14,553 Days Alive
15 Years of Spock Being Alive
1 More Day Until My Iron Infusion Appointment
I’m super fucking out of spoons, so this will be brief.
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Category: After Work
Of Tuna and Tired
14,552 Days Alive
Spock turns fifteen tomorrow. He has a special can of wet food for his birthday dinner.
Did homework. Ate dinner. Now I’m going to read more of Gone Girl even though I’m not enjoying it thus far to see if I can get into it.
Take your meds, folks.
Of Doing Dishes and Depression
14,551 Days Alive
2,008 Days Straight on Duolingo
10 Chicken Nuggets Eaten for Dinner
8 New Plates/Bowls/Cup Bought From WalMart
2 Sinks Cleaned Out and Sanitized
Ooof. I am so fucking tired of this headache. C’mon Friday! Get here fast! I need iron!
Continue reading “Of Doing Dishes and Depression”Of Ghost Hunters and Goddammit
14,550 Days Alive
2,007 Days Straight on Duolingo
24th Day of My Headache
3 Days Till Spock’s 15th Birthday/Beltane
2 New Classes Started
1 Episode of Ghost Hunters Watched with Mac
Well. I tried to go to the ER after work. Four hours in, I left without ever even being triaged. I’m going to try a different ER tomorrow, if I still have this damn headache. I didn’t even check out AMA, because they never even checked me out. Ugh. Goddamnit.
Continue reading “Of Ghost Hunters and Goddammit”Of Dishes and Dairy Queen Blizzards
14,547 Days Alive
44 Requests Completed at Work Today
2 Missed Phone Calls from Friends
I am so glad it’s the weekend. And that it’s payday. Holy shit was this week rough for me. Just… utterly dismal.
Continue reading “Of Dishes and Dairy Queen Blizzards”Of Therapy and Tolerance
14,546 Days Alive
6,876 Days Since I Stopped Drinking Alcohol
64 Minutes Spent Texting 988 Today
20 Days of this Fucking Headache
7 Days Till Spock’s 15th Birthday
1 Hour Till Payday
I’m still here. I’m suicidal but safe. No plan. Not enough energy to do anything anyway. Did therapy today. Lots of Big Emotions. But I’m still here.
Continue reading “Of Therapy and Tolerance”Of Anniversaries and Anxiety Cleaning
14,545 Days Alive
19th Day of this Gorram Headache
5 Years Divorced as of Today
2 Hours of Sleep
1 Therapy Session Tomorrow
I was officially divorced from my ex-wife five years ago today.
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14,544 Days Alive
60+ Faxes Handled Today
30 Minutes Late to Work
18 Days of my Headache
10 Boneless Wings Eaten
My coworker was out sick today. Not usually a problem, but I didn’t fall asleep till after three am. Again. And then I overslept by almost an hour. So I was late to work.
Continue reading “Of Sleeping In and Sick Days”Of Duolingo and Disappointment
14,543 Days Alive
2,000 Days Straight on Duolingo
1 Milky Way Bar Ordered Through DoorDash by Mac
I don’t like Snickers bars. Why does this matter? Rather than the single Milky Way bar I asked for when Mac was offering to order desert, I got two , king-sized Snickers bars. Sad day. they hurt my teeth, or at least the peanuts do.
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14,541 Days Alive
Nat 19 Rolled in Pathfinder
13 Bites of Ben & Jerry’s Half Baked Ice Cream
3.5 Hours Overtime Worked Today
3 Buffalo-Sauce Dipped Chicken Tenders from Rally’s
47 Minute Nap
1 Discussion Board Post Made Today
I am utterly exhausted. I woke up at quarter to seven this morning…. Which absolutely sucks bawls because I didn’t fall asleep until well after four am this morning. Ugh.
Continue reading “Of Buffalo Sauce and Ben & Jerry’s”Of Overtime and Oscillating Fans
14,540 Days Alive
1,998 Days Straight on Duolingo
4 Hours of Overtime Planned Tomorrow
It got up to nearly 75 degrees today. Had to turn on the AC and the oscillating fan in the bedroom.
Continue reading “Of Overtime and Oscillating Fans”Of Cat Hair and Crying
14,537 Days Alive
3 of 6 Lectures Watched
1 Crying Jag
Spock kept sitting on my desk and notebook while I was trying to study this evening. And because I’m a six on the pain scale and an eight on the discomfort scale, my focus was shot today.
Continue reading “Of Cat Hair and Crying”Of Pork Chops and Panic Attacks
14,536 Days Alive
11 Days into this Stupid Headache
6 Boneless Pork Chops Made for Dinner
I’m so fucking tired. I am running on fumes mentally. I know it’ll be okay, I guess, but I’m just tired of being tired. Of the anemia. Of the headache.
Edit: posts work better when you remember to post them.
Take your meds, folks
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