14,553 Days Alive
15 Years of Spock Being Alive
1 More Day Until My Iron Infusion Appointment
I’m super fucking out of spoons, so this will be brief.
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Of Doing Dishes and Depression
14,551 Days Alive
2,008 Days Straight on Duolingo
10 Chicken Nuggets Eaten for Dinner
8 New Plates/Bowls/Cup Bought From WalMart
2 Sinks Cleaned Out and Sanitized
Ooof. I am so fucking tired of this headache. C’mon Friday! Get here fast! I need iron!
Continue reading “Of Doing Dishes and Depression”Of Ghost Hunters and Goddammit
14,550 Days Alive
2,007 Days Straight on Duolingo
24th Day of My Headache
3 Days Till Spock’s 15th Birthday/Beltane
2 New Classes Started
1 Episode of Ghost Hunters Watched with Mac
Well. I tried to go to the ER after work. Four hours in, I left without ever even being triaged. I’m going to try a different ER tomorrow, if I still have this damn headache. I didn’t even check out AMA, because they never even checked me out. Ugh. Goddamnit.
Continue reading “Of Ghost Hunters and Goddammit”Of Nat 20s and Nachos
14,548 Days Alive
22nd Day of This Stupid Freaking Headache
5 Weeks Done of Introduction to Healthcare Communication
6 White Chocolate Macadamia Nut Cookies Received from Doordash
1 Nat 20 Rolled on a Check During Pathfinder
Today is my fifth and final week of my first college class. I have two new classes: Student Success as well as Healthcare Settings, Claim Cycles, and Claims Processing. I’m not sure what the first class is. The second class should be fairly straightforward.
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14,547 Days Alive
44 Requests Completed at Work Today
2 Missed Phone Calls from Friends
I am so glad it’s the weekend. And that it’s payday. Holy shit was this week rough for me. Just… utterly dismal.
Continue reading “Of Dishes and Dairy Queen Blizzards”Of Therapy and Tolerance
14,546 Days Alive
6,876 Days Since I Stopped Drinking Alcohol
64 Minutes Spent Texting 988 Today
20 Days of this Fucking Headache
7 Days Till Spock’s 15th Birthday
1 Hour Till Payday
I’m still here. I’m suicidal but safe. No plan. Not enough energy to do anything anyway. Did therapy today. Lots of Big Emotions. But I’m still here.
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14,545 Days Alive
19th Day of this Gorram Headache
5 Years Divorced as of Today
2 Hours of Sleep
1 Therapy Session Tomorrow
I was officially divorced from my ex-wife five years ago today.
Continue reading “Of Anniversaries and Anxiety Cleaning”Of Sleeping In and Sick Days
14,544 Days Alive
60+ Faxes Handled Today
30 Minutes Late to Work
18 Days of my Headache
10 Boneless Wings Eaten
My coworker was out sick today. Not usually a problem, but I didn’t fall asleep till after three am. Again. And then I overslept by almost an hour. So I was late to work.
Continue reading “Of Sleeping In and Sick Days”Of Buffalo Sauce and Ben & Jerry’s
14,541 Days Alive
Nat 19 Rolled in Pathfinder
13 Bites of Ben & Jerry’s Half Baked Ice Cream
3.5 Hours Overtime Worked Today
3 Buffalo-Sauce Dipped Chicken Tenders from Rally’s
47 Minute Nap
1 Discussion Board Post Made Today
I am utterly exhausted. I woke up at quarter to seven this morning…. Which absolutely sucks bawls because I didn’t fall asleep until well after four am this morning. Ugh.
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14,537 Days Alive
3 of 6 Lectures Watched
1 Crying Jag
Spock kept sitting on my desk and notebook while I was trying to study this evening. And because I’m a six on the pain scale and an eight on the discomfort scale, my focus was shot today.
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14,534 Days Alive
4th Week of Class Starting Monday
2 Assignments to Finish Tomorrow Before Midnight
1 Pack of Magic: the Gathering Cards Purchased Today
I fell asleep at Beau and Tina’s today. We went for our normal game night, but Jamison, our dungeon master, and Dustin, our roommate, are out of town at C2E2 this weekend. So instead of a game or two of Magic and then Pathfinder, everyone just played Magic.
Continue reading “Of Exacerbation and Expos”Of MHO and Magic: the Gathering
14,533 Days Alive
47 Minute Nap
7 Vials of Blood Taken at My Appointment
1 Game of Magic: the Gathering Won!
So. MHO is the shorthand for the hematology:oncology office I went to after I left work early today. My new doctor is a pretty decent dude.
Continue reading “Of MHO and Magic: the Gathering”Of Breakfast Shakes and Bedrest
14,528 Days Alive
1,986 Day Streak on Duolingo
2 Little Naps Today
1 Grocery Trip
My homework is done, I was social online today, and I went grocery shopping with Mac today. I feel accomplished. And exhausted.
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