Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
14,760 Days Alive
It’s ten days till 4th of December. Between the death-anniversary, money stress, a uterus in literal bloody rebellion, and a three day and counting tension headache, I just want it to stop being so hard to be alive.
Take your meds, folks.
14,756 Days Alive
2 Weeks From Today is the 4th of December
Trigger warning: speaking on the loss of parents.
I feel like I’m not allowed to be as sad as I am about my Daddy’s death anniversary. it’s two weeks from today exactly. He’s been gone since 2018; I literally didn’t know what to do that day. Meaning the day after I got the phone call at something like three in the morning.
Continue reading “Of Cold Snaps and Coca Cola”
14,755 Days Alive
3 Books Returned to the Library Today
2 More Books Checked Out
I need to get up early-ish. Uncle Comic is doing a drive-by on his way to a convention to drop off some food for the household.
Continue reading “Of Oatmeal Cookies and Order”
14,745 Days Alive
65 Hours, Give Or Take, Until Llama Arrives
4th Week of Diagnostic Coding for Medical Billing Starting Tomorrow
3 Chicken Teriyaki Foil Packets
Okay, this time I didn’t fall asleep without posting. I did however get completely sidetracked trying to put my room back together. Brian built the new desk I got off Amazon for me today. You know, the one I’ve been meaning to build for like three weeks now? That one.
Continue reading “Of Foil and Furniture”
14,737 Days Alive
2 Trays of Potato Nachos Made for Dinner
1 Panic Attack
I am trying not to doom-spiral right now. I’m worried what the future will bring. I’m doing my best. I’m using the limited resources available to me. But gods is it hard.
Continue reading “Of Potatoes and Present”
14,732 Days Alive
$277.14 in the Red Still
4 Episodes of Murder She Wrote Watched
2 Meetings Tomorrow
I am not doing so well today. I’m sober. I’ve taken all my meds, and even ate three meals. But I’m not okay.
Continue reading “Of Worries and Writing”
14,731 Days Alive
1 Week into the Actual Coding Class
So this week is Halloween week. That means on Friday it is Bill6 and J’s 10th wedding anniversary, it is also J’s birthday, and the witch’s new year.
Continue reading “Of Birthdays and Bilateral Bursitis”
14,726 Days Alive
4.0 GPA Still
2 Bean Burritos Eaten
1 Grateful Me
Well. Things got a little less suck-tacular today.
Continue reading “Of Hurdles and Hot Cocoa”
14,718 Days Alive
Edit: I fucking forgot to hit post again.
I knocked out after taking pain meds for a killer headache this afternoon. Completely by accident. Spock kept me company on the couch as I rested.
Continue reading “Of Couches and Contentment”
14,716 Days Alive
27 Minute Work Call at 10:15 p.m
1 Accidental Couch Nap This Afternoon
I have a love of incense and scented candles. I don’t like the sprays, but I love essential oils. There’s particular scents that I have powerful, positive associations with and I blatantly abuse that fact when I’m having a bad brain day.
Continue reading “Of Smoke and Snoozing”
14,715 Days Alive
2.9 Hours Billed Today for Work
4 Homework Assignments Done
1 Extra Credit Assignment Done
Both Benny and Spock seem to be running around chasing shadows. Or a bug. Either way, they’re dashing about, each singing.
Continue reading “Of Filings and Feline Singing”
14,709 Days Alive
I got to drag Anish Kapoor for being a twat on my class Discussion Board post today. And thwacked my head pretty damn hard trying to reach one of Spock’s cat toys.
My head hurts and I have too much to do to stay up late. I’m going to try and read just a chapter and then head to bed.
Take your meds, folks!
14,693 Days Alive
28.9 Hours Worked in the Last 2.5 Days
14.8 Hours Worked Between 1 am and 1105 pm Today
5 Hours of Sleep
1 Interview Scheduled for Next Week
I burned the midnight oil today. I worked from 1am to five am on a several thousand page response to discovery for DW. I then crashed out until 10:14, got up, and got back to it.
Continue reading “Of Sour Skittles and Subpoenas”
