Coming back from the other side of my Bipolar Wonderland through medication, creativity, and moxie.
14,564 Days Alive
2,021 Days Straight on Duolingo
9 Minutes 56 Second on Hold to Speak With My Academic Advisor
3rd Week of My Second Term
0 Cupcakes Eaten This Week
I’ve got overtime I have to do all this week. It is absolutely exhausting.
Continue reading “Of Candles and Cupcakes”
14,561 Days Alive
Played a game on Steam with Mac. Super tired. Just trying to keep my head above water.
Strive to be happy was the line I said was my goal for the year. I’m still striving.
Take your meds, folks.
14,560 Days Alive
9,210 Ebooks Downloaded or Checked Out From the Library
484 Faxes Forwarded To Our Logger At Work
51 Days Till My 40th Birthday
2 Books I Am Waffling Between Reading
I got some homework done this evening, but not as much as I hoped to. I was in a whole lot of pain for some reason. Just general back ache and stomach pain. And then reality, realization, and annoyance set in.
Continue reading “Of Practical Magic and Pickles”
14,559 Days Alive
3 Articles Cited in APA Format
2 Discussion Board Posts Due Today
Edit: son of a bitch! Blog posts work better when you hit “post”.
Well! My left kneecap keeps clicking slightly out of place and I don’t know where my knee brace is. Ugh. This hasn’t happened in a while, but holy hell does it suck.
Continue reading “Of Knees and Knowledge”
14,558 Days Alive
93.6% In My Claims Cycles Class
3 Days Till Payday
2 Bowls of Turkey Chili Eaten
–$26.11 in the Bank Till Friday
Well, fuck. I don’t often overdraft myself. But apparently. I have to rock being in the red until Friday because something pulled out when it shouldn’t have.
Continue reading “Of Damnit All and Disappointment”
14,557 Days Alive
44 Requests Processed at Work
10 Hot Buffalo Boneless Wings Eaten for Dinner
1 Stop at the Dollar General for Groceries
I have a thing for fizzy beverages. I don’t quite know why. I just like the bubbles, I guess? Anyway, I went grocery shopping today, at the Dollar General. A single, 20 ounce bottle of pop was $2.50! Ridiculous.
Continue reading “Of Wings and Water”
14,553 Days Alive
15 Years of Spock Being Alive
1 More Day Until My Iron Infusion Appointment
I’m super fucking out of spoons, so this will be brief.
Continue reading “Of Beltane 2025 and Birthday Brats”
14,551 Days Alive
2,008 Days Straight on Duolingo
10 Chicken Nuggets Eaten for Dinner
8 New Plates/Bowls/Cup Bought From WalMart
2 Sinks Cleaned Out and Sanitized
Ooof. I am so fucking tired of this headache. C’mon Friday! Get here fast! I need iron!
Continue reading “Of Doing Dishes and Depression”
14,550 Days Alive
2,007 Days Straight on Duolingo
24th Day of My Headache
3 Days Till Spock’s 15th Birthday/Beltane
2 New Classes Started
1 Episode of Ghost Hunters Watched with Mac
Well. I tried to go to the ER after work. Four hours in, I left without ever even being triaged. I’m going to try a different ER tomorrow, if I still have this damn headache. I didn’t even check out AMA, because they never even checked me out. Ugh. Goddamnit.
Continue reading “Of Ghost Hunters and Goddammit”
14,548 Days Alive
22nd Day of This Stupid Freaking Headache
5 Weeks Done of Introduction to Healthcare Communication
6 White Chocolate Macadamia Nut Cookies Received from Doordash
1 Nat 20 Rolled on a Check During Pathfinder
Today is my fifth and final week of my first college class. I have two new classes: Student Success as well as Healthcare Settings, Claim Cycles, and Claims Processing. I’m not sure what the first class is. The second class should be fairly straightforward.
Continue reading “Of Nat 20s and Nachos”
14,547 Days Alive
44 Requests Completed at Work Today
2 Missed Phone Calls from Friends
I am so glad it’s the weekend. And that it’s payday. Holy shit was this week rough for me. Just… utterly dismal.
Continue reading “Of Dishes and Dairy Queen Blizzards”
14,546 Days Alive
6,876 Days Since I Stopped Drinking Alcohol
64 Minutes Spent Texting 988 Today
20 Days of this Fucking Headache
7 Days Till Spock’s 15th Birthday
1 Hour Till Payday
I’m still here. I’m suicidal but safe. No plan. Not enough energy to do anything anyway. Did therapy today. Lots of Big Emotions. But I’m still here.
Continue reading “Of Therapy and Tolerance”
14,545 Days Alive
19th Day of this Gorram Headache
5 Years Divorced as of Today
2 Hours of Sleep
1 Therapy Session Tomorrow
I was officially divorced from my ex-wife five years ago today.
Continue reading “Of Anniversaries and Anxiety Cleaning”
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