What motivates you?
I am near to almost completely certain that I answered this prompt last year.
What motivates me? Compassion, spite, and the desire to leave the world a better, kinder place in my wake.
Category: Writing
Prompt Answer: A Word Overused
What is a word you feel that too many people use?
In America, with it having been around since the initial signing of the Declaration of Independence on 2nd, July, 1776, the word “freedom” is thrown around a lot.
People think the freedom of speech should be freedom from consequences or that racism is a bygone issue when there are still sundown towns across the country.
I am as free as a canary in a coal mine, screaming a warning, unheeded, for the dangers to come.
All I can do is my best.
Prompt Answer: Positive Emotion
What positive emotion do you feel most often?
I actually felt the need to consult the Feelings Wheel my prior therapist sent me for this one. I wasn’t sure if curiosity was an option?
While i’m not sure if it’s because I am not by stretch of anyone’s imagination neurotypical, if it’s because I have too much emotional trauma from over the years, or I just keep failing to grasp the differences between the multitudes of emotional states a person can have, I struggle a lot with emotions. Particularly, with identifying what emotion I am feeling. I struggle with expressing and acknowledging negative emotions. for the most part.
However, if I had to pick a positive emotion that I feel the most often it would be curiosity. 
Prompt Answer: Carry With Me
What is the most important thing to carry with you all the time?
Hope and a journal with a really nice pen.
Prompt Answer: Bringing Peace
What brings you peace?
I often find myself trying to avoid the chaos inside my mind. For a mental illness that is supposed “all in my head” or some such utter nonsense that is meant to diminish what I deal with on a regular basis, it sure is pretty potent. In any case, I often have to find external focus points for my brain to reach even a modicum of quiet. Whether it’s dishes or cooking, crocheting or sweeping , or even just playing Tetris, I have to have something for my hands to do.
Of Bloopers and Boxed Mac and Cheese
14,655 Days Alive
2,755 Posts So Far
2,513 Days Since My Bipolar Diagnosis
4 Books Picked Up at the Library
We were talking about needing a laugh so we were telling each other about our favorite Carol Burnett moments. Mine is the “famous” elephant show blooper.
Continue reading “Of Bloopers and Boxed Mac and Cheese”Prompt Answer: Random Act of Kindness
Write about a random act of kindness you’ve done for someone.
I don’t quite know how to phrase this particular response without sounding self-aggrandizing or prideful.
I am kind because the world is not. I am patient with most people because others are not. I am helpful, compassionate, and empathetic because the world is filled with cruelty.
The only way to make it better is with little acts of kindness.
Of Scatterbrained and Shredded Cheese
14,653 Days Alive
2 Turkey Taco Rice Bowls Eaten for Dinner
1 Zero Sugar Cream Soda Enjoyed
Man, I could not get my brain to focus today. At all. Just.. shot.
I’m just going to go to bed. Try again tomorrow.
Take your meds, folks.
Of Italian Ice and Idiocy
14,652 Days Alive
2.5 Pork Egg Rolls Eaten
1 Not-So-Fun Fact Learned Today
I want one of the blue raspberry ice cups we have in the freezer. But it’s not a good choice with it being minutes to midnight right now. So I shall refrain this time.
Continue reading “Of Italian Ice and Idiocy”Prompt Answer: An AU of My Life
Describe your life in an alternate universe.
In an alternate universe, I am gone.
I am naught but a bit of leftover ash and bone in a pretty little jar on a mantle of a strange kitchen fireplace in Altamonte Springs, Florida.
What once was my body rattles on the mantle as my nieces thunder by on the tile floors. As children are wont to do, those delightful little girls, right now just five and six years old, run like a heard of elephants through the house. As often as they can, they are shrieking in glee and doing most things at maximum volume.
Since human cremains are so high in salt, phosphate, and calcium, while also having a high pH, maybe I’ve been diluted and mixed into the enriched soil beneath the blueberry bushes I convinced my brother to purchase that one trip to Home Depot we took years ago.
In any case, I have shuffled off this mortal coil in this other world. Maybe I have been reborn as a chubby and beloved kitten or a feisty little foal with mischief in my heart. I am gone, but not forgotten. Dead, but not lost to memory, yet.
In another universe, I am but ash in a jar on the mantle of a fireplace.
Of Doctor’s Appointments and Drive Through Dinners
14,649 Days Alive
3 Wendy’s Sandwiches Picked Up for Dinner
2 New Supplements I’m Supposed to Start Taking
1 Unhappy Hip
I had my bloodwork follow up with my primary care physician today. The basic breakdown is that, to no one’s shock at all, I am still iron-deficient anemic. Also, my Vitamin D is super low. Not like, rickets low, but pretty damn bad.
Continue reading “Of Doctor’s Appointments and Drive Through Dinners”Of Bursitis and Burgers
14,646 Days Alive
$10.00 Burger, Fries, and Pie Meal at Perkins
1 Cup Iced Vietnamese Coffee Enjoyed
I met a new friend today! Their name is Jazmine and they’re a local, queer writer. We met off BumbleBFF. I kind of refuse to just languish in an island of social isolation here.
Continue reading “Of Bursitis and Burgers”Prompt Answer: Future Travel Plans
What are your future travel plans?
Well, they have changed since last I answered this question. Now that I’m living in Wisconsin, travelling to Illinois to see the mess of siblings and other assorted, vaguely related people that I hold dear is in the list.
Mitsuwa Market in Arlington Heights, Illinois and Chicago’s Chinatown are also on the travel list.
I’d love to finally be able to coordinate that trip with Reffie, maybe eventually visit Uncle Gator and family after they get settled in their new place. Oh! And go to Salem, Massachusetts! Not during October, because fuck that many people around. But maybe late fall/early spring?
I’d love to go to the ridiculous and apparently delicious all-you-can-eat themed dinner theater thing called Sneaky Pete’s Wild West Dinner Show. It has been added to the household bucket list.
I also would love to get out of the USA at some point soon. Probably not to leave-leave? Hit definitely get somewhere a little less hellscape.
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