Sanitized
Ooof. I am so fucking tired of this headache. C’mon Friday! Get here fast! I need iron!
Continue reading “Of Doing Dishes and Depression”
14,550 Days Alive
2,007 Days Straight on Duolingo
24th Day of My Headache
3 Days Till Spock’s 15th Birthday/Beltane
2 New Classes Started
1 Episode of Ghost Hunters Watched with Mac
Well. I tried to go to the ER after work. Four hours in, I left without ever even being triaged. I’m going to try a different ER tomorrow, if I still have this damn headache. I didn’t even check out AMA, because they never even checked me out. Ugh. Goddamnit.
Continue reading “Of Ghost Hunters and Goddammit”
14,549 Days Alive
$36.85 Spent on Med Refills Today
23rd Day of This Stupid Headache
5 Days Until My Iron Infusion Appointment
2 Dishes of Ice Cream Bought at Dari Fair
1 Call for Local Friends on the Local Subreddit Posted Today
Well. I managed to finish my first class today. Submitted all my assignments, assessments, and listened to all the lectures. I should get a solid “A” in this first class. I had a 102% at the start of the week and did pretty well on the testing parts. So I should be fine.
Continue reading “Of Trepidation and Tiredness”
14,547 Days Alive
44 Requests Completed at Work Today
2 Missed Phone Calls from Friends
I am so glad it’s the weekend. And that it’s payday. Holy shit was this week rough for me. Just… utterly dismal.
Continue reading “Of Dishes and Dairy Queen Blizzards”
14,546 Days Alive
6,876 Days Since I Stopped Drinking Alcohol
64 Minutes Spent Texting 988 Today
20 Days of this Fucking Headache
7 Days Till Spock’s 15th Birthday
1 Hour Till Payday
I’m still here. I’m suicidal but safe. No plan. Not enough energy to do anything anyway. Did therapy today. Lots of Big Emotions. But I’m still here.
Continue reading “Of Therapy and Tolerance”
14,542 Days Alive
5th and Final Week of My First Class
2 Shredded Chicken Chimichangas Eaten
1 Chapter on Grief in the Healthcare Environment Read for Class
I slept through lunch today. I was so tired. I still am. But I got my reading done for the week for class. This week is about grief in the healthcare environment.
Continue reading “Of Squishes and Sandwiches”
14,541 Days Alive
Nat 19 Rolled in Pathfinder
13 Bites of Ben & Jerry’s Half Baked Ice Cream
3.5 Hours Overtime Worked Today
3 Buffalo-Sauce Dipped Chicken Tenders from Rally’s
47 Minute Nap
1 Discussion Board Post Made Today
I am utterly exhausted. I woke up at quarter to seven this morning…. Which absolutely sucks bawls because I didn’t fall asleep until well after four am this morning. Ugh.
Continue reading “Of Buffalo Sauce and Ben & Jerry’s”
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