Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
14,711 Days Alive
6 Current Drafts of a Mission Statement for My Soon-To-Be-Formed LLC
4 Hours of Sleep.
I’m in a manic episode. But I’m giving myself emotional fucking whiplash coz I’ll be up for six hours, depressed for a few hours, and then manic again for another 6-10 hours.
Continue reading “Of Mania and Muddled Words”
14,707 Days Alive
2,565 Days on Postmark Wonderland
7 Years on Postmark Wonderland
I forgot that it was the seven year anniversary of my being diagnosed with a mental health problem, specifically bipolar disorder with mania, major depressive disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, fibromyalgia, and CPTSD.
Continue reading “Of Fountain Pens and Fervency”
14,706 Days Alive
4 Ibuprofen Taken a Few Hours Ago
1 Game Plan I Need to Work On
I might go to the public library tomorrow. I’m pretty sure I have books checked out right now. I actually need to check and see if I do.
Continue reading “Of Atonement and Apple Pie”
14,705 Days Alive
4 Readings Done for Class
1 Interesting Day
So! I feel like I’ve been stuck, work-wise, today. I’ve got a migraine brewing, but that could be the whole accidentally stayed up till 0630 this morning? Whoops.
Continue reading “Of Chances and Challenges”
14,703 Days Alive
71 Miles Driven Roundtrip for a Working, Cheap, Multimedia Player
10 mg of Cyclobenzaprine Taken Twice Today
1 Massive Mug of Zero Sugar Root Beer Enjoyed
All my bills are paid. I get paid again next Friday from the 1099 gig. And holy hell was yesterday difficult for me. But I survived.
Continue reading “Of Rent And Radios”
14,702 Days Alive
$23.21 Spent at the Thrift Store Outlet
2 Free Blankets Received
Well. Today was both awesome and absolutely awful. Awesome stuff first, then my bitching. Here we go!
Continue reading “Of Friendliness and Feelings”
14,701 Days Alive
1 Stress-Induced Headache
Our oven is weirdly in the fritz. Not sure what would knock an electric oven out of temperature alignment? But we’ll put in a work order when we can to get it fixed.
Continue reading “Of Oven Temps and Overthinking”
14,698 Days Alive
4 Breadsticks Eaten at Dinner
1 Brand New Job!
I am taking a chance. I am choosing myself, my sanity, my long term goals, and my mental health in the long run by turning this next corner on my employment journey.
Continue reading “Of Chances and Cleverness”
14,694 Days Alive
1 Accidental Nap
Man alive am I exhausted. But I scored another contract gig while I am job hunting. So that’s great.
Continue reading “Of Cat Naps and Cheese”
14,691 Days Alive
I am exhausted and overwhelmed and fucking drowning.
Continue reading “Of Unspoken Words and Umbrage”
14,689 Days Alive
17 Minutes of a Close Call
I published/uploaded my final assignment for this week seventeen minutes before it was due. Forty-five freaking minutes were spent fighting with pivot tables. Ugh.
Continue reading “Of Color and Classwork”
14,688 Days Alive
80+ Job Applications Put In
$23.00 Spent on 26 Sliced, Freshly Made Donuts and Two Tubs of Whipped Cream Cheese
3 Cat Treats Stolen from Spock By Benny
1 Gradual Reduction of Shock
I think I’m ready to talk about what happened on Thursday. Prefacing with I am physically fine, I am mentally, emotionally, and fiscally fucked.
Continue reading “Of Lie Ins and Laid Off”
14,685 Days Alive
I made a damn good chicken soup for dinner. I didn’t have to deal with the bone in chicken, thankfully. Bryan took care of it for me.
Work sucked. Maybe tomorrow will be better.
Take your meds, folks.
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