Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
13,058 Days Alive
I have no idea whether or not I’m trans. I’m genderqueer or genderfluid or something that means that while I was AFAB (assigned female at birth), I don’t identify as female.
Ugh. Too complicated. I’m going to go read. Or sleep. Or something.
Take your meds, folks.
13,057 Days Alive
I’m still in emotional turmoil. Death, mental disasters, and work stress have made a perfect storm of absolute fuckery that has me exhausted.
Continue reading “Of Ramen and Reality”
13,056 Days Alive
I am not up to this tonight. I’m upset and stressed and just… not up to it. I’m going to go meditate.
Take your meds, folks; and hug your loved ones as often as you can.
It’s time for another recipe! First, the recipe. Then, me blathering onward about my occasionally questionable culinary capabilities and the memories this particular treat holds for me.
Read the recipe and more…
13,055 Days Alive
1,000+ Entries Written Since PostmarkWonderland’s Inception
87 Days into 2021
7 Books Behind Schedule
5 of 52 Books Read for 2021
Today has been a long day. I woke up, out of habit, at six a.m., as if to feed the dear Mister Spock. But I was able to go back to sleep for about ninety minutes, so I got another sleep cycle in.
Continue reading “Of Books and Bluster”By: Lindsay Jayne Ashford
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Tags and Trigger Warnings:
Abuse, Blood, Child Abuse, Death, Food, Gun Violence, Infidelity, Murder, Nazis, Non-Consensual Sex, Non-Consensual Touching, Off Screen Infidelity, Off Screen Sex, Physical Abuse, Police Brutality, Poor Coping Mechanisms, Pregnancy, Racism, Romance, Sexism, Sexual Abuse, Sexual Assault,, Systemic Racism, Theft, Time Period Accurate Racism, Toxic Masculinity, Transphobia, Transmisia, Underage Drinking, Underage Drug Use, Underage Sex, Unsafe Lifestyle, Unsafe Sex, Violence, Violent Imagery, Vore, War, Women’s Fiction, Young Adult Fiction, Zombies
Body Count: beyond calculation
Continue reading “Review: The Snow Gypsy”
13,054 Days Alive
So today is another day where I spent most of my morning in transit to J’s place.
Continue reading “Of Travel and Terraforming Mars”
13,053 Days Alive
4 Slices of Frozen Pizza
I’m exhausted. Today was a super stressful day at work and while I managed to get done most of what I needed to do, I still feel like I fell short.
Continue reading “Of Dinner and Drawing”
13,052 Days Alive
So I’ve been doing some research. And I’m livid. Not mad, not pissed off, fucking livid. Because this new diagnosis? It basically means that I’m fucking broken due to trauma experienced in my past.
Continue reading “Of Anger and Acceptance”
13,051 Days Alive
So not only did I wake up around two a.m. violently ill, I also had a telehealth doctor appointment today. And I have a new diagnosis.
Continue reading “Of Distress and Diagnosis”
13,050 Days Alive
3 Pages Done
I picked up my meds after work. I was going to make dinner, but Fen had an evening engagement so I picked up some tacos and headed home.
Continue reading “Of Practical Magic and Productivity”13,049 Days Alive
45 Minute Nap on Lunch Break
3 Hours of Sleep
1.5 Burgers Eaten
I hate the “sleep aid” I’ve been prescribed. It takes forever to fall asleep. Then, I sleep anywhere between one and a half and three hours and then I’m up for the rest of the night.
Continue reading “Of Sweet Potato Fries and Sleep Deprivation”
13,048 Days Alive
1.15 Miles Walked
Reffie and I went to the Van Gogh Experience at The Dalí Museum in St. Petersburg today. I was moved to literal tears, at one point. Not by the images themselves, but by the words. His words; his own struggles and emotions in his own hand.
Continue reading “Of Emotion and Experience”
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