Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
14,739 Days Alive
2,179 Days Straight on Duolingo
8.75 Days Until Llama Visits
I don’t know why, but I have a headache that is localized to just above my goddamned right eyebrow.
Continue reading “Of Time Passing and Temple Pain”
14,736 Days Alive
I’m still not doing all right today. I did however make an absolutely delicious chicken Alfredo casserole with frozen ravioli. Ridiculously delicious.
I’m really struggling right now and I’m doing the best I can. All I can do is keep going. I really don’t know what else to do.
Happiest of birthdays to my darling, dear friend J. And happy Halloween to everyone else!
Take your meds, folks.
14,735 Days Alive
1 Bad Brain Day
Edit: posts work a LOT better if one remembers to hit “post”. Ugh.
I need to get a planner. I’m better at keeping track of certain aspects of my life on paper rather than digitally.
Continue reading “Of Halloween and Hot Dogs”
14,734 Days Alive
5 Hours of Sleep
11 Subpoenas Drafted for Work
1 Possible Contract Job
Today was one of those days where I stayed up far too late last night. I mean, I was still awake at 6:27 AM. And I don’t know why. I just couldn’t get my brain to shut off.
Continue reading “Of Gwenders and Grumpiness”
14,732 Days Alive
$277.14 in the Red Still
4 Episodes of Murder She Wrote Watched
2 Meetings Tomorrow
I am not doing so well today. I’m sober. I’ve taken all my meds, and even ate three meals. But I’m not okay.
Continue reading “Of Worries and Writing”
14,727 Days Alive
11 Documents to Generate for a Client
7 Days Till I Get Paid Again
5 Episodes of Blown Away Watched
Okay, so my hands are in agony right now. To the point where they were just red and cracking and hurt to even breathe on them. I got help from Lucian and Brian, thankfully.
Continue reading “Of Cracked Hands and Cash Flow”
14,726 Days Alive
4.0 GPA Still
2 Bean Burritos Eaten
1 Grateful Me
Well. Things got a little less suck-tacular today.
Continue reading “Of Hurdles and Hot Cocoa”
14,725 Days Alive
6 Crying Breakdowns Today
1 Massive Headache
It rained today, off and on. And tomorrow it’s supposed to be in the forties all day. Glorious weather. Not doing well, but doing my best. I have to ask a friend for grocery help again. I fucking hate it.
I’m going to bed.
Take your meds, folks.
14,722 Days Alive
1 Idiot Nazi Argued With on Social Media
Some people‘s idiocy is frankly astounding these days. I like surfing those AITA on Facebook sometimes. Some Canadian former social worker woman was being ignorant. And I asked her why. And she did not like that. 
Continue reading “Of Overdrafts and Opinions”
14,721 Days Alive
303 Job Applications Submitted Since 11 September, 2025
3 Packages of Alfredo-Style Dried Pasta Mix
1 Delicious Dinner
The hell does it say about me that after 50 milligrams of hydroxyzine, I am still peel-me-off-the-ceiling anxious?
Continue reading “Of Anxiety and Alfredo”
14,720 Days Alive
21 Days Till My Library Ebook Is Due
Okay, this is basically just a “not dead, busy reading” post.
I just had the copy of Bury Our Bones in the Midnight Soil by V.E. Schwab pop up as available for download from the library.
There goes at least the next hour of my life.
Take your meds, folks!
14,715 Days Alive
2.9 Hours Billed Today for Work
4 Homework Assignments Done
1 Extra Credit Assignment Done
Both Benny and Spock seem to be running around chasing shadows. Or a bug. Either way, they’re dashing about, each singing.
Continue reading “Of Filings and Feline Singing”
14,714 Days Alive
10.6 Billed Hours at Work Today
3 Hours Spent Rearranging Furniture
1 Tired Me
We were actually able to get the living room under control today. Meaning: that we unloaded everything off of the metal shelf in the corner, moved to the shelf, and then slowly put everything back. Oh, and shoved the couch, armchair, both end tables, and the television into place.
Continue reading “Of Living Rooms and Light”
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