Tag: Anxiety

Of Starlight and Stretching

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14,800 Days Alive

2,236 Days Straight on Duolingo

It’s a super moon today, the first full moon of 2026. There is also some kind of meteor shower thing that I haven’t bothered to go outside and look at. I’m so, so tired of being in discomfort, and pain, and unable to focus. I am doing my best to keep going. I’m doing yoga as often as I am physically capable of doing so. Sleep is elusive due to pain and discomfort; I fell asleep after 4 AM this morning and I assume that Sunday will be more of the same.

Take your meds, folks

Of Cheer and Chinese Food

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14,790 Days Alive

OK, this is gonna be a quick one because I’m running on a whole three hours of sleep today and for, I think the first time in at least five years if not longer, I have to go shopping on Christmas Eve. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it so much. But, again: most of my gifts this year to my household are edible and perishable.

We are going to try to watch Indiana Jones movies and have Chinese food for Christmas. Homemade Chinese food, cause we are broke as hell and trying to be responsible adults.

Also, tonight’s photo/GIF is not my old man, Mr. Spock, being a personal terror to a Christmas tree. It is just a random GIF that I found on GIPHY for this purpose. And that purpose is humor

Merry Christmas Eve! And take your meds, folks.

Of Deep Breaths and Double Hot Cocoa

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14,789 Days Alive

2 Packets of Hot Cocoa Powder Accidentally Added to My Cup

My new job does the full-timers well around the holidays. And Rose, rockstar that she is, set up a hot cocoa bar in the break room! Super cool. Of course, I got distracted listening to someone talk about books and accidentally added two packets of hot cocoa to one cup. A delicious mistake, but I kinda felt bad.

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Of Cotija Cheese and Chuckles

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14,788 Days Alive

2,222 Days Straight on Duolingo

2 Massive Trays of Chicken Nachos Made for Dinner

Well, I finished today kind of late, but at least I finished. I am still struggling emotionally with the holidays and everything else going on right now. And that stuff going on in my life, the lives of my loved ones, and the general world on fire thing we’re all dealing with right now.

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Of Cookies and Caution

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14,784 Days Alive

33 Peanut Butter Chocolate Chip Cookies Baked Tonight

0 Spoons Left

If I get to sleep before two am, it will be a miracle. I’ve made cookies for the company potluck tomorrow. I’ve tried to go to bed early. It is just after eleven and I have been flipping over like an annoyed rotisserie chicken.

I’m just going to take an anti-anxiety med.

Take your meds, folks.

Of Brothers and Birthdays

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14,782 Days Alive

30+ Random Ideas for Hypothetical Intentional Extinction of Select Individuals While At Dinner

3 New Family Members to Hug

1 Singing Voicemail Left for Grandma Gator

Son of a freakin’,three-headed progeny of a seven-legged Plutonian politician!!! I fell asleep. Again. I’ve been trying to go to bed early, but it hasn’t been working well, and then I get side tracked to the eighth power of AuDHD and whoops, there’s another gorram blog post sitting, confused, in my Drafts Box.

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Of Tearing Up and Time Consumption

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14,771 Days Alive

400+ Ebooks Removed from My Kindle Collection

211 Approximate Hours Until the Start of Hanukkah 2025

50+ Pages of Notes Taken in Today’s Training Sessions

It was my third day at my new in-office job today. Everyone is still super awesome. They are also super loud, but when I am training, I can shut the door so I can actually hear the videos I’m supposed to watch.

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