Of Untimely Demises and Unbearable Weight

August 26, 2026August 27, 2026 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

15,034 Days Alive

138 Miles to Drive from Work to the Parliament of Chaos

9 Tim Burton Comfort Films Watched in the Last Month

4 Specific Movies to Watch Planned (9 to 5, Clue, Steel Magnolias, and Muppet Treasure Island)

2 Days Until I Travel to the Parliament of Chaos Again

1 Crying Fit at 5am…Again

Life sure is life-ing again. It’s been a month since my last entry. I was trying to get back into the daily habit of blogging but seem to have, at least temporarily, failed.

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Of Mount Clean Clothes and a Manic Upswing

January 10, 2026March 16, 2026 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,807 Days Alive

1 Closet in Desperate Need of a Clean Up

The photo you see is me taking a step back, looking at the monster hellscape that has become my closet, and nearly crying.

I’m going to tackle it today. Pray for me.

And take your meds, folks!

Of Tears and Tension

November 24, 2025November 26, 2025 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ Leave a comment

14,760 Days Alive

It’s ten days till 4th of December. Between the death-anniversary, money stress, a uterus in literal bloody rebellion, and a three day and counting tension headache, I just want it to stop being so hard to be alive.

Take your meds, folks.

Brain Gremlins and Babes

November 4, 2018November 5, 2018 ~ Theodora Vanyar ~ 1 Comment

Days alive: 12,182

Words Written for NaNoWriMo So Far: 12,666

Words Left to Write for NaNoWriMo: 37,334

Adventures Had Today: 2

Suicidal Thoughts Today: dozens

Cups of Tea Had: 4 (sweet, chilled kind)

Cats Being Clingy Meowing Jerks: 3

Rough mental day, but I got some pretty nice pictures out of it! Warning, I am currently struggling with suicidal issues. You may want to skip this read.

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