Of Untimely Demises and Unbearable Weight

August 26, 2026August 27, 2026 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

15,034 Days Alive

138 Miles to Drive from Work to the Parliament of Chaos

9 Tim Burton Comfort Films Watched in the Last Month

4 Specific Movies to Watch Planned (9 to 5, Clue, Steel Magnolias, and Muppet Treasure Island)

2 Days Until I Travel to the Parliament of Chaos Again

1 Crying Fit at 5am…Again

Life sure is life-ing again. It’s been a month since my last entry. I was trying to get back into the daily habit of blogging but seem to have, at least temporarily, failed.

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Of Mount Clean Clothes and a Manic Upswing

January 10, 2026March 16, 2026 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,807 Days Alive

1 Closet in Desperate Need of a Clean Up

The photo you see is me taking a step back, looking at the monster hellscape that has become my closet, and nearly crying.

I’m going to tackle it today. Pray for me.

And take your meds, folks!

Of Hip Pain and Hydroxyzine

December 28, 2025 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,794 Days Alive

2,230 Days Straight on Duolingo

5 Shelves on the Bookshelf I Built This Evening

3 Ibuprofen Taken

Welp, I had a full on panic attack today. Pretty much disassembled my room onto my bed trying to find the old smart watch that DW gave me back in 2020.

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Of Deep Breaths and Double Hot Cocoa

December 23, 2025December 26, 2025 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,789 Days Alive

2 Packets of Hot Cocoa Powder Accidentally Added to My Cup

My new job does the full-timers well around the holidays. And Rose, rockstar that she is, set up a hot cocoa bar in the break room! Super cool. Of course, I got distracted listening to someone talk about books and accidentally added two packets of hot cocoa to one cup. A delicious mistake, but I kinda felt bad.

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Of Reality and Ranunculaceous

November 25, 2025 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,761 Days Alive

239 Days Until My 15th Millenary Anniversary

5 +/- Types of Flowers I Want to Make into an Art Piece

Did you know that I can’t have any of my top three favorite flowers due to their potential toxicity to cats? Yup. Buttercups, specifically ranunculus like delphinium, foxglove, and tiger lilies are my hands-down favorite flowers.

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Of Lemonade and Letting Go

November 23, 2025 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,759 Days Alive

8 Books on Hold at the Library

0 Clue What Our Household is Doing for the Holiday This Week

I am not… doing okay today. I fell asleep after three am this morning and I wasn’t even awake late reading. Just couldn’t get the old brain to shut the fuck up.

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Of Onions and Overnight

November 22, 2025 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,758 Days Alive

6 Cookies Given to L to Enjoy

1 Massive Tub of Popcorn

I cried. In a mostly-good way, but yeah, that movie was a fist to the emotional solar plexus.

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Of Potatoes and Present

November 1, 2025November 8, 2025 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,737 Days Alive

2 Trays of Potato Nachos Made for Dinner

1 Panic Attack

I am trying not to doom-spiral right now. I’m worried what the future will bring. I’m doing my best. I’m using the limited resources available to me. But gods is it hard.

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Of Gwenders and Grumpiness

October 29, 2025November 8, 2025 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,734 Days Alive

5 Hours of Sleep

11 Subpoenas Drafted for Work

1 Possible Contract Job

Today was one of those days where I stayed up far too late last night. I mean, I was still awake at 6:27 AM. And I don’t know why. I just couldn’t get my brain to shut off.

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Of Bereavement and Breathing

October 19, 2025 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,724 Days Alive

2,512 Days Since My Dad Passed Away

9 Courses Until I Finish My Degree

7 Years Gone in December

Hey, friends. This ain’t a happy entry, for the most part. No offenses taken if you skip this one.

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Of Invidia and Instrumental Music

October 18, 2025 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,723 Days Alive

$485.54 Or More Needed ASAP to Pay Bills and Get My Account into the Positive

-$269.28 in the Bank.

10 Days to Pay My Car Insurance

1 Asthma Attack Last Night

Man. I need to find an anti-evil eye hanger or something for my bedroom. Or cast another spell on the full moon on the 5th of November. Something to get out of this death roll.

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Of Couches and Contentment

October 13, 2025 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,718 Days Alive

Edit: I fucking forgot to hit post again.

I knocked out after taking pain meds for a killer headache this afternoon. Completely by accident. Spock kept me company on the couch as I rested.

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Of Filings and Feline Singing

October 10, 2025 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,715 Days Alive

2.9 Hours Billed Today for Work

4 Homework Assignments Done

1 Extra Credit Assignment Done

Both Benny and Spock seem to be running around chasing shadows. Or a bug. Either way, they’re dashing about, each singing.

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